my mum-hood story

KPI

2012-01-20T14:08:00.001+08:00

ialah Key Performance Indicator. tahun ni blum set lg KPI tp yg pasti saya daj tak payah buat budget. yahooo eh oops! alhamdulillah~~ accountings, budgetting or anything to do with money was never my forte. i hate the justification part mainly because i'm not the one who's overutiliaing or underutilising the budget. justify utk org lain, it sucks u know? glad that somebody else will be doing it this year.

oh KPI saya personally utk tahun ni, to find a hobby! and once dah jumpe that hobby i plan to really put my heart into it. eh, ni KPI ke azam? hantam sajalah.

KPI yg lagi penting yg pasti menjadi soalan feveret makcik2 Bedah ialah, 'bila nak tambah anak?' atau dlm bajasa Jawa, 'when r u planning for ur next kid?' yup, at this point 'planning' is the big word. dari byk segi. financially, emotionally, physically ( my body is still recovering) n yg paling penting, socially- like who's going to take care of the baby later. unless i got a super filipino muslim maid, then making the decision to add another one wudnt be so difficult. so it is save to put a KPI to this so that bila org tanya xdelar pjg sgt nak explain.. hahaha! kalau dulu nak tunggu 3rd, my target was until Alya pandai ckp ( and boy, she's one smart girl, cepat pulak dia pandai cakap :))) itu yg kite panggil rezeki :)) ). so utk yg ke-4 aci tak kalau i put a KPI -

jeng jeng

jeng jeng

jeng jeng

until i become a Manager.

it is the same target that i put for me to resign. i will resign only when i already become a Manager. itupun kalau masa tu tak jadik mata duitan. tah2 kena kerja sampai pencen.. gugugaga. sbb nanti budak2 dah g skolah, confirm
boring tahap gaban. takkan tetiap hari nak baca gosip Rita Rudaini, Aidil, Ayu Raudhah ngan Zaquan kot?

oh just for ur info ( not that u care though.. hehehe ) i am on Team Rita..her husband shud stand by her instead of running away like some chicken with their heads cut off. mcm dlm citer 'Pisau Cukur', Maya said to Eizlan ..'I want a husband who can protect me, even from his own family'.. i luv that line! :)

oh, saya mmg suke off topic. misi nak gi JJ harini x berjaya nampaknye kerana jln sgt jem. saye sedang lepak kt Tesco minum carrot juice sambil planning for groceries shoping japgi....

Ariana Mikhail

2012-01-17T22:47:00.001+08:00

adalah citer yg diadaptasi dari kisah fantasi Mama Ariana...pelakon lelaki utama adalah sejibik seperti yg difantasikan.. hahaha!!

i'm juz enjoying my last few days on maternity leave. truth is, i AM feeling kind of excited going back to work. i miss all the stress, i guess. hahaha. dont get me wrong, there's also stress at home but it's a different kind, the kind that u need to deal with it, swallow it, handle it and sometimes just bear with it on your own. but stress at work allows some room for gossiping and more gossiping!!! cant wait!

this week i am still a bit 'jetlag' from last week's hospital visits. Hafiz was warded for 5 days at PCMC so berulang aliklah ke hospital sampai sakit2 badan. the fact that i was also having viral fever as well did little to help.. bukan setakat tu, Papa pun kena food poisoning. so it was the sick taking care of the sick.

Because i wasnt allowed to bring little Aina to the hospital fir fear if her getting infected by the 'flying viruses' all over there, i made a drastic decision to start her at the nursery last week, phew. sian anak Mama. she followed Alya's footstep-going to nursery before she reaches 2 month old. Alhamdullillah, her first day went well. The nursery isnt really up to my standards ( i miss Ampang so bad!), but i juz have to settle for what we have here, for now. The only thing that makes up to that is i know the caretakers are taking good care of my baby..as long as drg jaga ok and pracrice good hygiene on my baby, i dont have any complains abt anything else. :)

oh, this week i didnt send Aina to nursery. the elder 2 pun i x antar.. nak main puas2 dgn drg.. sedey jugak pasni dah masuk keje, dpt jumpe weekend je. mlm2 sure kelam kabut nak pack brg for the next day pulak ;(. Sayangnyer kt anak2 ni, Tuhan je yg tau.. geram camner pun, jerit camner pun kt drg, dlm hati tetap sayang..sepjg cuti x pegi bawak jln jauh2 pun.. kengkangan masa dan budget! hahaha. sebenarnye x karat nk travel jauh2. tunggulah bdn kuat skit.. ni kuar g JJ pun dah semput.. tmpt yg sempat pegi pas Mama abis pantang Air Terjun Hulu Langat, Muzium Alam Semulajadi Putrajaya, Tutti Frutti (hahaha! masuk gak senarai sbb teringin nak pegi masa dlm pantang :p oh ye, we luv yg peach n berry flavour!!) , urmm tu jelah.. pastu dah x larat nak kemana-mana... :).

kalau dulu masa sekolah, cikgu selalu pesan, baca arahan soalan byk kali, pastikan kalau tulis jawapan especially esei, jgn lari dari topik.

entri ni contoh jawapan yg lari dari topik. and typo merata-rata x bley blah, malas nak edit.sekian.

God, please grant me a mountain of patience

2012-01-09T19:18:00.001+08:00

... cos I need it now more than ever...

Schazzy's Best of 2011 Entertainment

2011-12-30T16:00:00.001+08:00

1) Best Song

Sedetik Lebih

Setiap nafas yang dihembus

Setiap degupan jantung

Aku selalu memikirkanmu

Dalam sedar dibuai angan

Dalam tidur dan khayalan

Aku selalu memikirkanmu

Ternyata ku perlukan cinta dari dirimu sayang

Barulah terasa ku bernyawa

Kasihku…ku amat mencintai kamu

Kerana kau beri erti hidup

Ku kan terus mencinta sedetik lebih selepas selamanya

Di kala penuh ketakutan dengan badai kehidupan

Ku bersyukur adanya kamu

Biarlah kehilangan semua yang dimiliki di dunia

Asal masih adanya kamu...

wonderful melody & lyrics!

2) Best Movie

brilliantly intelligent! need i say more?

3) Best Survivor Tribal Council

(from the latest South Pacific season)

The one where Brandon gave away his Immunity necklace to Albert.

Like, whatgedeheckkk??? As Ozzy said: 'When u give up your immunity necklace, your ass is going home.' Well, it was entertaining to watch :))

4) Best Series

I'm not sure whether the seasons they are featuring are the latest ones but I enjoyed watching these 2 series this year:

i luv this couple a lot! and yes, like every fan i wish they'll conceive soon! but giulliana will undergo treatment for her breast cancer and she's removing both breast if i'm not mistaken..so i guess they'll put a pause in their parenthood journey for a while. I do hope she'll recover quickly & get her healthy body back.. ;) i admire bill's unwavering support to his wife. they are both lovely people and i hope someday they'll get their baby, if that would make them happier! :)

undeniably hilarious!! i luv all the characters & i envy their friendship..hurmm..best kan kalau ader member lepak2, borak2 like dat everyday? hehehe

Best of the best! - the arrival of our new bundle of joy!

sumber entertainment yg always free of charge! and kemudian menjadi sumber headache plak bila dah start aksi2 ganas oleh abg & kakak..huhuhu

Schazzy's 2011 Lessons Learnt

2011-12-28T16:31:00.000+08:00

Hola! Welcome to E!News, my version. hehehe.

It's the last week of 2011! While some of us is already busy making resolutions for 2012, I would like to take a short trip down 2011 memory lane to recap some of the stuff that I learnt throughout the year.

L1: Business needs passion

i joined this network business with a goal to of course, generate more income. however, merely 2 months into the business, i learnt that business without passion is like driving a car without a destination to go to. You know you you get to see so many things along the way, meet a lot of people, maybe gain enough money but you couldnt feel the sense of satisfaction cos u r not sure whether thats what u want, or where will it finally ends. and while driving u dont feel the feeling of joy becos you know in your heart that u dont want to go to all those places, you dont belong to that kind of people and the money itself doesnt bring any meaningful purpose to you. So yeah, i fell out. it's a great loss to me considering the fact i haven't been able to sell all my products. I didnt get the returns on my investment which is a big OUCH! for me.

Lesson: know any business in and out upfront. talk to those who succeed and those who failed (yes, we need to know why they've failed). we need to know the pros and cons, both sides of the coins, not just the good part, especially so if we are newbies. weigh all the options and resources available and most importantly, take a moment to really ask ourselves, 'is this what we really want?'. becos in the end, if it is not our passion, somehow what we thought can make us extra money for extra comfort, becomes instead an extra burden for us.

L2: Always take the high road, be forgive-ful

This year has been the most challenging year for my career. chewah, career tu. :P. it's been a challenging year in my worklife. i learnt that people can be really be mean to you when they hold the higher position. byk2 tahun rasanya tahun ni juga yg paling byk org yg saya kenali resign from the company i'm working with. and tahun ni jugak merupakan tahun yg paling byk saye berfikir utk resign jugak. mcm2 saya buat termasuk solat hajat mohon petunjuk dr Allah. i can handle the stress of the work but i cant handle the emotional outburst of the people. i cant control them. luckily, i had plenty of time to think abt what i should do when i was given a one-month medical leave. i asked those who has quit/resign, i search for other available options if i decided to end my current job, i re-evaluate my financial standing, i 'hinted' for advices from my family if i choose to quit (i never told them my intention directly..nak kena sembur??? hahaha) and like i've mentioned before, i seek guidance from Allah. and Alhamdulillah, eventho in the end i choose to stay, i feel more at peace knowing that i've done what i needed to do to come to the decision. and yes, it means i still have to face those mean people. like i said, i cant change them, but i can change how i feel towards them. so now, whenever they're being mean i just have to remind myself that, there a re other things worse than this and they are only mean because that's just who they are. at the end of the day i'll just forgive and try to forget. And THAT, feels good. Forgiving ppl feels good :).

Lesson: As quoted by Harriet Nelson, 'Forgive all those who have offended you, not for them, but for yourself' :)

L3: Consistency is the key

Let me tell you an open secret. I'm not a good financial planner. I suck at budgetting (this is proven), I hate accounting. I'm an impulse buyer, but luckily i dont go shopping that often. So yes, all these resulted in me not handling my money dgn sewajarnye. I hate going to the bank becos they took forever @ the counter to process whatever needed to be processed. So in the end, mana yg x masuk dlm savings lama2 hilang terus dr account. hehehehe. So, sbg langkah berjaga2, i potong gaji siap2..mana yg supposedly masuk savings, zakat, tabung haji, semua terus dah potong direct from gaji. ada yg i buat standing instructions tru cimb clicks. oh yea. speaking of SI. I did SI to deposit some of my salary monthly to Hafiz & Alya's Yippie. Now, this has been going on since last year. Cuma this year i terasa nak check balik all my online transactions. and guess what??? rupe2nye, standing instruction from CIMB to Maybank dikenakan charge sebanyak RM 7 per transaction. RM7!!!! So that times 2 (Hafiz & Alya), i hilang bodoh2 RM14..cesss sungguh. and i only realized this after one year...huwaaaaaaa..byk jugak tu..korang darab la sendiri. huhuhu. Anyhow, i terminate the SI, now i juz consistenly transfer the money online every month. still kena charge RM 1 per transaction. murahlah dr RM 7 considering saye mmg malas nak gi bank ni kan. kekekke. kalau bole semua nak online bab2 duit ni. tak suke gi bank! tatau kenape...:P. So lepas discover about the exorbitanty charged service charge, i make it a point to consistenly bank in anything that needed to be transferred from my account to other banks every end of the month. ini also langkah utk mengelak dr membelanja dgn berlebihan. So before even 1st of the next month tu, duit gaji mmg cukup2 mkn je...semua dah masuk bank2 yg xder Kad ATM bg susah payah skit kalau nak kluarkan..huhuhu..and Alhamdulillah, nampaklah hasilnye hujung tahun ni :)

Lesson: Know your weakness (& strength, of course) and work around it.

L4: Let it out

As mentioned earlier, tahun ni is a very challenging year @ my workplace. stress tu mmg selalu terbawak2 ke rumah. ape taknyer, kerja pun kena buat kt rumah, dgn bersengkang mata, sakit badan and everything. pagi2 masuk ofis kena marah lagi. so yes, it was very stressful. but i learnt that i have many supportive friends around me. my previous bosses, who are always willing to lend an ear, my new & old officemates yg kepala gile2 and tahap stress lebey kurang sama jugak so we share all our ups and downs together eventho lain2 department, my email buddy, kawan2 kt communicator, miss che ah yg selalu kena kaco kt email dgn cerita2 stress saya and oso my newfound facebook buddies..hehehe..not forgetting another support system who never fail to support me, this blog! walaupun tahun ni jarang dpt update blog :(. all these support system has helped me through my darkest days. it feels great to have some channel to let out my feelings to. selain tu i also did a lot of blog hopping. and join forum2. oh, sumber stress tahun ni bukanlah di ofis semata2. byk benda membuatkan terasa stress. tp x bole lar nak citer kt sini kan. hehehe. ape yg penting, saya tau mcm mana pun teruk sesuatu tu, kite kena sentiasa igt ader org yg lebih teruk dari kite..and yg lebih penting lg, jgn terlalu pikirkan sgt benda2 yg di luar kawalan kita..

Lesson:

L4: My body is aging & I should start taking better care of it

This year i got pregnant with my 3rd baby. I realized that my body tidak sekuat dahulu lg. senang je rasa sakit2 dan sengal2 di sana sini. and that is why towards the end of my pregnancy (when suddenly mendapat cahaya kesedaran) i started taking supplements. I took a set of Shaklee products from my good friend, Along and so far mmg best. Ada Vit C, B Complex, Alfalfa and Mealshake. mealshake tu cuma time rajin je saya buat (blend dgn ice lg u..tp time berpantang ni minum camtu je..) but the rest tu mmg religiously mkn everyday. The main reason i took the set is for my breastfeeding supplements. Other than these i also took calcium tablet since I dont drink milk. I believe B Complex byk membantu handle my stress during confinement (i'm one stressful person, aint I?) . but seriuosly i think the B Complex does its job well. mmgla ader jugak breakdon sekali sekala, I'm only human afterall tp kalau nak compare, i lagi senang cool down, tak cepat merajuk dah. hehe. ye ke? my hubby might not agree with this (but hey, mmg dia suke buat i merajuk sape suruh kan..:P hehehe), but i think i'm a bit cheerful now. chewah. So Ms Along, wait for my next order yea..

Lesson: Be kind to your body & brain, give them the nourishment that they need..

Eh, mcm pjg giler la plak entry kali ni...hahhaa...byk lg pengajaran tahun 2011 ni sebenarnye.. tp ni antara yg major impact lar..yg baik jadikan teladan, yg buruk jadikan sempadan..hehehe...oh yea, ada satu lg pengajaran yg sgt terkesan di hati saya. Ni hasil dr sesi borak2 dgn sedara PIL, nama dia Pak Nal..topik borak2 haritu ialah tentang menjaga parents apabila kita sudah berkahwin.

1. tanggungjawab seorg anak perempuan selepas berkahwin adalah suaminya. suami dia tetap no. 1 walau apepun. tp kalau situasi memerlukan, dan seorg anak perempuan perlu menjaga ibubapanye, maka itu satu bonus utk dia. kerana dia diberi peluang utk berbakti pada kedua org tuanya. tp mesti, mesti dgn keredhaan suaminya. suami mesti setuju utk sama2 menjaga ibubapa perempuan itu. selagi suami redha, maka tidak timbul masalah.

2. ikhlas tak bole diukur. tak bole disebut. tak bole dinilai. ikhlas tu Allah je yg tau. sbb tu kite kena sentiasa berlapang dada bile memberi. senyum shj. jgn ungkit. dan jgn mengharap balasan apa2. mcm bila kite jaga parents kita. jgn anggap kita dah balas jasa mereka walaupun sedikit. sbb byk mana kite buat pun kite takkan terbalas jasa dan pengorbanan mereka membesarkan kite. takkan terbalas hatta dgn harta benda sekalipun. dan saya sendiri sbg ibu jugak, jgn mengharap satu hari nanti anak2 saya akan 'membalas' titik peluh saya membesarkn diorg, sbb anak2 tu dah mmg amanah Allah pada kita. we brought them into this world. maka mmg tanggungjawab kite memberi didikan, kasih sayang dan segala kerperluan dan kelengkapan utk mereka hidup sendiri bila kita dah takde nanti. so dont ever2 rasa anak2 perlu membalas 'jasa' kite sbb if kite didik dia dgn betul, insyaAllah, it will all come naturally. anak2 tetap akan sayang kite walau setua mana kite nanti.. :)

i'm still learning utk ikhlas dlm perbuatan. tipulah kalau saya kata tak pernah terdetik rasa nak ungkit je ape yg saya dah buat utk suami, anak2, parents both sides, etc. tp bukan ungkit utk mintak dibalas. mungkin sekadar mintak utk difahami. perasaan tu kadang2 dtg masa tgh sedih, tgh marah, tgh penat. i'm only human, remember? tapi saya cuba. cuba sedaya upaya. saya baca artikel2 tentang benda2 yg relate dgn ape yg saye alami. saya dgr ceramah2 ustaz di youtube (favorite is of course, ustaz azhar! :) and ustaz don)... it helps a lot. sbb saya rasa, walau apa pun tanggapan masyarakat, atau apa pun yg org ckp and fikir pasal saya, hanya Allah je yg tau isi hati saya.

kaylar..makin pjg la plak..hahaha..sampai tahun depan baca pun x habis nanti..so that's all in the year that was...hopefully 2012 akan membawa byk lg pengajaran2 yg lebih bermakna!!

oh, i cant hardly wait for Jan 1st, 2012!!! 2 more days for my confinement period to end!!!!!!!!!! yahooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!

me the masterchef wannabe

2011-12-19T14:32:00.001+08:00

Berkobar-kobar memasak sekarang.

hihi. i'm luving it. tak sangka masa zaman belajar dulu tak pandai masak pun.

sekarang dah tahap semi-pro. ceh. hahaha. tengok resipi boleh lah. am still learning.

So semalam telah membuat Pengat Durian & Roti Jala.

Resipi pengat durian:

7-8 ulas durian

1.5 plastik santan (agak2 dlm sebijik kelapa)

Gula melaka (ikut rasa. saya letak 2 keping yg diameter lebih kurang 3 cm)

4 helai daun pandan

Sedikit garam

Actually, saya alter sikit resipi dari sini. Saya tak letak gula sbb dah rasa super manis. And I added water sbb pekat sgt.

Resipi roti jala amik kat Myresipi. Mmg marvellous rasa dia.

Utk roti jala ni, adik saya yg jaga station. Maknanya dia yg buat semua bancuhan sehinggalah part menjala tu. hehehe. Oh, utk bancuhan tu kalau cair, sila tambah sukatan tepung, butter dan garam utk memudahkan proses menjala.

Verdict from critics: "Awesome!"

*again no piccas cos we were busy in the kitchen and after that busy eating! (i jamah sikit je..:P..14 more days to end my confinement..sabar..sabar..)

Oh, nak try buat mince meat pie pulak. stumbled upon the recipe @ this blog:-

Walk of Life. nampak best, kan??

Fuh, what's up with all these cooking & recipes entries? Saje nak share my newfound hobby kot..hehehe..or maybe we can call it 'Hobby of the Week'. Pasni mcm teringin nak buat hobby lain plak. I have an idea of doing this thing..I shall reveal it when I've actually started doing it.. hehehe. tungguuuu~ for now, just bear all these entries on my newfound passion ni yea. hikhik.

Nak share gambar plak..my dream kitchen(s)..these are to die for!! i luv all designs but I like the last one the most!

Oh! The places you'll go

2011-12-16T14:20:00.000+08:00

..is a book written by Dr. Seuss. If you're a psychology junky like me, you should go grab this book @ the nearest bookstore or download the apps to your iphone. I don't have it in my book collection (yet) so anyone wants to give one to me as a gift, please, i would really appreciate it! :)) Or better still (if u dont want to give it to me), give it to your children to read. Trust me, it's a good book.

Well, I'm not going to talk about the book here.

Just thought about it just now. Pastu rasa nak buat some short recap on the places that our family went this year :)) :-

In random order.....

1. Sunway Lagoon - super best! there will be a 2nd or 3rd time, insyaAllah

2. Zoo Melaka - wayyyyyyyy much better than Zoo Negara, trust me!

3. Cameron Highlands - satu keluarga ipar duai pegi except my PIL becos there were away @ Jakarta..eh ke Bandung? x igt dah..hahaha..sejuk giler kot Cameron Highlands ni ..baru gi Cameron kan..kalau pegi negara bersalji dah beku agaknyer..

4. The Legend Water Homes, Port Dickson - best! wish we had more time there~

5. Petrosains - juz Hafiz , my maid & me went here this year..penat gak jln2 dlm tu bawak budak kecik ni..yg kelakarnyer, semua benda dia takut..???? ni masuk Petrosains ke masuk umah hantu??

6. Rabbit Farm - lots of rabbits!! and oso a few other farm animals. The rest of the family ate satay rabbit tu..i didnt becos...errr..euwww~ hahahaha!!

mcm pelik je takder gambar kan? i tried uploading a few times but it seems like forever lah dia nak upload dlm ni..maybe because the pic size from my camera is too big. Lepas format computer hari tu, my old photo editor dah hilang..yg baru ni, tak reti nak guna camner..huhu..pasni amik gambar guna phone jelah senang..kecik sikit size dia :)

Kaylah..tahun ni mmg x berjln jauh sgt. faktor masa dan kesihatan yg x berapa mengizinkan. tahun depan rasa nak pegi take a break in nature lah..teringin nakgi Taman Negara..takpun pegi mana2 island kat Sabah..(Sabah tu..padahal kt Terengganu pun ader..:PpPph ..saje nak gi jejauhkan)..Paling best kalau dpt gi Universal Studios, Singapore...wahh!! tetibe!! hahaha

juz wishing & hoping!

Cooking with Love

2011-12-15T16:39:00.000+08:00

After counting the days, my confinement period will end on 31st December 2011. Which means, I can celebrate my 'freedom' on 1st January 2012! The same date as SAPPHIRE & ECC6 go-live! hahaha.. historical lah sgt kan.. :PpP

Confinement may as well be called 'Boredom-ment',,hehehe..oh, i luv the resting, loitering around doing nothing, reading, surfing the web, blogging, watching countless tv shows and online videos BUT it does get boring over time. I'm a physical person. I like to move around.

I asked hubby whether I can join him cycling later on..he says Ok but I need to get over this confinement period first! huhu..

My mom is very strict on all this berpantang-pantang thing. (Good Luck, sisters!). This time around i dah x melawan sgt..hehe..ader jugak tu disobey skit especially part kena pakai baju lengan pjg..aiseh! panas giler kot walaupun musim hujan..i'm practically sweating all the time. tu without long sleeves tu..kalau pakai long sleeves agaknyer dah berasap dah..hehe.. tp this around pun mak dah x bising2 sgt mcm dulu. either becos i x melawan, atau dia dah malas nak ckp anak dia degil sgt takmo dgr..:ppPPpp

oklah..so to kill my boredom-ness, i did some cooking. haaaaaaaa...ini pun menerima bantahan hebat daripada mak. mak ckp berpantang x bole masak2. i disagree with her. tp in a not so obvious way..hhehe..sbb selalunyer i preapre the ingredients while she's asleep. so bila dia turun bawah, tgk i dah nak start menumis. kekeke. at this point she either take over, atau i will manage to pujuk dia to let me finish my cooking. ceh, bunyik mcm dah masak byk kali je padahal baru 2 kali. so dah sekali berjaya masak sampai habis, and the first time tu i preapred everything, mak just masukkan dlm periuk.. :)

so what were the dishes?

Day 1: Mee Bandung

Day 2: Mee Hailam

Piccas takderlah. Resipi i took from our 'Aneka Mee' punyer resipi book. Copy sebijik ingredients dia tp amount alter skit to suit the no of ppl yg nak mkn.

Today is Day 3.

Hari ni masak lauk simple je utk dimkn dgn nasik. Dah 2 hari mkn mee kan. Plannyer today nak masak Bendi Goreng Telur and Ayam Goreng Sos Tiram. nanti bley mkn dgn nasik n kicap. Ayam dah perap tadi. Simple je, sos tiram, lada hitam, kunyit and garam sikit. Bendi Goreng pakai resipi kt sini and sini.

Challenge masak bendi ni is lendir dia tu. Antara petua supaya tak berlendir 1. jgn masukkan air masa goreng 2. letak asam keping dlm gorengan tu. Nanti saya cuba. hopefully menjadilah.

Semua yg masak tu i cannot eat pun sekarang ni..so org lainlah yg mkn. yg penting semua dpt merasa...and oso bg mak rest skit cos sian dia kena masak lauk pantang saya lagi..huhu. oh, sbb prinsip saye masuk kitchen before magrib, so the past 2 days, semua org mkn dinner awal. bagus. semoga pasni bole kekalkan begitu yer hendaknyer. tak bagus mkn mlm2 sgt :)

ok, baby's already asleep..cooking time!!

“One cannot think well, love well, sleep well, if one

has not dined well.”- Virginia Woolf

The origin of Aina Ariana

2011-12-12T15:09:00.001+08:00

There's a tale behind every name, isn't there?

Aina's name wasn't finalized until her 7th day after birth. Along the way, there's a lot of suggestions from a lot of people on what her name should be.

I've always liked the name 'Maya'. But sadly, the meaning and the origin of the name is uncertain. It would help if i at least have the meaning so that i know what i'm actually 'praying' for my daughter. Nama anak bila kita panggil kan jadik doa.. :)

So i scrapped off Maya. Itu pun after the baby was born. I dont actually have other reserved names for her. It is because i know that ppl will always challenge my name selections and i would always end up 'losing'. hehehe.

Hence, i let them keep suggesting the names. At the same time, i also look for other names. My mum & dad suggested Aina Nadhira. I instantly love the name Aina. Its short, sweet & simple :). And i think its only fair that this time my parents got to name their grandchild. Hafiz was given by my parents-in-law. Alya was by hubby. and now my parents. So fair kan? except yg Nadhira tu was rejected because it would be exactly like my cousin's name :).

There were some disagreement when i mentioned that i wanted Ariana as the 2nd name. mcm2 reason they (they=rahsia) gave to object the idea. When i told hubby, i just ckp, "its either Ariana or whatever name they wanted lah, i dont have other suggestions.." (mode merajuk).

on the 8th day, hubby went to JPN and registered 'Aina Ariana'. :)))))))))))))))))))

OK, Ariana may not be 100% Arabic name. it comes from many origins. but it means:-

vivacious, full of life, and for some it means very holy.

Aina = mempunyai mata yg cantik (have beautiful eyes)

Aina Ariana = have beautiful eyes, full of life :) . the meaning fits, right?

oh btw, many do not know this, but i've loved the name Ariana since i first heard Marc Anthony's song, 'My Baby You..' (Since my Uni days!!!) the last lyrics of the song mentioned 'Arianna', the name of his daughter to which he dedicates the song to..i i'd like to dedicate this song to my little Aina Ariana now.. :)

Here's the video, watch & Listen till the end~~!

At the other side of the wall

2011-12-12T14:16:00.001+08:00

Sometimes people put up walls, not to keep people away. But to see who cares enough to tear those walls down. - Brooke Davis, One Tree Hill

lately rasa sunyi je.

tataula napa. maybe sbb mood swing dlm pantang kot.

padahal tak sepatutnye rasa sunyi. kat rumah je ade 9 orang. Hubby, Mak, Ayah, My sisters - Shasha, Wani, My kids - Hafiz, Alya, Aina and my maid, Nop.

tp still rasa sunyi. kadang2 saye suruh je Hafiz & Alya duduk rumah on school days. Sbb saye sunyi bile diorg takder. Walaupun bila dieorg ada mmg kerja menyakat je sesama sendiri. On weekdays selalunyer Mak & Ayah takder kt rumah sampai Zohor. Either pegi hospital or NASAM for Ayah's physio. Hubby & sisters @ work. My maid membusykan diri dgn ape2 yg patut. Which leaves me & Aina. Tp Aina byk tido je sekarang (nasib baik jugak..hehehe).

bila parents balik, selalunyer drg akan tido..sbb pagi2 dah kena bgn awal, so after solat zohor, they will get some sleep. Sisters plak standardlah pas balik masing2 memerap dlm bilik. Hubby selalunyer sampai rumah dekat2 Maghrib or lepas Maghrib. Lepas dah mandi solat semua, selalunyer hubby akan pegi rumah sebelah a.k.a umah in-laws together with the kids. And they lepak there until masa utk tido.

Bila drg balik dlm kul 11pm, budak2 ni main2 kejap dlm bilik, gaduh2 skit, bersihkn diri before tido, minum susu, then ZZZzzzzzzZzz. Hubby pun sama , minus the main2 & gaduh2.

and the same cycle repeats the next day. kalau weekend pun semua sibuk dgn hal masing2. kalau hari hubby ada class, my kids either duduk kt rumah or my maid akan bwk gi rumah my in-laws. The kids mmg suke pegi sebelah sbb my in-laws rajin melayan drg main. My maid pun suke pegi sebelah cos kt sana dia relax skit sbb kalau duduk rumah mcm2 i suh dia buat. hehehe. Hubby pun time takder kelas or ape2 aktiviti luar, he spends about 90% of his time kt rumah sebelah, either with the kids or without.

i know i should be grateful that they actually spend time with other family members. bukannye gi umah sesapa pun or lepak kedai kopi ke ape kan.

tp itulah, i juz feel left out. sunyi. sepi. no one to talk to. dahlar tak bole keluar rumah sbb tgh dlm confinement kan..huhuhu.

imagine 9 ppl in my own house. plus another +/- 5 next door. equals 14 ppl. thats abt the no. of ppl in my office dept. and yet, i feel less lonely @ office and the opposite @ home.

oh, pls tell me it is juz my 'berpantang' hormone making me feeling all these. maybe sbb tak baca Quran kot. kena bykkan selawat n zikir camni..

Maybe i just need a little bit of attention.

hurm..lucky at least i have Aina to temankan i while i am feeling all these.

Sharing utk amalan bersama...

DOA KELUARGA BAHAGIA

رَبِّ أَوْزِعْنِي أَنْ أَشْكُرَ نِعْمَتـَكَ الَّتِي أَنْعَمْتَ عَلَيَّ
وَعَلَى وَالِدَيَّ وَأَنْ أَعْمَلَ صَالِحًا تَرْضَاهُ وَأَصْلِحْ لِي فِي
ذ ُرِّيــَّتِي إِنِّي تُبْتُ إِلَيْكَ وَإِنِّي مِنَ الْمُسْلِمِينَ
"Ya Tuhanku, tunjukanlah aku untuk mensyukuri nikmat Engkau yang telah Engkau berikan kepadaku

dan kepada ibu bapakku dan supaya aku dapat berbuat amal yang soleh yang Engkau ridhai; berilah

kebaikan kepadaku dengan (memberi kebaikan) kepada anak cucuku. Sesungguhnya aku bertaubat

kepada Engkau dan sesungguhnya aku termasuk orang-orang yang berserah diri".
(QS. Al-Ahqaf:15)

Bunni's Cake

2011-12-06T12:50:00.001+08:00

i luv party deco!

but i have very high taste/expectations when it comes to decoration.

so sbb sedar diri tidak mampu..i just make do with whatever budget/stuff available.

my most recent one. (Cake Deco):-

the cuppies were bought @ Baker's Cottage. Oh, these are 'side cakes' for my sister's birthday. It was her 21st birthday. so u can see i put the sign of '21st bday celebration' on one of the cuppies. actually each of the signs on each of the cuppies means something. i dont know if my sister gets the message. she didnt even ask. hohoho. actually each of it represents the things i wish for her. wish jelar kan, nak belikan maybe wud take a while nak kumpul duit ;).

so if u see the signages yg ader nama2 negara tu, its becos i wish she wud go travel there. or actually anywhere outside the country. there's one cuppy with a person doing sky-diving. and also a serene island somewhere. ok THAT, if she ever make it there, i wud want to be there as well. hahaha. (ada udang disebalik batu). the bag - of course every girl wants a handbag kan. i just thot that kind of design wud suit her age. ;). Coach perfume - cos it looks like it smells pretty. :). starbucks coffee & the cake - cos i know she likes to indulge herself with all these pricey food. and the Love sign? hehehe..hoping she wud fall in love soon? nahh, i think she already is..:pPPPPpp the Love sign means I Love her, always. she's always going to be my baby sister no matter how rebellious she is now. :PPppPPPp. i took care of her when she was little, so she better love me back! hahaha.

oh, budak kat background tu, hiasan semata-mata. hehehehe.

note: gambar2 kt signages tu semua dr majalah Cleo September & October issue. i do deco from 'scraps', remember? hihihi

OK, this is the official cake. also from Baker's Cottage. It's our family's favorite cake. tahun ni je byk kali dah beli :):-

Happy Birthday, Bunni!! @ 25th Nov 2011.

Day 1: No painkillers!

2011-12-05T17:59:00.000+08:00

hari ni berjaya tak mkn painkillers langsung!

yahooooo~~ i was starting to worry that i am relying too much on the painkiller because i've been gulping more than 3 pills per day since i was out of hospital.

Alhamdulillah. am painkiller-free. at least for today. :)

Introducing... Aina Ariana :)

2011-12-01T14:24:00.001+08:00

Aina Ariana - Hafiz & Alya's little sister was born on the morning of 18th November 2011.

She was 2.88kg when she came out. Bigger than I expected she would be. Alhamdulillah :).

People that came to see says she looks a lot like Hafiz. Doesnt really matter. I'd love her even if she looks like someone else.

Berpantang @ home. The first few days after coming back from hospital je rase mcm berpantang. Came Day 7 rasa cam x rest sgt pun ada. My mak is busy taking care of my dad, going here n there. So the part yg letak minyak panas kat kaki lasted only 3 days. hehehe. also part memandikan baby. Masuk hari ke-3 kt rumah, i dah mandikan sendiri cos kesian tgk mak berkejar-kejar nak buat itu ini. the only portion yg mak still buat is cooking the lauk2 pantang. she taught my maid too so my maid pun dah pandai masak so whenever mak keluar, my maid yg masakkan.. *bless her*~ oh, minyak panas masih letak kt kaki. tp letak sendiri la. gedik la plak nak mintak maid sapukan. keskes.

oh, xpayah citerlah pasal labor experience. org lain nyer experience lg daunting kot. saye punye biasa2 je. nama pun bersalin c-zer. nothing suspenseful about it. tp nak cite gaklah. nanti kang Ariana tanya adalah rekod . hehehe.

kitorg (hubby & i) admit kt Ampang Puteri after midnight on 18th Nov tu. right after the eldest 2 fell asleep. punyerlah lama nak tunggu drg tido. mcm tau2 je Mama dia nak gi hospital. mlm tu gagah lagi saye menonton aksi pasukan malaysia main bola. tp tgk kt tv jelah.

sampai ampang puteri, register kt Emergency (sbb dah after midnight), dpt bilik 2 bedded sbb yg single penuh katenye. (tp sbnrnye Maternity Ward dah book bilik saya tp org kt kaunter emergency tu ckp xder nama saya. bile diselidik rupenye nurse kt Maternity Ward tu letak Nurul je, tak letak nama penuh saye, so org yg admit tu x bernai la mau bg saye masuk agaknye..maybe takut Nurul anak Tengku mane2 kot. hahaha. lenkali saye cadangkan letak nama Selena Gomez je terus). So bilik single bed tu saye dpt masuk setelah selesai operation sbb kebetulan nurse masa shift tu yg book kan bilik saye. kalau tak mmg penuhhhhhh je la single room kt hospital tu.

oh berbalik kepada citer bersalin. so lepas admitted tu, baring jelah. sambil berdoa2. sambil cube tido. kongsi katil tau dgn hubby. romantic tak? wahhh. :P poyos, I know. tp mmg x bley nak tido sgt pun. lampu seterang2nyer dlm bilik tu. pastu nurse intern kejap2 masuk buat check itu ini. dahla nurse tu mcm x ikhlas je. hahaha. budak intern kena shift mlm pastu buat benda2 pelik (xpayahlah citer, korg paham2 jelah ape bendanya)..pagi2 tu jugak pasang ctg.. morning tu doctor dtg. dia ckp maybe turn saye tghari skit cos ader kes lain kt OT. lapar tahap gaban dah time ni. kena posa dr mlm sebelumnye. last mkn kul 9pm. so mmgla lapar yg amat. nak kena bersabar sampai tghari lagi. adeh. time tu risau takut nanti hubby nkgi solat jumaat je..takkan nak sorg2 je kt OT. huwaa. sedey kejap je. pastu baca Quran,

dan2 je abis bace surah Maryam, nurse dtg suh tukar robe. dah bley masuk OT. time tu kul 10am. wahhhh, gembira saye. ada OT kosong. satu kes x jadi operate kot. ntahlah. yg penting saye dpt mkn cepat skit pas dah operate nanti. hehehe.

dah salin baju baru rasa debor. terigt the painful experience masa kluarkan Alya. masa ni doa je byk2.

proses kali ni cepat byk berbanding dulu. dulu lamaaaaaaaaaaa gilerrrrrrrr tunggu kt observation ward tu. ni less than 10 minutes dah disorong masuk OT. adalar sesi suai kenal. ni doctor ni. ni dcotor tu, dia ni akan inject ni. dia ni akan pasangkan tu. satu pun x register dlm kepala. hahaha. asyik tgk jam je. motif? xtaula. maybe nak masa tu berlalu dgn pantas kot.

time paling x best sepanjang kt OT , bila dia cucuk jarum nak masukkan drip n painkiller tu. darah keluar dgn byknyer kt tgn. byk sampai saye pening bau darah. masa dia masukkan spinal block pun rasa dah x sakit sbb kepala dah peningg sgt2 time tu rasa nak pengsan pun ade. bile dia baringkan saye tutup je mata sampai anaesthtic tu pun asyik tanya saye ok ke. saye ckp ok je. biasalah. control macho. keskes.

alhamdulillah, dlm pening2 tu, saye x rasa sakit pun time doctor belah perut. either the spinal block works tremendously well, or i'm getting used to the pain. tp syukur sgt2. cos time Alya dulu mmg sakit hokey. About 10 minutes after perut dibelah, kelaurlah budak busyuk bernama Aina Ariana ni... :))))

all is fair in love and war ..and labor too. Allah x bagi kite rasa sakit bersalin dpt mcm ibu2 lain, tp sakit tu dtg selepas bersalin. immediately after keluar dr OT i was shivering satu badan. tetibe rasa sejuk gilerr mcm duduk dlm peti ais. the nurses put on layers of blanket on me but i still feel cold. dah masuk dlm ward (setelah akhirnya dpt single room), i asyik muntah2 sampai xder selera nk mkn. tulah, tadi lapar sgt x sabar nk mkn. alih2, xley nak mkn. asyik muntah2 je..adelah dekat 13 kali. gigih la en suami tadahkan muntah saye.

lepas satu mlm dah ok. the 2nd day , nurses bukak the drip n painkiller. mula2 ok lagi. pastu kt tmpt jahit tu rasa sakit yg amat. terbongkok2 je. 4th day doctor dtg nak bukak plaster tgk ada sedikit terbukak kt perut tu. meaning jahitan tu terbukak. fuiyo. patutlah rasa ada rush of blood kluar. mmg ader pun. kuikui. doctor tampal balik pakai plaster n she said the wound will bercantum on its own, insyaAllah.

a week later pegi check, blum fully bercantum. masih kena tampal dgn plaster kali ni kecik skit. hari2 saye telan painkiller sbb mmg sakit. kalau dulu mmg lepas kuar hospital dah x sentuh painkiller, kali ni terpaksalah. dgn nak handle 3 org budak lagi, saye mestilah kuat.hehehe.

pati ikan haruan dah habis ditelan. masih continue dgn gamat. buah oren pun mkn jugak. katenyer bole expedite the healing process. kalau bole xnak overdo it sbb takut naik lagi keloid cam dulu..

tu jelar citer bersalin kali ni. hehehe. rasanya walaupun post operation tu mmg sakit, tp xdelah sakit sgt kot compared to org yg bersalin normal. but then i never bersalin normal so how do i compare?

sakit tu penghapus dosa. so hopefully, even if i dont experience the pain of giving birth, i hope the pain of post-birth dikira jua..(bunyik cam pasrah je..mode sedih)

kaylar...lenkali plak citer...budak kecik chomey dah nanges nak susu.. :))))))

Happy 2nd Birthday, Alya!

2011-11-24T13:29:00.003+08:00

My sweet little princess turns 2 on 09.11.11.

She's becoming more and more beautiful each day~!

:))

This year's theme is 'Princess' as requested by Alya. Mama shopping ape yg sempat dan mampu je cos of the constraint nak berjalan2 utk menyopping. almaklumlah dah towards end of pregnancy masa tu so mcm2 la sakit yg dtg. hehehe.

kay, enjoy the piccies! up till today Mama still haven't bought a present for Alya - specifically for her 2nd birthday. Hurm, tahun ni mcm byk postpone hadiah je. hadiah Papa pun x beli lg. :P. punca: mood shopping yg menghilang. hopefully pas pantang ni mood shopping itu dtg dgn hebatnyer.

oh yer, Alya's little sister dah selamat dilahirkan on 18.11.11. Alhamdulillah. She's perfect! :)

Today is her 7th day seeing the world. We should have her name by today. Tp up til now (as at 1.35pm), I still havent finalized the name. huhu, bad momma. sib baik esok baru Papa nak pegi register. tp sunat kan bg nama anak on hari ke-7? i got a few more hours left!

in the meantime, let's get back to Alya's birthday. Her party was done secara sederhana. Menu was fettucini carbonara cooked by yours truly. :). birthday anak harusla Mama nyer yg masak, barulah berkat. chewah. tp cake beli jugak sbb Mama x pandai nak buat. Choc indulgence froom Secret recipe :) Pastu Achik sponsor KFC. itu jelah menunyer. simple je. jemputan Datuk Sri & Nenek Sri kedua2 pihak termasuk Uncle & Auntie Sri.

We're planning for a kenduri aqiqah for the newborn and also Alya (sbb dulu masa Alya just buat kt surau je utk aqiqah ke kemboja). So this time around nak buat majlis skit lah utk dua org princess ni. Moga2 jadi anak2 yg solehah :)

k..again, enjoy the piccies!! :D

my gynae's reply.. :)

2011-11-14T16:50:00.007+08:00

Dear Nurul Syazrah,

1. of course I remember you. Yesterday we were having great fun delivering a total of 15 babies here. (uish,ramai target date 11.11.11 tu..doc ckp 9 out of the 15 are delivered tru surgery..i wud've added up to the statistics if i didnt postpone my surgery date..;) hehehe.. )

2. Since I started my O&G practice in 1989, I have seen few deliveries after 2 CS, but they were all premature and small babies. And they were not planned to undergo vaginal deliveries, the others came late in labour.

3. As a woman, I understand your feelings wanting to undergo a normal birth. ( sweeeeeet, ;)) )

4. In modern medicine practice, the last thing we want is to add any risk to our patients. A vaginal delivery carries higher morbidity and mortality to both you and your baby.

5. Looking back at your notes, Dr M*rlik has to do adhesiolysis during the second CS meaning that your operation was not straight forward. In our guideline, only uncomplicated CS may be allowed for short trial of scars.

6. I suggest that u come for CTG test when u have the pain or 'hardening' so that we can assess your situation.

Take Care!

hurm...Let's google adhesiolysis, the culprit.

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Adhesions from previous Caesarean deliveries severe enough to require adhesiolysis during repeat Caesarean delivery have clinical and economic implications

"Adhesions are a significant complication of surgery. C-sections are increasingly common in the United States, and anywhere from 30% to 50% of patients have adhesions," explained Michael Broder, MD, from the University of California at Los Angeles School of Medicine. He estimated that treating complications of adhesions related to Caesarean deliveries that are severe enough for adhesiolysis costs $25 million to $30 million per year.

For patients who underwent adhesiolysis, compared with those who did not, the extra cost was $300 per patient ($5739 vs $5448), the operative procedure was 10 minutes longer, hospital stay was several hours longer, and postoperative complications were more common (hemorrhage [1.7% vs 1.2%], wound complications [1.4% vs 0.7%], pelvic organ damage [1.0% vs 0.1%], and hysterectomy [0.3% vs 0.1%]).

In an interview with Medscape Medical News, Dr. Broder said that the study implies that surgical technique should be improved for primary caesarean deliveries to avoid adhesions.

David Archer, MD, from Eastern Virginia Medical School, in Norfolk, disagreed. "Meticulous surgery will not decrease the adhesion rate," he said. "Many C-sections are for emergencies, and emergency surgery increases the chance of adhesions."

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meaning i got adhesions when/after delivering my first child. now whatgedeheck is adhesions?

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Adhesions are fibrous bands^[1] that form between tissues and organs, often as a result of injury during surgery. They may be thought of as internal scar tissue that connect tissues not normally connected.

While some adhesions do not cause problems, others can prevent muscle and other tissues and organs from moving freely, sometimes causing organs to become twisted or pulled from their normal positions.

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oklar..next time org tanya why i c-sect again, i can explain to them using all these medical jargons.. hahaha.. ;)

Oh, i'm so glad my doctor actually responded!! :))))

a letter to my doctor

2011-11-11T10:21:00.003+08:00

This morning, I sent an email to my gynae...

Dear Dr XX,

Hi, I'm one of your patients.

Hopefully u remember me :). Our last appointment was on Tuesday (8/11/11). On that day we decided to postpone my c-sect surgery date from 11/11/11 to 21/11/11.

Actually I'm writing to ask a few things:-

1. Is it not possible for me to try for normal birth? It would be something that i would want to experience at least once in my life, if it's not imposing any danger to my baby and myself.

2. If it is not possible, what are the exact reasons-other than the fact that i had 2 previous c-sects? Cos i do read on the net, and although it is not commonly practice here in our countries, but there are a number of success stories for vaginal birth after 2 caesareans.

As u know, I do experience some complications (if it is considered as complications ;) ) when i was reaching 7 mths pregnancy (the low amniotic fluid). But now that everything seems normal, can I try for a normal birth this time around?

Truly appreciate your expert advise on this :) i am currently having some mild BH contractions with that sharp shooting pain on my upper thigh..other than that, everything is still under control :).

Thanks Doctor! J

Happy Birthday, Papa!

2011-10-23T07:33:00.007+08:00

Wah, sudah hampir beberapa minggu tidak menge-post. busy la konon kan..hehehe..sebenarnye everytime bukak laptop mesti sibuk tgk Survivor je..yeaa...the new season is here!! suka3!

owh pada 5 october yg lalu ialah besday Papa. tahun ni, tidak seperti tahun2 sebelumnyer, Mama x bagi hadiah pun kt Papa..xder idea nak bg ape..tanya Papa pun dia ckp xnak ape2 (walaupun adelah hint2 mcm nak iphone, tp sbb baru je kan belikan BB tu...;PPPpppP)..so ended up mmg xder hadiah, yet..actually i ada samting in mind but tgh kumpul budget..hehehe..i got another 1 yr before his next birthday, so acilah kan...x semestinye dpt on the birthday itself.. ;))

tradisi menyambut birthday diteruskan. perkara wajib:

1. deco rumah skit2 kasi nampak mcm ader birthday celebration

2. mkn2 with close family

3. upacara tiup lilin - ni sajelah kasi budak2 happy :)) they really look forward to this..

Uda, Alya, Apis and Papa..sila carik 2 org budak yg paling x sabar nak tiup lilin...

so on the day itself barulah pegi carik kek. mula2 igt nak bake muffin je, tp memandangkan skill culinary saya yg x seberapa ni, adalah lebih afdhal rasanya kalau gi beli je..hehehe..lepas dah beli kek tu, ptg nyer, mintak Hafiz & Alya tambah deco atas kek..ni pun antara benda yg drg suke...mmg sukelah! lepas dah deco tu pun, hafiz adelah lebih 20 kali bukak tutup peti nak tgk kek tu..pastu asyik tanya bila bole potong...

hehe..simple je deco..tabur2 je..selalunyer ade letak smarties or kartun2 skit..tp x kt jusco aritu x jumpe plak kat mana dia letak benda2 tu..

for the food, yours truly masaklah beberapa lauk..yg simple2 je..sayur, tempe, ikan goreng..yg main dish i beli kt Wong Solo - favorite Papa la..ayam penyet ngan ayam bako...

simple jer :)

sbb nama pun favorite kan, ayam2 tu pun licinlah dimkn oleh birthday boy dan tetamu2 yg hadir..yg paling best tak hengat, FIL suke ikan goreng i yg x seberapa tu..itupun licin lah dibedal tetamu2 aka jiran sebelah aka keluarga in-laws ...hihihi..ikan jaket yg digoreng dgn asam jawa + cili..owh, mmg best sebenarnye tp takkan nak puji masakan sendiri kan?..ni pun Mak yg ajar camner nak buat.. toche2~ :))

my favorite pic!! cos susah ok nak dpt gambar us ber-4.. selalunyer becos i'm not in the pic lah..hehe..saye mmg camera-shy.. hikhik..anyway, gambar ni best sbb nampak ke-luving-an this family..

Last but not least, gambar birthday boy with his Mother..

what is a birthday without ibu yg melahirkan, betul x? A birthday should always be celebrated with your Mother..always~..it is something that i would like my kids to praktikkan even bila drg dah besar nanti..tp agak2 la kot..kalau time tu Mama duduk kt Amsterdam ke, New Zealand ke, xyah la susah2 celebrate dgn Mama~skype pun ok... hikhikhik..

owh, my brother, Jaja's and Alya's birthday are coming soon!!! Alya requested for kek 'prin-chess' (Princess)...pastu Hafiz bole plak request for kek Ben 10 jugak..eh, eh, birthday sape ni?? tp nanti kalau xder kang haruslah dia tarik muncung seperti........>>>>

Merajuk sbb Mama marah berebut hp dgn adik...he snapped this pic himself ..hahhaha!

Alya's 1st haircut...

2011-10-04T16:39:00.005+08:00

i shaved Alya's baby hair when she was abt 2 weeks..err..kot?..x igtlah but it was in her early days bcos she's a girl and she didnt really have a lot of hair when she was born so i decided dat i better shaved it early so dat dia tumbuh cepat..

cepatlah sgt kan..hahahha

her hair adalah sgt lambat menumbuh...i think her hair only started to really grow after she hits 18 months old..itupun x lebat mana..rambut alya very the soft one...mcm brush yg sgt2 lembut..the part that i like the most is - her hair is super straight and blonde!! hahaha

oklah..sejak ianya menumbuh, Alya mmg x suke rambut kena ikat,kena tocang ke, kena sepit ke, pakai hairband ke apatah lagi pakai tudung..she doesnt like anything on her hair...so sgtla berserabai bila rambut dia mula mencecah mata...rimas btul mama tgk..tu belum lg kalau berpeluh2 tu...huhu

them..showing off their artworks @ Development Division Interaction Day last weekend..Alya dah penat sgt sbb panasssss gilerr kat situ..we were there for abt 2 hrs je kot..hehehe

so dgn tabahnya mama n papa suh mamak potong rambut Alya...kekeke..sorrylah baby..x mampu la nak bawak tmpt mahal2...nak potong 2 inchi je pun..hihihi..

tujuan asal ke mamak adalah utk memotong rambut abg hafiz. abg sekarang sgt suke potong rambut...style rambut dia, dia panggil - rambut 'pancak' (pacak)..kikiki..suke hatilah abg oi asalkan kemas..tp sebelum potong dia akan request nak pancak 'tentomers' (transformers) atau pancak 'tontomen' (ultraman). yg pastinya, uncle mamak tu akan menghasilkan gaya potongan yg mengikut kehendak mama dia..kekeke..('pancak mama' la kot)..

ok back to Alya..masa potong rambut mmg super behave..and dia punye muka kiut sgt x bley blah punyer!!! haha..rasa geram nak picit2 je..ikut je ckp uncle tu..kiut miut banget!!

calar di bawah mata Alya adalah buah tgn dari skool..kena cakau dgn baby ok..huhu

so hasilnyer :--

Alya & Hafiz Tontomen

sejak potong rambut Alya semakin cheeky.

Marry A Girl Who Reads

2011-09-30T12:45:00.009+08:00

The original title is Date A Girl Who Reads by Rosemarie Urquico.

Since i want my husband to read this, i change the title to 'Marry A Girl Who Reads'. Hehehe.. :))

So the following shud be read Date= Marry... :pPpP

Date a girl who reads. Date a girl who spends her money on books instead of clothes. She has problems with closet space because she has too many books. Date a girl who has a list of books she wants to read, who has had a library card since she was twelve.

Find a girl who reads. You’ll know that she does because she will always have an unread book in her bag.She’s the one lovingly looking over the shelves in the bookstore, the one who quietly cries out when she finds the book she wants. You see the weird chick sniffing the pages of an old book in a second hand book shop? That’s the reader. They can never resist smelling the pages, especially when they are yellow.

She’s the girl reading while waiting in that coffee shop down the street. If you take a peek at her mug, the non-dairy creamer is floating on top because she’s kind of engrossed already. Lost in a world of the author’s making. Sit down. She might give you a glare, as most girls who read do not like to be interrupted. Ask her if she likes the book.

Buy her another cup of coffee.

Let her know what you really think of Murakami. See if she got through the first chapter of Fellowship. Understand that if she says she understood James Joyce’s Ulysses she’s just saying that to sound intelligent. Ask her if she loves Alice or she would like to be Alice.

It’s easy to date a girl who reads. Give her books for her birthday, for Christmas and for anniversaries. Give her the gift of words, in poetry, in song. Give her Neruda, Pound, Sexton, Cummings. Let her know that you understand that words are love. Understand that she knows the difference between books and reality but by god, she’s going to try to make her life a little like her favorite book. It will never be your fault if she does.

She has to give it a shot somehow.

Lie to her. If she understands syntax, she will understand your need to lie. Behind words are other things: motivation, value, nuance, dialogue. It will not be the end of the world.

Fail her. Because a girl who reads knows that failure always leads up to the climax. Because girls who understand that all things will come to end. That you can always write a sequel. That you can begin again and again and still be the hero. That life is meant to have a villain or two.

Why be frightened of everything that you are not? Girls who read understand that people, like characters, develop. Except in the Twilightseries.

If you find a girl who reads, keep her close. When you find her up at 2 AM clutching a book to her chest and weeping, make her a cup of tea and hold her. You may lose her for a couple of hours but she will always come back to you. She’ll talk as if the characters in the book are real, because for a while, they always are.

You will propose on a hot air balloon. Or during a rock concert. Or very casually next time she’s sick. Over Skype.

You will smile so hard you will wonder why your heart hasn’t burst and bled out all over your chest yet. You will write the story of your lives, have kids with strange names and even stranger tastes. She will introduce your children to the Cat in the Hat and Aslan, maybe in the same day. You will walk the winters of your old age together and she will recite Keats under her breath while you shake the snow off your boots.

Date a girl who reads because you deserve it. You deserve a girl who can give you the most colorful life imaginable. If you can only give her monotony, and stale hours and half-baked proposals, then you’re better off alone. If you want the world and the worlds beyond it, date a girl who reads.

Or better yet, date a girl who writes.

my unfinished reading...going to spend the rest of today mengkhatamkan buku nih.. :)

Note to hubby: hint* hadiah buku pun ok..hehehe..oh ye, dont forget to bring home my Azizi Ali!!! x habis bace lagi bebeh~~

31 weeks preggy & preparation for the little one's arrival

2011-09-29T13:33:00.007+08:00

i know i should fully utilized my 4-weeks medical leave to do some shopping.

errr!

i wish i cud do that.

honestly the reason y i havent even bought anything for the little one are becos:-

1. i dont have the mood to go shopping

2. i am feeling too tired to get up from bed

3. well, since i am on medical leave so it is not appropriate for me to go out enjoying myself. hehehe.

not having a mood for shopping is a bad thing. i cudve shopped online, but seriuosly i dont feel the mood to do so.

so y is it a bad thing?

becos....what if suddenly the little one pops out?? i dont even have the previous items from my two eldest children set at one place yet. i know they're somewhere in the boxes up in the cupboard but i havent re-wash em , sanitize the stuff, or anything yet.

too lazy & tired to do anything.

in conclusion, little one shud stay longer in mama's tummy.

dont pop out yet yea,eventho i know u cant wait to do so..

stay in there..

i just wanna sleep all the time...

Excerpts from ParentsConnect @ 31 Weeks:-

From this week on, your baby will continue to gain around ½ pound a week until shortly before birth (even though it may feel like a whole lot more with every step you take). Other highlights this week:

Due to increasing space constraints, your baby's arms and legs stay drawn up close to the body now, known as the fetal position (oh, so that's where that name came from!). Plus, your baby can now process information from all five senses—so she'll be all set to smell the pureed peas, taste them, feel them as she mashes them into her hair, hear you crack up and then see the flash as you grab the camera to snap picture after picture.

By now, your baby's lungs are the only system not fully mature. And by mature, we're not saying that the rest of your baby's systems are mature enough to be out past 10 PM with the neighborhood hooligan, just that her lungs need a little bit more time to bake before they can kick it in the outside world.

Your baby weighs about 3½ pounds and measures a little over 16 inches.

my creative bone artworks

2011-09-24T23:47:00.006+08:00

after completing inserting my &&%$&! office budget in SAP, i feel like i should celebrate~ hehehe. 24 hrs of non-stop mengadap laptop adalah sesuatu yg sgt tidak menyihatkan. the minute i completed my work terus tido full 5 hrs in the afternoon. heaven, i tell u~

so the next day tu, eventho i'm still on mc, i rasa i cudnt be confined in my house anymore. hey, if during mc pun i have to do office work, it means i can also go shopping ke, watching movies ke, sunway lagooning ke , if i want to, right? so if any of my officemates complained that i shudnt be doing all those, goint out whatsoever, then they shudnt let me do office work in the first place. ni in case la if they questioned abt it...which i dont think they wud dare cos kalau x drg yg kena buat keje2 tu..:PpPp

but of course i tak kluar rumah sgt cos mmg x larat ok..baru drive antar hubby kt stesen lrt pun dah semput, apatah lg nak berjln2...mmg totally melekat kt rumah je. the only time i really went out was masa pegi visit Aziah's newborn and to Sha's raya cum hsewarming last weekend . itu aje.

so masa keluar nkgi beli pampers hafiz n alya, terpaksa ke tesco sbb kt situ murah..saye pun telah terserempak dgn beberapa benda cute...and my creative bone started working...~~~~~~jeng jeng..

1. Frame from Tesco

2. Donut from Living Cabin, Tesco Ampang

3. Luggage Tag from Living Cabin

4. My sister's (Unni) ballerina cross-stitch which she completed twilight months ago but i havent frame it yet

Hasilnyer:-

It's framed!!!

I put in all my sister (Shasha's) accesories dlm donut ni...

Kan kemas tu...

The next catch:-

New patchwork spread for Alya, Hafiz and the new baby! :) from Cottage Patch...ok, terpjgkan kaki ke sana :P

And lastly, is the wall deco activity. The deco itself dah beli lama dulu ..i think abt 3 motnhs ago...tp lama simpan sbb berfikir where best to tampal them... last2 tampal kt master bedroom je since the kids are also sleeping in our room, so y not kan? so sekarang mmg our room is officially turning into a playroom. gegeggege..biarlah asalkan mereka bahagia... :) the best part is, after dah tampal tu, Hafiz asyik nak tido dekat dinasour2 dia je..so he no longer sleep with us on our bed, yahooooooooooooooooo~ tp nanti kena beli extra bed la for him..sian plak anak Mama tido bawah... ;)

kaylah..nak sambung buat quarterly budget variance plak...bosannnn la buat budget ni..no wonder i never like accountancy or finance stuff. i dont have the bone for it kot, the meticulousness, perhaps also the smartness of an accountant.

nevermind, i'd rather be an artsy person...hihihi.. :P

Constipating

2011-09-22T04:22:00.005+08:00

I havent been sleeping since 1 am yesterday.

Managed to take a quick nap @ 9am yesterday's morning, for abt 15 minutes.

Then I continued my work on this %^&*(&^!!!!! budget thing until 3.30am just now... wahhh.. more than 24 hrs without sleep... i'll definitely go bonkers after this.

Alhamdulillah, siap jugak akhirnye..i really hope this will be the last cut.

Rasa cam kena sembelit je everytime tgk figure2 nih. hehe.

hari ni saye nak bawak ayah saya pegi berurut, sbb saye pun nak diurut.

yay!

uik? my blog list hilang???? aiyaaaaaaaa..

mencari keredhaan

2011-09-19T09:43:00.007+08:00

the past few weeks have been truly challenging for me. handling ppl with kehendak yg goes beyond my capacity. mmg bole diusahakan tp no matter how strong i physically feel, my body reacted according to its limit. even if my mind ckp i cud still go on. its like i am in a war, been wounded but i keep saying to myself that i can beat the enemy eventho i cant move my legs anymore.

i cried everyday. its the truth. i cried mostly becos of what ppl said abt me. it was unfair, really2 unfair, i feel like difitnah. thats how bad i felt. all the energy and time i put into getting the job done rasa mcm worthless. i was made the scapegoat for the things that they screwed up. i cant defend myself becos nobody was supporting me. i felt alone and stressful and helpless.

i guess it took a toll on me. i've been postponing going to my gynae becos i dont have time to even take a break. there was a day that Mrs X didnt even let me take my lunch and i havent been eating anything all day. and i didnt eat until 10pm. of course, its not like she's watching me all the time and i cud've sneak out. but i didnt out of feeling obliged. she said i didnt deserve to eat that day. that one statement truly pulled me down to the lowest level. what kind of boss or a person wud do such thing to another person? i cud've listed all the things, the hurtful things that she said but whats the point? it tears my heart everytime i think abt it.

i've been praying to Allah for signs. Honestly, i dont know what's the best thing for me. So i prayed to Allah to grant me apa yang terbaik for me. If i had to endure all these until whenever it shud be, then i wud endure it. If i meant to go somewhere else, do other things so be it. I pray to Allah so that whatever signs his giving me, it shoud lead me to become a better person. Becos right now, i feel like I'm a bitter person becos of all these things happening around me.

Last week, i had bleeding incident on Sunday. it happened on the weekend of that dreadful week. I did not panic at first, but after a few spotting everytime i went to the loo, my hubby decided we shud go for a check-up. The MO cudnt find the exact reason behind the bleeding but he noticed the low amniotic fluid. he gave me 2 days mc for subsequent check-up with my gynae. on Monday , had CTG scan, semua looks ok but my gynae confirmed that the amniotic fluid is a bit on the lower side. she gave me a week mc for bedrest. i got dexa jabs on monday tu jugak to matangkan peparu baby in case in need to go for early labor. -low amniotic fluid cud result in preterm birth-

so bedrest i did..kena get up jugakla when office call to clarify on the budget thing. still on duty jugak cos selagi kerja ni x settle mmg x bole nak rest betul2. while on the 1 week mc, i had fever jugak which mmg total bedrest x larat nak buat ape2...then the next day my son pulak demam, then the next my hubby then my maid..hahaha..minggu demam sedunia. so nasib baikla mc, bolela jugak menjaga org2 sakit ni esp the kids lah..Alya demam on Sunday tu, the day that i had the bleeding. So it started with her actually..and the virus spread satu rumah..hehe.

Saturday had my follow-up. oh yea, the bleeding was due to vaginal infection. doctor ckp mcm ulcer inside the vjj. huhu. normal to happen for preggers. so she gave this antibiotic which kena insert dekat situ. i hate it. hehehe. and then ada antibiotic utk mkn jugak 2 x times a day. so on saturday tu dah xder pape on the infection i guess cos i told the doctor the bleeding cleared up on Tuesday tu. during the scan doctor was still concern on the low fluid level. i think she's more concern than me. maybe i just focus on the positive things-like my baby is gonna be fine, its just becos the space isnt that big for the water to have more volume. huhuhu. i can be technical sometimes. :P. but doctor was genuinely concern and she asked whether i can still go to work or do i need further rest. i told her thaqt i can go to work but i need her expert advise whether i shud. she told me that the best thing right now is for me to rest. i can go to work but she can not guarantee that i wouldnt be feeling restless. huhu, rasa mcm she can read my mind eventho i didnt tell her what my office environment is like. i think it must have written all over my face kot everytime she mentioned 'work'.

so she gave me mc..for 3 weeks!!! until the next appoitnment. i was shocked at first. i mean she must really think its something serious, right?..tp utk menyedapkan hati sendiri i asked her,' i can still go to work right, if i had to?' to which she said, 'yup, but u need to get all the rest u need'..huhu sebenarnye i nak ty, ' its not serious kan doctor? i mean, i shud rest but my condition isnt that serious right?' but i was afraid of the answer so i interpret her answer to my spoken question as 'all is OK, just have a break..'

so yahoo~~ i'm on 1st day of mc today. its supergreat to not be in the office. i texted my boss immediately (not Mrs X) on Saturday after the check-up to update her. She advised me to just from home if i need to. Dont have to come to office at all - cos i told her my plan to go to office to settle a few things. So we're communicating via phone and emails. which is cool. the fact that i dont have to travel wud lessen the 'fatigueness' and the fact that i dont have to face the cruel Mrs X is a super addded advantage. Gosh, i dont know if i cud ever communicate with her seikhlasnye lagi after what she did.

49 kg all the wayyyyy

bagus jugak dpt rest cos my backpain is hurting me like nobody's business right now. oh, i managed to increase 0.5kg during the 1 wk mc. my weight was somehow 'fixed' at 49 kg all tru out the 7 motnhs pregnancy. kekeke. so in the next 3 weeks i shud gain another 1.5 kg kot?

dah naik 0.5kg!! lompat bintang!!

i believe Allah answered my prayers. He's giving me signs. i'm contemplating on resigning now. i know nampak cam an abrupt decision but i have been toying with the idea for years now. i believe its now or never. cuma i need to do some convincing to my family. my heart is pretty much set oredi. i cant imagine myself still working for those monsters. huhuhu.

i sedang mencari keredhaan. esp keredhaan suami saye. if he accepts my decision, then semuanya insyaAllah mendapat keredhaan Allah juga...

another crap

2011-09-07T21:08:00.003+08:00

i dont think ppl read my blog anymore these days.

i know my hubby doesnt.

he'd rather read abt whats happening with his 'friends' @ facebook rather than whats going on in this blog.

huhu.

which is cool cos that allows me some room for merepeking in here.

merepeking = craping

hehe.

am still @ the office. benci kan. what to do. they pay u. u got to work. i need the money to buy more merepek stuff for me n my kids.

today i spend RM200++ on new books. last 2 days baru je beli john grisham's the confession.

i like to spend these days. it makes me less stressful. and seeing my new collection of books makes me feel more relieved.

told u i kuat merepek.

kaylah..to whoeever reads this, thanx for keeping up with me. i know u hate me sometimes for all these craps.

daaaaaa

restless

2011-09-07T00:19:00.004+08:00

woke up feeling restless this morning.

had a whole day meeting @ Convex where we suddenly need to amend the pack that we've worked on for a month.

continued working after office hours cos i was dead sure that i cant get the tasks settled if i go home.

actually i planned to go home and finish it off at home but i changed my mind and stayed back @ the Convex's surau. Too tired to walk back to office.

hubby picked me up at 9.15pm. Had to handle Hafiz's tantrum - he wanted this Ben 10 toy handphone out of nowhere and i got nothing else to offer to him as a substitute (he usually would be ok kalau dpt Sugus je pun) cos i was stucked one whole day in the meeting room.

Arrived home seeing Alya happily & cheekily smiling lifted a bit of burden off my back.huhu.

continued working until 12am just now. i havent even bathe and perform my solat Isya' yet. my body is aching everywhere. am doing work sambil berbaring and i am still berbaring cos myl badan rasa sengal yg amat. my leg dah start cramping everytime i stretch out. ouch.

i wish i'm on island somewhere...with my kids and hubby. just us. and the skies. and the beach. and plenty of food and fruits.

of course that would never happen. not now. holidays seem like the last thing on our minds (altho sebenarnye i think abt it everyday but terpaksa lupakan atas byk sbb). hubby is always busy with something which most of it doesnt involve me.

me, craving for attention?

*sigh*

i'm just too tired. I need a real break. from everything.

Keloid from my previous c-sect

2011-08-26T00:18:00.003+08:00

Umum mengetahui bahawasanya saye telah menjalani 2 kali pembedahan secara ceasarean. atau dlm bahaasa omputihnyer - I had 2 c-sect surgeries before- for my 1st child (emergency) and my 2nd one (elective). The emergency ceasarean was done under full GA..i was in total knock-out..i didnt feel anything during the birth of my child..of course i did endure the labor pain for like less than an hour after the doctor broke my waterbag..it was painful - the contraction and all - but somehow i dont really remember how painful it was...hahaha..wutever it is, i had an emergency c-sect becos my baby was in distress. his heartbeat was dropping (so what the doctor n nurses said) so i agreed for them to cut my tummy.it wasnt really a hard decision. i'm more concern abt the safety of my baby rather than anything else.

Alhamdulillah, all went well..the recovery part went well too except for one thing. I had this huge scar all the way along the line of my c-sect. they call it 'Keloid'. I call it 'Ulat'. hehehe. I used to call it 'Lipan' (centipede) cos it is about the same size as an adult lipan..ngee~~ The physical outlook didnt really bother me. my husband didnt mind. it's not like i'm wearing bikinis or low cut jeans or such so there's nothing that i'm ashamed of abt how it looked. what bothered me was how itchy it got sometimes.

The itchiness worsen when i was pregannt with my 2nd baby. as my tummy grew bigger, so did the itchiness- it became more and more severe until i cut myself from all the scratching. My gynae suggested for me to have another ceaserean to remove the keloid. (eventho i had the opportunity to try for normal birth). after giving some thought, i agreed on having another c-sect- this time elective so that i cud get rid of the keloid plus the itchiness. my gynae told me that he wud perfrom another type of 'sewing'(?) so that i wud have less risk of having the same keloid after the 2nd surgery. If i still face the same thing after this one, so maybe my skin is meant to be 'keloid-ed'..hihihi

So i happily agreed for the elective c-sect with high hopes that my scar will no longer appear. when the doctor performed the elective c-sect i was awake, and the effect of the local anesthetic didnt really work on me, so i was awake and feeling all the thing that that the surgeons were doing on my tummy. of course, less painful than if i wasnt given the anesthetic at all. but i wish to never have to go tru it again.

after the painful experience, a few months later, a new keloid appeared..tadaaaaaaaa~~~ exactly like before.

Which was y i decided to give natural birth a shot for my 3rd baby. i guess my skin is meant to be like that. i just have to endure all the itchiness and the scarring. but one thought kept playing in my mind - what if i needed episiotomy?then they wud cut a bit down there, and i wud be stitched there - wud i be having keloid down there too? wud it be as itchy as the one on my tummy? err..i guess there's a lot of thoughts there..huhu..but i'm ready for it..errr..i think(?). Only now, i'm starting to feel the itchines on my keloid again. it gets worse everyday as my abby in my tummu grows bigger and bigger.

2 days ago..

Now..notice the line above the keloid..thats the result of me scratching due to the severe itching...gatal giler tak tahan punyer rasa nak cabut sendiri jer!!!

Oh well, cubaan..i'm still going to give a shot at natural birth..unless if my gynae advise me otherwise. So far, she's pretty OK with it except the fact that my amniotic fluid volume is on borderline. if it drops, then there's high chance that i wud have to deliver early. either tru induce or c-sect. lets hope for neither. i really truly long for natural birth.. :)

A friend told me that after 2 c-sects it's quite rare that ppl wud be able to give natural birth. one of the risks includes death. which is pretty scary. but if its meant to be, then it's meant to be right? but i hope God will guide me on the right choice. I wud want to be there for my kids until they grow old..or at least until they cud take care of themselves. But if i die, it's mati syahid right? who wudnt want that?

Papepun, Allah knows best. And I'm praying for the best. If it's another c-sect this time around, so be it. After all, c-sect or wutever, i love my kids just as much as any other mothers in the world :)))

yahuuuuuuu~~ but it's not over...

2011-08-20T06:45:00.007+08:00

aaaaaaaaaa..x puas shopping! i cant believe i spent hours & $$$$$ for shopping yesterday. dahla took me 2 hours to get from BTR to jln TAR. i shud've taken the train...rajin sgt nak drive sampai sesat2 n caught in traffic..aiyoohh..

so what did i buy yesterday:

baju raya maid - 2 pasang kurung moden..glemer maid i u~
baju my sisters - 1 each..oso kurung moden..testing dulu..drg ni kang dah beli2 tak berkenan pulak..so better beli sikit dulu
baju Melayu for Mr Hubby..kaler ape tah..ocean blue-green?
baju Melayu my brother ..purple -Lilac..i luv the color!!
T-shirts for Ayah & my brother
Shirts for Ayah & Mr Hubby
Lotsa lotsa Ben 10 and Cars t-shirts for Hafiz...mlm td dia dah melaram 3 helai baju Ben 10 dia..
Lotsa lotsa gowns for Alya...sejak dua menjak ni dia suke plak nak jadi Princess, so kite beli gown kat dia..
Lingeries for my maid..hahaha..x masuk shopping list pun sbnrnye..tetibe dia ckp nak beli..masa tu kt Sogo, amikla brand ape yg ada...ciss..mahal plak tu..hahahhaa..mahallar compared to the ones i usually buy for me..:P tp x kisahlah, asalkan dia happy.
baju jln2 for me..2 pasang..cantik!!! x taula dia panggil baju ape but dr Bandung. Am planning to go there just to borong more..i'll snap some piccas of me wearing it nanti yer :))

what i did not buy:

clothes for my mum...cos dia ckp xyah beli..knowing how cerewet she is i pun x berani la nak beli sebarangan..selalunyer kalau i beli yg dia x berkenan dia simpan je..x pakai pun..sob sob
baju raya for me...i saw that jubah kt ampang point yg mcm cun~ tp x sempat nak belek...masa tu dah kul 5, singgah ampang point beli Quiche kt mak. nak gi arini aci tak?tp kena bawak the kids lor kalau shopping today..x sampai hati la nak tinggal drg on their days off from school...huhu

i've also some other unaccomplished 'shopping' mission:

pelita berbateri - cos i'm afraid to use the minyak tanah one takut terbakosamting like this but powered-by battery

sofa...another set pls..hehehe..our house concept mix n match..bought a set from FD..and a wing chair oso from FD..skang nak tambah one long couch...can ke?

couch kt belakang tu cantik..but need to find darker tone..maklumlah anak2 i rajin 'mengemas'

katil for my sisters...i think i'll buy yg single with the tarik2 bed kat bawah tu..so masa x guna, luas sikit bilik compare to if i bought the queen size.

kalau jumpe yg camni mmg sgt fantastic!

songkok2, sampin & tudungs - next mission! today ke?

oh i took leave from work yesterday..apart from shopping ada urusan seri paduka baginda yg lain..besides, i need to take a break after doing all the budgetting for my dept. stress kot..not so much becos of the budget thing itself but more becos of trying to meet the expectations and demand from the bosses..every bit of detail kot drg nak tgk right up to the spacing and the comas and the titik ..rimas2.

ok, so next de-stress session (if today x gi nyopping lg):-

Landscaping for my cute garden! kecik je..4 kangkang baby kera je kot..tp oklah..got some tanah..bole tanam pokok (which i'll leave to my mum's green fingers..my pokok lifespan is usually 1-2 months only :P )
Transfer of the unused stuff ke either gudang buatan kat belakang umah or rumah Abah yg kosong itu.
Decorate house for raya with whatever stuff yg ada...which reminds me, i need to buy one gorgeous clock for our living hall! i saw one kt iwannagohome KLCC but the next day i went, dah ada org purchased that clock..:( sedey...and ada satu je plak tu jam tu..tgh carik another one yg i saw dekat MLNG's Tower 2 office..brand SEIKO..smart ok! nampak all the mechanical thing inside the clock eberytime it strikes to a new hour. tp so far x jumpe lg that kind at any kedai jam..

isk...parah dah my shopping sense ni...since when do i luv shopping so much??? must be the baby inside me...baby girl, u better marry a rich guy ok?? (+ hensem, baik, soleh, berilmu, beramal dan berbakti)...

yup, i think the bun in the oven is a girl judging from my abnormal shopping syndrom.

hehehe.

papepun, the shopping spree isnt over yet, bebeh!

mini shopaholic?errrr. i hope not.

hola!

2011-08-07T02:43:00.004+08:00

i dont know y everytime i feel like posting samting in here mesti akan ended up with me chnaging my blog layout..i guess i need a new look utk lebih bersemangat menaip kt sini..

i havent been online as much as before due to...urmmm, stress @ work kot? rasa mcm xmo pandang laptop or pc or watever dah bila balik rumah altho there are days yg terpkasa gak mengadap sbb nak settlekan keje... ni pun bukak laptop sbb nak settlekan office budget nyer thingy... stress2..~~~~

let's membebel abt samting less stressful... owh it's ramadhan time again..and so far alhamdulillah, semuanya berjln lancar..belum ada hari yg lapar tahap kronik lg...kekeke..org kata kalau org pregnant bole bukak posa kalau x larat, takut memudaratkan..but so far blum sampai tahap tu kot...lapar tu ada lah jugak kadang2, hehehe, tp masih bole bertahan :)

oh ye..i'm already @ 24 wks! dah masuk 3rd trimester..ish ish..pantas sungguh masa berlalu..last week went for monthly check-up. guess what - dari 10 weeks sampai ke 23 weeks, my weight maintain @ 49 kg...huhuhu..but baby's weight is normal,increasing every month...so i guess my baby has been eating all my fat away..yahuuuuuuu~~ hahaha..no wonder ppl says i look skinnier. whatever it is, i berazam that for my next check up my weight mesti mesti mesti increase by at least 2 kg...i'll eat all i can masa berbuka posa so that i can reach my target..risau jugak kalau x cukup tenaga nak bersalin nanti..at least kumpul lemak awal2 utk dipecahkan during labor process nanti..hihihi

on another note, saye sudah pindah rumah~...from elite ampang to humbled cheras..from a cute condo to a lapang terrace house.. i like our new home altho i do really miss ampang.. the condo hold so many memories.. but i'm not the weepy2 type so masa nak pindah aritu, dgn xder perasaan je angkut semua barang..memula plan nak amik gambar kenang-kenangan, tp we were too busy to even sit let alone bergambar.. but esok must must must get hubby to snap some piccas inside our now bare condo unit before our new tenant moves in..yeaa..in less than 2 weeks since we move out,kami sudah ader penyewa, alhamdulillah..Iranian..so adalah skit untung setiap bulan to cover for our sewa kt umah baru ni pulak..yup, we're currently renting this house..nanti dah kaya kitorg beli..kekekeke..i dont plan for any housewarming...(sib baik bulan posa..kikikiki)..actaully becos it's ramadhan so we didnt plan for housewarming besar-besaran lah..kecilan2 with extended family shj ade kot satu hari yg mulia nanti..but the actual housewarming wud be time raya nanti...iyer...korang semua dijemput~~ sila2~~~nak alamat bole sms saye yer, nanti saye reply...

owh sgt byk benda nak cerita but it's already 3 am..i shud go to sleep before bgn utk sahur plak nanti..

my hafiz is now byk berckp..mcm2 la cerita dia..non-stop babbling..miss alya pun dah pandai menjawab..hehehe..so kiut la these kids..tetiap hari mesti gaduh punyer...tahap menyakat sama je dua2..tak abg kacau adik, adik kacau abg..walaubagaimanapun, bila ader alien lain sakat Alya, abg will come to the rescue..org lain xley kaco adik dia, dia je bole..Alya very keen on reading..she reads everything kot sampai catalogue pun dia nak baca..she basically luv any form of books and she loves playing with educational toys too.. while Hafiz on the other hand cenderung tgk TV and main 'imaginary' toys (power rangers & utlraman berlawan2, transformers terbang2..) ..i guess both these kids have different personalities and its a joy watching the 2 of them adapt with each other..and it's nice to see that they have some part of me in them.. :) (me luv reading & also daydreaming :))) )

oh i'm looking for a name for baby #3..

kalau girl..i kinda like Maya..cos it rhymes with Alya...

kalau boy i really dont have a particular name yet in mind..any suggestions?? samting that should start with H...Harry Potter ok x? hehehe..kalau ader nama lain that starts with other letters yg lg best ok je..

eh oklar..nak bum-bum..citer lain kite citer lenkali..mungkin juga lagi sebulan dua..tgklah kalau x stress..hehehhee... :P

daaa~

Coming soon......

2011-06-29T06:36:00.003+08:00

So many things to jot down in here, tapi x sempat2...

- My latest pregnancy...yes, no.3 is on the way, peeps! :)))

- Our cuti2 Malaysia...

- Buku terbaru that I read..finally berjaya menghabiskan 1 novel...

- Our new house!! moving in sometime in July, insyaAllah..

- My only wish for my birthday this year. Hint: Someting that has got to do with Liverpool..hehe

the updates?? Soon, insyaAllah...

Hold your breath, ok...hehehe.. :)

Alya's heart murmur

2011-04-16T21:42:00.005+08:00

A couple of months ago, hubby bawak Alya for a follow up with Dr Sh*rmila @ PCMC. Masa tu Alya's condition dah ok (rentetan peristiwa ear draineage dulu). Dr Sh*rmila recommended to take 2 doses of Pnemucoccal since Alya x pernah amik lg before this and she had past 1 YO jadi xperlu sampai 4 dose mcm baby lain. So ok, hubby pun suh lar Alya dicucuk pada hari itu for the 1st dose.

Ok citernye ialah, masa hari tu Dr Sh*rmila check bunyik jantung Alya mcm samting wrong. bunyi dia x normal. cthnye kalau budak lain bunyik "lup-dup-lup-dup" , Alya punyer bunyik "lup-fushh-dup--fushh-lup..fush.." mcm tular lebih kurang. She then suruh kitorg jumpe paed caridologist for further check up cos she suspected mungkin Alya ada jantung berlubang. She was also very concern on Alya's small size.

Jantung berlubang??? ok, the moment hubby told me the above story i was in total denial. mana mungkin Alya ada jantung berlubang? where did it go wrong? and if she does have it kenapa takder simptom? and then a thought came tru my mind. Alya is a bit of smaller size compared to other kids her age. tp most doctors (except Dr Sh*rmila) werent very much concern on that cos they know she was born small (2.3kg). Cud her small size be a sign that she's having heart problem?

so seperti biasa saye google lah..and then we went to get 2nd opinion from other doctor as well. they admit that there's that abnormal sound of Alya's heartbeat tp drg ckp it's normal for kids below 1 and half yrs old. if really she has a problem with her heart, only after 1 and half yrs old that we should really be worried abt it. after googling also i found that heart murmur altho rarely heard of (ke saye je x pernah tau sblm ni?) but most of them are harmless..some goes off on its own, and some continue having it until they grow up and become adults but it doesnt stop them from having an active lifestyle. in other words, ppl with heart murmur do not necessarily have problems with their heart..they can continue living as any other normal 'heartbeaters'..heheeh..i came out with that word myself..try goole 'heartbeaters' ada tak? hihihi

ok then last month masa pegi jumpe dr sh*rmila for 2nd dose of pnemococcal tu , dia ty lagi have we go see the cardiologist..bila ckp belum, dia pun dgn serta merta mengeluarkan surat referral to the paed cardio clinic and asked us to bring Alya there on the appointment date. She didnt seem too happy abt us still hesitating to seek opinion from a specialist cardiologist . (somehow at that point i was still in denial mode. i mean how cud Alya has a problem with her heart when she's been jumping up and down running around happily, spinning, turning around, etc without any signs of fatigue almost everyday?)

so utk memuaskan hati semua org termasuklah utk merungkai segala kemusykilan, we finally went to see the paed cardiologist @ PCMC. ok. the thing is for the doctor to check Alya's heart condition precisely, she has to be motionless. toddler in motionless mode? yup, only when they are asleep. so to put Alya to sleep, she was sedated. ok this is the part yg i wasnt very thrilled abt..it's a sleeping drug ok..tp tawakal jelah with doa that it wont effect her young brain or anything in the future. after she was given the drug it took a while jugak for her to fall asleep..(ok she puke almost half the dosage given..kekeke..so only half je yg masuk)..so sbb dia xnak tido jugak..sambil2 dodoikan dia kitorg pun masukla bilik doctor for the full scan tu..Alya dah flat dah time ni tp her eyes just refuse to close..anyhow masa doctor duk sibuk2 check tu, Alya pun tertidur.

during the scan..all i understood was "artery...normal..blabla bla opening..normal...blabla bla..normal..this this normal..that that that..normal..." when the doctor finished his diagnose (which took about 15 minutes jugak rasanya)..dia pun ckp, " OK, there seem to be no problem with her heart, everything is fine..everythign is normal.." eeek!! i was leaping with joy (dlm hati je)..alhamdulillah~~ i cudnt imagine if it wasnt normal..i didnt prepare at all if i wasnt normal..so when he said everythign is fine..Alhamdulillah sgt2..after that the doctor siap sketch gambarajah jantung dan explain where it cud go wrong, if Alya do have heart problem..mcm2lah salur jantung yg dia lukis..seriuosly at that point, pengetahuan Biologi yg mmg semakin cetek ni sgt membantu..kalau x lagi x paham langsung kot..very the technical one..

What Alya has is an innocent heart murmur. It is just a sound. A unique one compared to others. It does not pose a health threat on her.

Alhamdulillah..Alhamdulillah..Alhamdulillah...

For more info on heart murmur especially in kids -> http://kidshealth.org/kid/health_problems/heart/heart_murmurs.html

and also here:

http://kidshealth.org/parent/medical/heart/murmurs.html

transformation

2011-03-22T18:13:00.001+08:00

Happy 3rd Birthday, my baby boy! :) (20th March)

Mama will always luv you...

hangat-hangat tahi ayam

2011-03-21T16:43:00.004+08:00

Oklah..frankly speaking..network business is not for me.

I cant convince ppl to join me, become my downline/business partner or watever. I did not even try.

I pegi kelas. But I still x rasa I belong. The semangat, the positive atmosphere are everywhere. And ppl do seem supportive of each other. But I feel ‘different’.

I malas nak promote lebih2 on the product. I can only describe the effect it has on my body. But I x bole nak cerita pasal testimoni org lain, unless if I hear it from their own mouth. I don’t feel good abt telling others abt things that I don’t hear it on my own.

I malas nak update my sales blog. Well, other than telling the what, who, when, why, where and how, what else do I need to tell the world? I mean I’m not used to telling ppl how much I earn…err..err..

Personally, I myself think that the product is a bit pricey. But maybe not so if you are really concern on getting in shape. But to sengaja2 beli tu takderlah. I wudnt recommend anyone to buy just for the sake of having it. I wud prefer if they buy becos they want to achieve samting out of it.

I think the product, quality-wise is bagus.What doesn’t sit well with me is how the business works. Not that I wasn’t briefed abt it before. I was but now I realized that it is far beyond what I expected it to be. You or maybe for this case ‘I’ require more time and energy if I were to really focus on it which I don’t have much of these days.

Support is there but … urmm… mungkin kurang chemistry. Or maybe becos I don’t enjoy most of the things that they like? Seperti shopping..??? it’s my least to do thing if I were to get extra money. Huhu. Or maybe becos I feel a bit inferior comparing to these ppl that go shop @ places that I just pass through without even take a quick glance everytime I go to work (read: Salvatore Paragamo, Prada, whatever else on the way).

I don’t think my hubby fully supports me. The minute I join the biz, he started venturing on another biz as well. So now his focus is mainly on that other product iaitu, beg Maika itu. So bila x support lg la malas. Sbb mcm mana mau keluar rumah pegi berjual kalau husband saye pun xder di rumah utk menjaga budak2? Cer citer, cer citer. (Note: Papa, I x salahkan u yea..statement je ni..bukan accusation..hehhee…the blame is still on me)

I rasa values saye lebih intact bila saye x berfikir pasal business ni sgt. Saye sebenarnye rasa cukup dgn apa yg ada. Cuma dulu saye fikir, mungkin kalau ader extra drp bisness lebih cool kehidupan saya. Tp now saye realized that it comes with a price. Am I willing to sacrifice all the little things that I enjoy in this life just for the sake of that extra money? Mmg betul drg ckp, sacrifice sekarang, senang kemudian hari. Tp kenapa hati saya rasa bahawa saye lagi rela lepaskan semua tu sbb saye yakin rezeki Allah tu luas? Dan kenapa saye rasa mcm ader byk benda dlm bisnes ni yg x seswai dgn ape yg saye praktikkan dlm kehidupan selama ni? Mungkin saye terlalu jujur.

Oh yea, sebenarnye saye rasa x sedap hati. Tatau kenapa. Mungkin sbb saye berbisnes dgn membuat loan. Selagi loan saye x settle, saya rasa x sedap hati. Saye sgt x suke berhutang. Hutang saye yg ader cuma hutang PTPTN. Tp skang saye sudah berhutang dgn RHB pulak. Sbb tu saye x galakkan pelanggan saye berhutang utk beli produk saye. Kalau nk bayar installment pun saye allow cash. Sbb ape2 jadi saya sentiasa halalkan baki tu. Kalau hutang dgn bank, ape2 jadi, ader drg kisah? Kecuali kalau kes2 kematian lah.

Kan saye dah kata saye terlalu jujur. Mungkin ada org x suke dgn ape yg saye tulis. Tp ni utk rekod saye sendiri. Adik saye kata saye hangat2 tahi ayam. Mungkin betul jugak kata dia. Mungkin saya jenis yg suke mencuba. Kalau benda tu tak seswai dgn jiwa saye, buat ape saye teruskan. Mungkin pada pandangan masyarakat saye cepat give-up. Mungkin drg betul. Tp saye juga x takut utk ambil risiko. Sekurang2nyer saye tau jiwa saya seswai dgn ape. Buat masa ni saye masih mencari. Mungkin rezeki saye bukan kt sini.

Saye bukan nak give up totally. I’m still selling those corsets. Siapa nak beli??~~ I can give u super special discounts..letting go price. Cuma saya x rasa saye akan carik business partner. I just don’t have the heart utk suruh org melabur that much money unless if mmg itu je dia punyer means of mencari rezeki. Saye percaya kepada rezeki Allah. Saye percaya kepada instinct saye. Naluri saye kuat mengatakan saye x perlu teruskan. Hati saye dah timbul sedikit keraguan. Dan sebelum keraguan itu memakan diri saya dan juga org lain, lebih baik saye mengundur diri.

“Kekuatan sebenar kita terletak di hati”. If my heart isnt there, maka rapuhlah kekuatan itu..Sebenarnye the blame is on me. Saye x salahkan sape2 pun dlm perkara ni. Semua org memainkan peranan masing2 dgn sgt superb..it’s just me. This thing is just not for me.

Anyway, kalau nak beli corset, seperti dinyatakan, I’m selling at super low price (compared to my normal price lah..jgn compare dgn brand kat luar sana ok..hehehe), please leave a comment and your email add for me to contact you.

For details : You can also visit http://blueskiesandpinkblankets.blogspot.com/

Sincerely,
Shaz

Nini

2011-03-17T18:09:00.003+08:00

"Mama, nini?", Alya would ask everytime I put her to bed.

"Alya's been crying all day..She wont go to sleep..i think she misses her 'nini'.." said Alya's teacher over the phone. So off I went to Alya's school to send her "nini" which Papa accidently left on our neighbour's car.

Nini = Alya's pink blankie.

She's seriously attach to it.

"Studies have shown that children who are attached to security blankets are securely attached to their mothers and psychologically healthy," says Dr. Julie Lumeng, of the University of Michigan's Center for Human Growth and Development in Ann Arbor, Mich. "The same studies show that when these children are in stressful or new situations – for example a new playgroup, preschool, going to the doctor's office, a babysitter – that if they have a security blanket they are much better able to keep themselves calm than children who do not have such an object. These children are actually better able to socialize, to learn and to regulate their emotions when they have a security blanket." - Breaking Babies Blanket Habit

Oh well, I shouldnt be worrying abt it.

Plus, she looks simply adorable when she's looking for her nini with her hands giving signals like - where? where? ..Except when she cries her lungs out lah. oh, itu tidak chumil. hehehe.

Hafiz wearing Alya's nini

life unexpected season 1

2011-03-05T16:40:00.005+08:00

i'm loving this show!

and all the casts! All of them!!

it's in my every week MUST WATCH list along with Parenthood and Survivor.

:)

after watching the latest episode on DIVA Univ (Astro 702), now i cant stop listening to Starship's Nothing Gonna Stop Us Now. heeeheee.

So i'll be like other bloggers yg dimenyampahi oleh blogger lain sbb suke tampal lyrics..but i cant help it cos i love the wordings so much!! yayy!

Looking in your eyes I see a paradise

This world that I found is
too good to be true.
Standing here beside you
want so much to give you

This love in my heart that
I'm feeling for you.

Let them say we're crazy
I don't care about that

Put your hand in my hand
baby
don't ever look back.
Let the world around us
iust fall apart

Baby
we can make it if we're
heart to heart.

And we can build this dream together
standing strong forever

Nothing's gonna stop us now.
And if this world runs out of lovers

we'll still have each other

Nothing's gonna stop us
nothing's gonna stop us now.

I'm so glad I found you
I'm not gonna lose you

Whatever it takes I will
stay here with you.
Take yov to the good times
see you through the bad times

Whatever it takes is
what I'm gonna do.

Let them say we're crazy
what do they know?
Put your arms around me
baby
don't ever let go.
Let the world around us
just fall apart

Baby
we can make it if we're
heart to heart.
And we can build this dream together

standing strong forever
. . .

Ooh
all that I need is you
you're all that I ever need.
All that I want to do is
hold you forever
forever and ever!

And we can build this dream together

standing strong forever
. . .
And we can build this dream together

standing strong forever
. . .
And we can build this dream together

standing strong forever
. . .

sunway lagoon theme park yg best :)

2011-03-02T14:57:00.002+08:00

this entry was written a twilight years ago...hehehe..i think it was some time in January this year...

we went to sunway lagoon last weekend!

it was fun but it cud've been 'funner' if we had more time to enjoy everything at the theme park.

we chose the all parks package @ RM75/person. Hafiz and Alya admitted for free becos both were under 90 cm (suruh Hafiz tunduk skit, ngelat..hehehe)..if we take only the Water, Amusement park, Wild West and Safari tu the package is RM 50 kalau tak silap..the extra Rm25 is for the Scary and Extreme Park. yg x bestnyer, we didnt get to go to Wild West n Extreme park pun sebab kesuntukan masa!!

On Scary Park tu, masuk rumah hantu..all masuk - my mom, Shasha, Wani and my maid while i babysit Hafiz , Alya n mydad kt luar..then i masuk dgn Hubby..the fisrt group to enjoy kot, hahaha..sbb drg mmg takut2..as for me and hubby, hubby cool je, i mmg tak takut langsung sbb x bukak mata pun!!!!! kekekeke..konon2 masuk rumah hantu to overcome my fear. tapi i guess i'm still scared of ghosts..i will forever be kot..just like i'm scared of snakes..huhu

there was also bungee jumping acivity at the extreme park which we didnt get to go..this one is pay [per ride..yg free pun x sempat main..all the rollercoasters tak semapt naik..i think most of our time spent kt entrance tu (near surau) sbb take turn solat..(note: next time kena pergi lagi awal supaya x kelam kabut nak solat zohor)

the safari/wild life park tu best jugak cos byk exotic animals..personally i like it better than Zoo Negara sbb Zoo Negara busuk..kekeke..this one is well maintained and the animals pun cergas dan x malas mcm kt zoo tu..we also got to see arapaima one of the largest freshwater fish in Lake Monsterduring its feeding session..ala2 arawana size besar la..

oh yea, another dissapointment is we didnt get to cross the jambatan gantung..x sempat dohhh!! berkejaran je..gi water park pun dah dekat pukul 430 and tup2 dah kul 6..of all the places hafiz and alya of course la enjoyed the water park the most..tp shian drg dpt main kejap je..me and hubby went on the slides..hahah scary jugak..tp time tu belasah je lah, dah bayar byk2 rugi je x try..

mlm tu kitorg semua overnight kt Pyramid Hotel. sbelum tu bantai KFC dulu kt Sunway pyramid. makanan kt dlm sunway lagoont u punyerlah mahal RM6 utk one glass of Milo..Rm6 utk one burger..kalau ader nasik ok gak, tp xder..(atau kitorg tak jumpe kt celah mane tah)..makanan x bole bawak masuk sebenarnye tp dia xdelah check sgt..so my mum berjaya gak seludup nasik lemak and i seludup some biscuit for my kids.

nak enter the park kena pakai jam yg ader chip which later is exchangeable to jam yg betul..tp sebenarnye kria mcm we're paying RM 10 for the jam la, cos kaalu return dpt balik cagaran RM10 yg bayar masa nak masuk tu..pandai buat trick drg ni..

alhamdulillah, both hafiz n alya x meragam masa kt dlm theme park tu..Hafiz stended la berlari ke sana ke mari..alya senyap je..enjoying the view..tp dua2 sempat la melabur dlm saham IPO Sunway Lagoon tu..maksudnyer there'll be a second time la pasni..org kata kalau kite pernah yak2 kt satu tmpt tu, ader kemungkinan kita akan pergi balik ke tempat tu..(igt mcm kucing ke?) hehehe

the next morning, we had breakfast at the hotel ..best jugak, variety of selections to choose from..tp nasik lemak dia x sedap..kekeke..yg lelain so and so lah..

overall, best giler kot sunway lagoon tu!! i'll defintiely go there again utk menebus balik ketidaksempatan masa haritu..next time, we have to properly plan our timing dlm tu..at least now we know the whereabouts lah..and the strategy to pay less! actually u dont need to purchase all parks pun if you're going in a large group..jam tu mcm bole tukar2 je with one another..

papepun, it was a blast! and i wud recommend those yg nak pergi to go there early in the morning (the park opens at 11am) but pls avoid skool holidays as am sure they'll be long queues at each station yg u nak main nanti..sediakan byk tidbits for energy, and hire someone as photographer cos aiyo susah maa kejap2 berenti amik gambar..so wasting time..and nanti either myself, my sis or hubby is not in the pciture..kalau ader photographer dia bole snap and snap as we go..next time i go, i'll find one photographer yg willing to do it for free..ade ke?kekekke

wokey, till next time..ciao cin cau!
p/s: restoran gardens kt sunway pyramid tu cantik :)). saye suke la kt awek khairul fahmi tu sbb saye rasa dia cool. xder motif pape ni.

high fever

2011-03-01T12:48:00.004+08:00

uhuk.

Alya had 2 days of high fever.

Alhamdulillah, smlm dah ok, tp still muntah2.

I had to make a decision yesterday whether to take emergency leave or go to office. sbbnyer smlm ada presentation to VP. the pack was prepared by me..of course with the help of my teammates, but i prepared it from day 1. and i worked so hard for it (not that anyone cares). So yesterday was like the end of my hardwork..a good end or a bad one. My pack was going to be presented to VP for his approval on our project deliverables..!

So..VP or my daughter??

i had the whole Sunday night thinking abt it..i didnt care so much abt missing the presentation but i was afraid if org lain x faham the sequence and the links in my slides.

in the end..i chose to stay @ home with my daughter..

called my colleague who had always been my savior, mr. syazwan and explained the slides to him so that he can explain kt whoever yg akan jadi clicker during the presentation to VP tu..

later yesterday, he told me everything went well. alhamdulillah~~ eventho my boss x ckp pape pun and didnt even text me the status, i still feel satisfied.

as for my daughter..i'm glad i stayed @ home with her..demam dia dah kebah yesterday. :) harini just need to monitor her meds utk her selsema and batuk2 cos she still ada byk phlegm dlm tekak dia..

at the end of the day (mcm sgt familiar ayat ni)...family matters more..our little kids appreciate it more if we spent extra time and effort being with them..kerja2 ofis ni kite bertungkus lumus pun org tak appreciate.kalau ok,semua buat tatau...kalau x ok, semua pointing fingers to blame others..i'm speaking from experience and what had recently happened (last week to be exact..)..hehehe..

kaylah..papepun musim PPA ni semua org mcm stress to justify this and that..as for me, i dont really look forward to getting a 2. eventho my husband kept saying i shud get a 2 this year (sbb apparently dia je tau how hard i worked cos dia yg selalu kena tunggu or pick me up everytime i balik lmbt..and he also yg kena layan budak2 when i buat keje ofis kt rumah.. but of course effort je lebey without results yg canggih di mata org2 yg menilai adalah meaningless).

tp x kisahlah..i nak if they give me a 2, is becos i deserve it. not becos of they need to fill up some quota or whatever crap there is..kalau dpt 3 pun ok je with me..i'm not really the kind yg crave sgt utk recognition or benda2 duniawi ni....

hehehe, kalau bos bace confirm dah dpt 3 ni..janji bukan m3 dahla..hahaha..

the CEO's office

2011-02-27T11:46:00.006+08:00

hehehe..while hubby was busy entertaining the crowd @ Amcorp Mall yesterday, i decided to make a little makeover to our home office (which was all this while located at our dining area..)..our house isnt that big, very limited space to have a dedicated space for our little office but i knew we need to have one. i cant stand the sight of a messy dining table..with papers, catalogues and everything else lying on it.

So, tadaaaaaaaaaa.

i converted our guest room to our little office. we have abt 2 ft space between the office area and the guest bed. which is cool becos if we ever get tired after long hours of working/studying or even youtubing, there's a bed for us to lie down! weeeheee!..the room is equipped with all the comfy stuff..a fan, air conditioner, a window for ventilation and a fantastic view to our condo's park, cushions, mirror for touch-up before video-conferencing (like we ever going to have one..hehe), a connection to the internet,and of course a cute picture of cartoon cats in an IKEA frame. i need to have at least one cute thing on our office desk for inspiration..hahhaa..oh yea, that reminds me i need to go print some piccies of my adorable kids to put up on the wall..a reminder for us on why we are doing all these in the first place :) oh , that thing on the printer,.is one of the products that we sell. Maika-Etnik tissue box cover, I heart the muffins deco so i took tit for own use..hehehe... My mum totally adores it too! There's no more of it in stock @ the distributor. Hopefully they'll include some in the next shipment.

there's nothing new in the setup. we're not planning on buying new chairs or table for the office. i guess we'll save that after we have moved to a bigger home, where we can have a room dedicated just for business purpose.

ok, that's all the update for now .oh, i x join hubby @ Amcorp Mall. Alya is having a fever and is coughing badly. She had her nebulizer last night @ Klinik Azizah..and muntah a lot of phlegm half an hour after that. phew~ shian Alya..i hope the meds would perform their magic on her..she doesnt seem like she's getting better. the last thing i want is for her to be admitted @ the hospital..i dont really mind that actually (staying @ hospital), tp i cant stand seeing her do all the physio to suck out her phlegm too...please please God, let Alya get well soon!

'hurmm, i'm cool~'

the king's speech

2011-02-20T16:43:00.002+08:00

i'm touched with the story.

movie dia sgt best and it deserved all the nominations for awards and whatnot..amazingly written and played.

best of all, it is based on true story of King George VI fromerly known as Prince Albert, Duke of York..

If u read the history, be assured that this movie will do justice. It is as if history lives in the present. it is that good.

i luv the character of Prince Albert played by Colin Firth. There are moments that tears welled up in my eyes becos i feel his pain.

and the speech therapist, Lionel played by Geoffrey Rush is absolute amazing. luv him luv him luv him.

I urge everyone to go see it..see it and feel it. It taught me that a King is no less a human being than the rest of us :). So does everyone else.

King George VI: If I am King, where is my power? Can I declare war? Form a government? Levy a tax? No! And yet I am the seat of all authority because they think that when I speak, I speak for them.

Alhamdullilah...rezeki before besday Hafiz (12 Rabiulawal) :)

2011-02-13T15:27:00.006+08:00

*copied from my other blog, aci tak? topik lain ada tp draft lg..bagi saye touch-up2 dulu before posting eh..*

Dulu2 rasa sceptic dgn semua ni..yelah, selalu kalau kite buat business jarang ada yg sokong, nak2 lagi kalau business yg cepat dpt pulangan modal. ppl always have this perception that kalau cepat untung bermakna there's something fishy going on. ppl jarang relate cepat untung dgn usaha. usaha dlm apa jua keadaan yg mampu.

bila kite buat business baru kite realize sebenarnye kawan masa susah mmg susah nak cari. masa susah dlm business selalu masa nak start-up lah..kite bukak mulut je, mcm2 views negatif yg kita dpt. i always take semua tu sebagai peringatan utk diri sendiri..if these are the things that ppl are thinking, they cud be right, and i might be at the losing end, but if they were wrong, wudnt i be at the losing end too??

last year, i did a project on risk management to be implemented in all supply chain activties across p*t gwide. if anything i learned form this project is that, every risk that we take, we need to have a proper mitigation for that. and a thorough follow up. if u were involved in a project , risks are everywhere..even way before the inception of the project up until the execution phase. u either prevent the risks from happening, treat them if they occur, or avoid them altogether in the first place (dont take the risks at all). which one do u choose? only u can decide.

of course, the larger the risk, the larger is the consequences.

eh apesal berceramah pasal risk nih?? oklah, anyway, i chose to take the risk..quite a large risk for me, considering my time, my financial and my commitments..but it is all worth it.

i am enjoying this business very much. it gives me something to look forward to. and through it i am meeting all these wonderful ppl yg very supportive to one another and it amazes me! becos trust me, in coorporate working environment, ppl backstab you all the time. part of the agenda is to bring you down. in this business, everyone wants to see you becomes succesful. u didnt realize the time that passes by when you are around them. that's how wonderful this business family is.. :)

the most important thing, i realized that i dont need to be somebody i'm not. i can still be ME and excel in this with the guidance of these ppl.

And alhamdulliah, after less than a month, i got my first bonus already :))))))))))

visit My Beautiful Corset for more info on this..

Shhhhh! something is happening in..

2011-02-10T04:29:00.001+08:00

my other blog...

Get back in shape, Mama!

2011-01-25T22:44:00.005+08:00

ok, so i have moved all my posts on my business to another blog.

motif gambar:utk merujuk kepada tajuk.

Like u, i oso got serabut with all the bercampur2 thing altho i kinda like rojak very much. hehehe.

For the benefit of those yg just suke nak baca kisah2 saya yang x seberapa ni, i spare you from reading posts on my business.

BUT! but..if u still wanna have a peek of what's going on in there, please2 do visit my other blog tu..sian dia sorang2 takder org tgk..hehehe..xder follower lagi ;( shian dia..

hurm oklah..seperti biasa tajuk xder kena mengena dgn post.

orait..penatlah asyik tukar layout.saye harap kali ni stay lama skit layout ni..kalau saye berjaya kekalkan selama 3 bulan, nanti saye belanja diri sendiri! weeee

ok, nite everyone, my brain dah sgt penat...mu titon..esok gi Gebeng plak...pastu balik KL..yahooooooooo..i lap KL.

twitter best rupenyer! kikiki

2011-01-24T18:22:00.003+08:00

ok ni entry ada manyak ngaruts skit..

saye suke twitter! sbb ...besttt!

oh btw..saye rasa mcm x best plak combine blog personal dgn asal business ni..so i akan berubah wajah seketika nanti, and have 2 separate blogs!

*cam x best plak org baca kisah personal kat blog yg diaccess umum.*

Otitis Media : ear infection and ear drainage

2011-01-21T03:13:00.012+08:00

Alya had cold since X'Mas.

The thing is, she didnt have runny nose. The mucus somehow refused to go down her nose.

The first week, i just gave her the normal cold med that her paed usually prescribed to her. The Antihistamine. i stop the med on the 2nd week when i see her getting better, or was it i assumed that she was getting better? humm. the 3rd week she became a bit fussy and her body temperature was a bit warmer than usual but since i was positive that there's nothing serious (we brought her to her paed and all is ok, her lungs are cleared adn she seemed active.having been assured that, i decided to bring the whole family to Sunway Lagoon for the weekend.

Well, we had FUN! The kids especially! and of course the love the water park the most.

Alya was feverish the whole week after that. She even shivered a couple of time at her school becos her temperature was quite high. But everytime we picked her up, the teacher has already given her med and temp returned to normal. so when the doctor checked on her after thate, hdidnt seem too worried about her condition. he just gave her another round of Progressic Syrup. Come weekend, Alya started to have ear drainage.

this was when we decided to press the panic button. huhu.

brought her to Prince Court emergency room. again the doctor didnt seem so worried. he just gave us some cotton swab and anothter bottle of Progressic Syrup (as painkiller). He mentioned that Alya's condition is maybe what they call Otitis Media but we need to confirm with her Paed then the ENT specialist.

Since it was Sunday, he scheduled for us to meet Dr Sh*rmila on Tuesday. So we went home after taking the meds but later that evening we went to Klinik Azizah pulak becos there were too much eardrainage and i was getting seriously worried. The doctor at the clinic prescribed for Alya eardrop which is supposed to be dropped on a cotton swab then insert the swab in Alya's ear. So we did just dat for that Sunday night and we called PCMC to change our appntm with Dr Sharm*la to Monday (the nex day) instead.

After meeitng Dr Sharm*la, we had 5 different medicines to give to Alya. 2 types of antinbiotics- 1 eardrop (Tarivic Otid solution), another mkn type, progressic syrup (as painkiller), rhinathiol (for her phlegm/cough) and aerius (for cold). hafiz also got his series of medicines progressic syrup, aerius and prospan (owh, he was also feverish but no ear infection detected, alhamdulillah). Dr Sharmila confirmed on the Otitis Media thing. We have a follow up with her next Monday (which is the day that i have to go to kertih) and later Dr Sharm*la will refer us to ENt specialist to check on Alya's ear.

So far, after 4 days of battling the infection, Alya's overall condition is ok. she no longer has fever. the fever subside the minute the ear discharge came out.

she still have the ear drainage coming out with all her hingus2 from both her ears. I hope semua akan keluar by the time we meet Dr Sharm*la again so she cud see into Alya's ears, The other day she wasnt able to do so cos there were too much fluid.

Papepun, I'm praying that my daughter will get well soon.

I luv you Yaya :)

Alya dah pandai ckp 'mama, kittt' supaya Mama tiup2, sapu2 and kiss kt tmpt yg dia sakit tu..lepas dah kiss 'kittt' dia pun 'langgg' (hilanggg)~ how cud u resist that muka kesian???

Pump your day with a cup of #MiloFuzeJamPack and you can also tag your friends with the respective Milo Fuze's personalities. It's fun. Try now!

2011-01-21T01:22:00.000+08:00

Pump your day with a cup of #MiloFuzeJamPack and you can also tag your friends with the respective Milo Fuze's personalities. It's fun. Try now!

Well.. Milo has always been my favourite drink and i'm assuming most Malysians grew up drinking Milo. So y not test out which Milo Fuze personalities are you in this fun game!

Azam 2011

2011-01-20T04:27:00.004+08:00

Hola! Tahun ni rasa nak buat azam. dah hari ke-20 baru teringat nak buat azam.hehe. sebenarnye setiap hari saye renew azam saye. saye seorg yg mempunyai short-term goals. saye x bole fikir terlalu jauh ke hadapan sbb nanti byk benda lain yg saye pikir. tpkan, looking at whats happening around me, semcam ade something dat triggers me to put up a plan for the years to come.

triggering points:

saye dan suami sedang mencari rumah. kitorg ader option either to purchase for investment or utk stay. either or, we need to fork out some money. based on our budget we can only afford rumah yg less than 400K IF we want to continue living spt sekarang with the current income. 400K adalh satu nilai yg tidak munasabah utk mencari rumah yg memenuhi citarasa saye di Kuala Lumpur ini. rata2 rumah yg saye suke semua harga RM600K ke atas. entah bile baru mampu nak beli. i wonder how other ppl esp those yg kerja (assuming) gaji lebey kurang me n my hubby are able to purchases houses in KL.
i also wonder how they are able to spend lavishly. My definition of lavish is any handbag worth more than RM200, any baju worth more than RM150 (ni pun dah kira mahal tp kt KL baju kurung yg best harga range RM150-RM200), make-ups and segala mak datuk branded items tu. Not that i want to purchase any of those (sib baik belum ada keinginan ke arah itu) tp i am just wondering how they can afford those things when i yg x beli pape ni pun setakat cukup2 je.
i know for sure that there's no guarantee that i'll be staying for long in my current company. with all the restructuring, vss, cto and whatnot, nobody is safe.

SO..it is time for change.the time has come.i should not hesitate any longer becos the more i wait, semakin saye kerugian.

Yup, 2011 will be the time for change.

itu je azam saye. hehehe..nanti la saye expand sikit.change tu merujuk kepada byk perkara. dr segi rohani, jasmani, akidah, etc.

papepun, happy thaipusam to all!

small reunion

2011-01-12T11:26:00.006+08:00

kabi invited us to his daughter birthday party.
So we went to his new home at sering ukay on sunday, 2 weeks ago (during the longgg break).

the guys - Che Ar, Handsome Hubby, Kabi (+ son) and Aidil

i didnt realized it until i look back at the photos that it was actually a small reunion of my x-classmates at utp. Kabi, Che Ar, Aidil and Myself ..we were all in the same class amik Electrical Engineering majoring in Instrumentation & Control (chewah, nak jugak mention..hehehe)..ni semua geng chatting 24 jam kt irc..kalau x chat pun online 24 jam buat ape tah kt situ (download series?) Kabi (sorry tak igt nama irc dia.kabi gak kot?), danial17, ScottK and Charmed^Piper (ye, i was charmed Piper,the power of three will set u free..kekekeke) ..

the girls - Rina (+ daughter), Muna and Schaz (+ cheeky Alya)

5 yrs after our graduation so this is where we are now..semua dah kawen..semua dah ader job..semua berckp pasal membeli rumah utk family..cant believe semua dah matang..hehehe..
back to the party..birthday cake dia cantikkk..ader barbie doll princess lagi..y didnt i take a snap eh? must have been sibuk melayan the kids..and they also gave the kids door gifts yg best!! my kids luv 'em..:))

the kids pipish & yaya

okie, that's all for now.till next update. daaa~

Football for Unity

2011-01-02T03:43:00.007+08:00

it's almost 4 am and i belum tido2 lagi..esok ahad so xperla kot..hopefully i can bgn lambat..papepun by 10am dah kena terpacak di skiva Warehouse sale..adik i ckp murah sampai Rm5 per piece! hopefully our size masih ada.

bestnyerrr long weekend..thanks to our football team, semua org dpt extra public holiday..as for my company, kami carry forward to monday since jumaat lepas mmg cuti..suke3!

owh seeing malaysia won the cup adalah satu pengalaman yg tidak akan dilupakan..it's sooo worth all my effort to get back the sports package during the suzuki cup campaign..kekeke..semata2 nak tgk the game which initially wasnt shown on any of our local TV stations!! (i mean..RTM, TV3, 8tv, ntv7 , etc..ade lg ke?)..had to rely on sports channel shj..luckily (err..unluckily for me?) the finals were telecast on rtm1..huhu..tp x sia2 jugak membayar extra cos i got to see them since earlier on..hehehe..been following the team's performance since their superb show during Asia games hari tu..somehow rasa mcm all the matches that i've watched so far,the worldcup,epl, the youth cup are nothing compared to seeing Malaysia wins! walaupun suzuki cup je (kata mereka)..the joy and the pride of supporting own nation is undescribable. perghh, belum masuk worldcup lg tu..

PM giving 1 day off to all the rakyat and us leaping with joy mcmlah kite yg duk main kt padang tu (hehehe) just indicate how much football means to the nation. football brought us together like no other sports can match up to..yerp, no even squasy or F1 y'all (colleague ckp sbb ni games org2 kaya je). I always believe football is a great platform for ppl to gather and unite without all those political, religious boundaries..i was sceptic abt the indonesians fans but they turned out to be very cool during the match (better than those few malaysians yg main laser tu...tsk tsk tsk)

to all malaysian players, thank you! thank you for giving us hopes that we can be at par with the giants in SEA, for the time being..hope we will climb more steps above in our journey to be in the worldcup..to khairul fahmi, i'm getting over you..hahahha! - too much hype pulak abt your personal life..i hope the media wont turn you into david beckham malaysia plak..anyway, keep up being the cool, commanding keeper...the team needs you..(ni budget mcm dia KF nak baca la ni..hahaha)

to coach K Rajagopal..hope you can consider a transfer to Anfield..i heard Hodgson is going to be replaced soon.. :)

tgk video ni tetibe rasa sayu plak..rindu kt drg ni..the people that once color my life with their football skills..i guess now we have our very own to root for..:) owh, of course my Gerrard is still no.1..

potty training results (as of Day 2)

2010-12-20T13:38:00.002+08:00

potty training hafiz went well. ada byk jugak accidents..hahaha..tp sekali je yg dia yak2 dlm seluar. (tu pun sbb dia pegi taman)..yg the rest adelah accident kecil di mana he either tengah shi-shi baru ckp..or tgh nangis sbb Mama marah dia..hahaha..

anyway, byk jugak yg Hafiz bitau siap2 sbelum shi-shi, and ada yg kitorg bawak dia siap2 pegi toilet..gap dlm 2 jam, bawak gi toilet..ader one time yg dia nak yak-yak yg dia bitau siap2..and ploop goes out the poop dlm toilet bowl! we like!

hari ni school day. utk tidak menyusahkan teacher, we x continue the trainign @ school..tp balik rumah annti harus start balik..i think hafiz gets the idea now..sbb masa keluar pegi rumah kazen we pakaikan diaper pun, dia x shi-shi dlm diaper tu..3 jam jugakla...;)

good boy, Hafiz!! nanti Mama belikan kek red velvet pas masuk gaji ye..skang cukup2 je nak survive lagik 3 hari ni..kalau gaji masuk before x'mas la..kalau tak..tunggu Santa Clause bg jelah..hehehe

potty training part ke berape tah..

2010-12-17T16:06:00.004+08:00

potty training Hafiz will resume again this weekend.

I actually kagum dgn Joely cos she's potty training her son, Aqil now although she tgh sorang2 handling both her toddlers (baby Asif will become toddler once he reached 1 YO..hihi)..i cant believe i have 2 toddlers in my house right now too! prepare for the tantrum-tum-tum y'all~~

so dgn semangat itu, saya pun nak sambung balik sesi potty train hafiz..terbantut lagi haritu cos i was busy with i dun know what..hahaha..so this ptg after work, nk pergi membeli belah training pant man-man (batman and superman) @ Tiny Tapir or Ben 10 @ where yah??, x jumpe lagik source..Hafiz wud only where either of these..so bersabar jelah yer Mama and Papa..

sejibik cam Apis punyer...i bought his dekat Tiny Tapir..dua ni lah feveret dia..dia ader jugak spender Ben 10 tp dia x suke sgt yg tu sbb mcm sepnder sgt kot..hehhehe..pic source from My Honey BB.

jom2..hopefully will make it through the week..

base : 2 hari
yield : 5 hari
stretch: 1 minggu

wahhh...kalau berjaya semua org dpt hadiah berupa >> sepotong kek red velvet kegemaran Onie (sambil mkn dpn dia)..(subject to budget bulan depan sbb kek tu mahal nau..RM12 sekeping)

p/s: i think org paling penat pasni is my maid..hehehe...

i tested one from Cupcake Chics..tak sedap pun..hahaha..mungkin yg batch haritu drg salah buat kut..

my animated world

2010-12-17T15:37:00.004+08:00

spent my friday lunch break watching Despicable Me!

i luv the kids!! cute as buttons!!!reminded me of my little girl, Alya... :))

bulan ni je i have watched 3 animation movies. sebelum ni i do watch cite2 kartun ni but mostly because i nak accompany my son or i dont have any other movies to watch.
yg bestnyer..saye rasa saye sgt suke tgk animation movie skarang!! pasni nak pegi beli lg cd/dvd animation yg i never watched before...

the lanterns scene has got to be the most beautiful scene during the movie...Hafiz pun tak berkelip mata tgk..he held my hand sambil mulut terbukak and times ckp, "Mama..mama..wahhh.."..blum tgk 3D lagi tu..;)

y i like them?

the characters are incredibly funny!

i wont be mad if some part of the story doesnt seem logical because it is animation anyway and it reserves the right to be illogical & nonsense~~hihihi..

even if they have predictable endings, tp cerita2 ni selalunya have great lessons learnt or moral of the story at the end becos they are mostly intended for the kids to watch..so at the end of the muvi, i wont find myself saying "what the heck??"

the movie is always not more than 2 hours..which is cool considering how jittery my son gets after an hour of watching a movie (if i'm watching with him) and how suntuk masa is (if i'm watching during friday lunch break)..;)

it brings out all the feel good hormone in my body. lepas tgk mesti rasa happy :)))) (except toy story 3, i hate the ending..i think the story is a bit heavy for a kid)

humm.. oh, did i mention the characters are incredibly funny? cos they really are and they can make me burst out LOL..hihihi ..me like~~

suke-suke-suke-suke sgt citer ni!!! tgk kt HBO je pun tp rasa kagum giler dgn creativity tukang buat cerita ni...who wud've thot a machine could produce food from water and able to make one? only in this type of muvie, peeps, where the craziest ideas are possible..hihihi

oklah..next in line...Megamind~..oh yea~

it's all in the mind...

2010-12-15T16:09:00.001+08:00

when i look at what i have now, i feel content. ppl might think i'm an easy person to please. maybe i am. but do they know what makes me feel that way?

i get up every morning knowing i have a choice of making the day the best or the worst day of my life. sometimes i just choose the latter cos its so much easier to whine and complain and feel annoyed at stuff rather that to be thankful and patient about it. But most days i choose just to go with the flow and smile at everything that didnt go my way.
only those really close to me would be 'unfortunate' to see the darker side of me. yes, despite all those smileys and the hi-5s, there are moments that i wish i could just strangle that certain someone. instead i would just nod my head and do watever that makes her/him happy. play safe? y not?

my upbriging (i believe) is the main factor y i am the way i am. some ppl misunderstood my positive outlook on everything and thinks i'm just being sweet. sweet or not this is me. i have my sour, hanyir, masam, kelat days as well. but is it worth sharing it to the world? i dont think so. i dont think ppl cud tolerate my sour, hanyir, masam, kelat days. so y bother share it with them, right?

whenever anything bad happens (or soemthing i think is bad enough happens), i'll always think of my brother..and father..and knows that nothing, NOTHING cud ever measure up to how hurtful it feels being in their shoes.so when i feel sad that my hubby didnt say some things that i wish he wud've said, or when the time i merajuk with him becos of certain things that a wife wud normally merajuk with the husband, i'll always think of my brother and i immediately feel stupid to even feel sad in the first place. who am i kidding? my brother is suffering, and all i care abt was y hubby x ckp sweet2 stuff to me? huhuhu

and i wud normally started to cry ..becos i feel so helpless. i feel helpless becos i dont know what to do to make those ppl who a suffering to feel less pain..(and at this point hubby wud think i cry becos of what he ddint say tu..) yeayeahhh

when my mum told me soemthing that happen to some relatives, i feel grateful for all i have. and guilty to ever feel sad or angry or any of those negative feelings before. when i heard that my 2nd kazen needs to work until the wee hours in the morning even during weekends, i feel grateful for having my 8-5pm -sometimes 8 to 6,7,8pm- job (even how dreadful each day is to me)..when i heard how hard it is for ppl to earn a living and own a decent house, i feel thankful that we have our jobs and the small hut to live in..small but comfy enuff for us. everyday i wish i am rich so that i cud help enuff ppl get what they want. bila naik jejantas, everyday i wud see this one blind man selling pocket tissues and at another jejantas, this lady holding her baby (seriously kesian sgt baby tu..) minta sedekah...and even if ppl says never succumb to the so called 'act' by certain agent yg upah beggars ni, deep down inside, it still hurts to see them like that. and everytime pun i wud still give some money to them. y not? they wudnt do it in the first place if they were'nt that desperate, right?

i started taking the bus to work again this month, thanks to the parking rate increment..(and pls blame it on the oil price like i'm going to belive that..hello, parking space and minyak kereta apekah relevant nyer? ) when i got on the bus, i see many ppl of different backgrounds (i assume) going to work. i am not going to judge them by what they wear. only nak cerita that ada satu hari that i was feeling so tired and weak and i was late to work and i asked hubby to go to work by car tp hubby insist naik bus jugak and i merajuk dgn dia the whole day becos i nak naik kereta tp i mengalah gak naik bus..hahaha. (later in the afternoon i found out that i had fever so itulah pasal rasa lemah je..isk isk isk..en suami nihh)

..the point is..i have that option, we have that option: to take the bus or to drive our own car..we choose bus to save on parking cost. but they are ppl that had to take bus becos its their only means of transportation and the only way they cud afford it. most yg naik bus ni pun buruh2 binaan..(cos drg turun kt tapak pembinaan.., heck, cud be engineers jugak kan?hehe) so even if they are sick, or pregnant, or so old that that cud barely walk, they still have to take the bus. to observe all this on a daily basis is a humbling experience.

so peeps, whenever you feel like life doesnt go your way, always look around and listen to the ppl around you. there are reasons y things doesnt go the way u want it..maybe not yet..maybe u havent tried hard enuff..maybe God has better plans for u..and if you feel like you want to knock soemone in the head, or u just want to kick his/her butt so hard that he/she wud be bouncing all the way to Mars and back (cos their children still need them), but truth is, there must be something underneath that 'evil-ca-devil' face that he/she is going through. something hurtful enuff to make him/her behave the way he/she does. and u know what? its beyond your control..unless you are the source of the problem lah..so y fret and waste your energy hating that person? just acknowledge the fact that thats how he/she behave and try to adapt. if it is so d*mn impossible to do so..just stay away from that person..stay far far and away...~~ :)

at the end of the day, all i cud say is..i am grateful for all the things i have in life. i'm not rich but i feel enough. i'm not pretty, but it's the imperfection that makes me beautiful (ayat perasan lg). i'm not smart but i dont have to be a rocket scientist to be kind to ppl.

i may not have everything that i wish, but maybe if i did, i wouldnt cherish all the small things that i have right now, would i?

what i have is average to some ppl, but it is perfect for me. :)

i wish everyone wud feel the same way with their life. wudnt the world be happier place?

Alhamdulillah, syukur. Thank you Allah for everything.

VBA2C and tips mendapatkan twins ~

2010-11-25T01:18:00.006+08:00

haritu saya nak ceasar sbb nak buang scar dr operation yg lepas. tp now a new scar has developed at the same spot. so terbuktilah it is just my skin type, and i just have to live with it. that got me thinking, pasni maybe i should try normal birth? can, ka? the normal answer ppl wud give is a No. but i search the web and found a few success stories on VBA2C - Vaginal Birth after 2 Ceasareans. so there's a probability of success if i wanted to opt for normal delivery nex time. I hope it's possible.

oh yea..i'm hoping to have twins nex time..hahaha! y?..let's be realistic..i only have 3 chances to be pregnant (safely) again.statistically, i cud have a minimum of 5 kids altho most doctors recommend to stop at 4 (but y do we need to let them dictate our body? ...gegegege) so i take 5 cos it was what i dreamed of before..5 kids..but then again, after delivering my prince and princess i kinda feel that life is good as it is..that somehow our family feels complete. I had the same feeling after i had my firstborn. i cudnt imagine loving another child. but then comes my daughter, and i love her with all my heart. i'm sure i'll love my 3rd, 4th, 5th ...10th children all the same too..tp entahlah..like i've mentioned before, life is good the way it is...however, if diizinkan Allah, i still want more cos i love children~! sure i can be a monster at times but i love them! i want twins so that i could 'retire from birthing' before 30..kekkeke..retire young kata org..then after that we can focus on other stuff like school, vacations, building business empire ..chewah~ well, that's the plan, tp Allah yg menentukan..He knows what's best for us. Kadang2 apa yg kita rasa baik utk kita, turns out to be bad and apa yg kita rasa x elok utk kita, sebenarnye adalah yg terbaik .. (mcm pernah kudgr tp di mana ya?..hi wani~)..

anyway, dlm usaha utk merealisasikan impian saya, i did some research..apparently, like duh~~, i can get twins by taking pil subur. but the risk is i may end up with the -plets family..triplet, sixtuplets, octoplets..hahaha..quite scary tu..i want to raise my kids in the best possible condition and environment so kalau bole biarlah mereka keluar secara berperingkat2 mengikut keadaan ekonomi semasa mama dan papa mereka..hehehehe..so taking pil subur is a no-no for me due to its possible effect.

yg lelain caranya - u must have some history in ur family who are born twins- my kazen on my father's side ada anak twins but one died masa baby..my auntie on my mum's side pun ada twin juga meninggal masa baby.. err, not so good history there cos only one of the twins survived..so, cant really rely on that..tp the chances tu ade kot to conceive twins..hehe ..optimis!

another way..u must be fat. oh, that;s so easy. i'm not sure by this do they mean a big size person is more likely to conceive twins or a small size person that becomes big due to the excess fat in their body can also have the possibility to conceive twins..? err, becos i am the latter...hehehe

lagik caranya is..mkn yam.., ubi2..katanya meningkatkan whatever hormone yg increase penyuburan kot. (actually u can start googling now for the tips becos i malas nak carik balik link tu semua. hiihuu..these are some tips that i remember from the various sites) pastu have to take lotsa dairy products (now this i can do).

Another tip is ..to get pregnant at an older age..30-40+..wahhh..i'm not sure whether my body wud be able to bear children at that age..skang pun bole rase tulang mereput (note: jgn lupe minum anlene). apparently, as we ,women get older, kita akan hasilkan byk ovum utk prepare ourselves for the menopause stage..so likelihod to conceive twins are high at this age. but i cant wait that long. i'll be too old to watch my kids play for Malaysia in the WorldCup nanti..hehehe

yg paling best is tips from makcik2 dan nenek2..mkn pisang kembar!!! hahaha. i like~!! this i can definitely do..only have to carik pisang. miraculously (am exaggerating a bit here)..i found 2 twins pisang in a week's time after i thot abt this twins thingy!! how creepy is dat?? hahaha..satu pasang pisang kembar dijumpai at my auntie sepupu house masa dia buat doa selamat utk pg Haji..the other masa my mum bought kt Pasar a few days later..and both times, the pair of pisangs were the last pisangs yg tinggal kt tangkai tu, cos NOBODY wants to eat them!!!! hahahahaaa..sungguh superstitious kan?? well, me being the ever brave risk-taker with the hidden agenda, telah memakan pisang2 itu di kedua2 tmpt kejadian...kekekekekekeke...the first pair that i ate, only the kulit yg melekat, tp isi dlm tak melekat..i told my sister, ni kembar tak seiras atau lain jantina ni..the other one , dlm dia betul2 melekat..well, i hope i wont get siamese twins..kesian kt budak2 tu nanti..kalau bole kembar seiras...pastu seiras dgn Gerrard..wahhh...hehehehe

oklar ni cth pisang kembar dr google image. malas la nak upload gmbr sbb card reader tu mcm lose nanti my picture corrupt lagi..

oklah..have a nice day peeps!! jgn percaya sgt la pisang tu..xtaula nape org dulu2 ckp camtu..mungkin pisang kembar merembeskan hormon subur jugak? hurm, semuanya kuasa Tuhan...~ wallahualam

giddy and anemia

2010-11-15T12:54:00.005+08:00

pic source: here

i'm on leave today.

had another episode of 'giddy-ness' yesterday. my blood pressure was low and the doctor said i looked pale.

her advice was:

1. need to take meal 6 times a day. the complete course. there goes my diet plan (hahaha, like i've strated one already...;) )

2. no caffeine & tea..a big no-no. i'm not a nescafe drinker but i did consume some last couple of weeks to cope with my sleepyness @ the office. then i stopped after feeling very heavy-headed. but i i didnt stop tea. i thot is good for the body. tea is good for slimming what~ hehehe..i guess now have to rely solely on milo & anlene..;(

yesterday i vomitted 5 times. morning, afternoon and early evening. yes, i wish (err,not really) i was pregnant and that was what the doctor suspected too..but since my period had just ended a couple of days earlier so that was ruled out. dang!

fyi, this isnt my first time feeling giddy. the very first one (and the worst) i had when i was in Labuan. i was at home, alone when it happened. i think i blackout at the sofa, before i cud get up again and lie on my bed.when it didnt go away, i called my fren, naja to bring me to clinic cos obviously i cudnt drive during that time. the doctor said i lack salt in my body, bp was low, etc. the doctor gave me the oral rehydration salt and asked me to drink lotsa water.

the 2nd and 3rd time happened when i was pregnant with hafiz n alya respectively. lucky both time ader org kt rumah. doctor's advice was the same and instead of taking the ors, i cud opt for 100 plus (buangkan gas dia dulu).

this time it happened, i rasa maybe sbb i donate my blood last week. tp itu mase hari rabu..lamenye it took effect.hehehe..doctor said it cud be the cause. she asked me to do check-up on my blood in case i have anemia.

uh okay, i feel like crying watching Oprah's season finale..if there's anyone that has make me want to become a better person, Oprah is definitely one of them! :)

Alya dah 1 tahun!!

2010-11-09T21:26:00.002+08:00

it has been a while since the last time i write anything in here..bz la sgt kan? hehehe. The reason i make the effort to write before tomorrow comes is because today is Alya's 1st Birthday!! HAPYY BIRTHDAY MY LITLLE GIRL!!! i luv u veryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy much!!!!

Alya has started walking since the last couple of weeks..sekarang mmg xmo org dukung..suke betul berjalan..the irony thing is, i havent bought her any walking shoes and the pair of shoes that she had was left at K Terengganu while we were attedning my kazen's kenduri..awesome~ hehehe. well, all the more reasons to shop for those cute little things!!

we had a small makan2 last weekend..the intention was to celebrate Alya's birthday but i didnt want to give anyone the idea of we're having a party so i kind of left that 'birthday celebration' part when inviting my frens..so of course la ppl asked kan y cos takkan becos sambut deepavali kot sbb raya dah lepas and raya haji is nex week..hehehe..those yg ty, i ckpla..altho ader jugak yg i x ckp..kekeke..actually i dont want ppl to come bringing presents or anything..if bagi pun we terima dgn hati terbuka :)) hahaha..but the fact is i juz want to enjoy their company and have them eat the food that we ordered..order hokey, x larat kot nak masak..:P

i personally feel birthday celebration is a family affair..close family to be exact..i'm not really a fan of grand celebration for birthdays..i dont mind other ppl doing it and i dont mind joining in the fun, but for myself and my family, i'd rather have it within the keluarga asas..it is much sweeter and meaningful that way..us appreciating another year together, reminiscing the year that has passed by...and of course this is coming from an anti-social person (me, who else?)...kekekee..

well, anyhoo, the small makan2 thing went well..i guess i did over-estimate the food..takut org x cukup makanan punye pasal..but nex time i guess we will estimate better..it was a good session for us to benchmark for the next open house - if we ever plan to do one or two again next time ;) My sister bought some hydrogen-filled pink and white balloons and there were the live of the 'party'..hehe..xdelar buhsan sgt nampak umah kan..i specifically asked her for the hydrogen-filled ones becos i dont want the balloons to be scattered all over the floor and menyesakkan pandangan..kekekeke..oh yea, if anything i rasa next time i wont serve candies anymore during makan2..becos

1. alya n hafiz mkn candies sampai melekit2 tgn dan memegang everything else menyebabkan semut berkerumun (ni kejadian dlm kereta)
2. there are not good for kids. hafiz almost choke on some (dia telan gula2 tu..sabor jelah)..and alya mmg susah nak tido mlm tu cos we suspect dia terlebey gula = hyperactive..hehehe

those are my assumptions..hehehe..anyway the truth is i mmg x suke makanan sebegitu..i'd rather have the kids eat biskut ke, buah ke, carrot ke, nugget ke or any healthy bites (nugget healthy ke? hentam lah..boring kan saye ni?)..

I guess, the most important thing at the end of the day is, everybody had a good time (err, i wish they did..i hope they did..:) ) and my kids were happy (i know they are), and my hubby were also happy cos his buddies all came..and if they are happy, i am happy..

HAPPY 1st BIRTHDAY ALYA AMANI !!

09-11-10

going hiatus

2010-10-08T22:32:00.003+08:00

going to be a while until i post any entry in here from now.

y?

cos Survivor season is back, baby!

bring it on!!

i dont have a favorite yet, which i am amazed myself..cos it's been 4 episodes but i've yet to cheer for anyone..

oh, but i do like Eve..but her airtime is not much so didnt see much of her, yet..

oklah..mau continue watching...

bye~

the pursuit of happyness

2010-09-28T13:26:00.003+08:00

oklah mulai hari ini sayae hanya akan menulis cerita2 yg HAPPY shj kat blog saya. hehehe. bukanla xder citer sedih..mungkin akan ada memandangkan saye ni drama queen skit, tp saye dah xmolah cerita pasal org lain. cthnye pasal maid saya. saye rasa dia baik. dia baik. sbb kalau dia jahta mesti dah lama dia lari atau babap anak saye. kiraqnya dia baikla tu sanggup juga jaga anak saya kekadang tu bila saye terlelap awal atau terbangun lambat (hehehe..ini sengaja sbb weekend saye sukeeee bgn lambat...).

oklah..sbb semua org share gambar raya kan..haaa...saye pun share jugaklah...utk kenang-kenangan..bukan gamabr saye..gambar my kids..

taraaa...

eh, malas la nak upload. lambat plak pc opis ni.

so sedikit lah perkembangan terbaru..saye tgh carik kerja baru..dah apply utk 2 jobs, but so far dua2 mcm x nampak bayang. i think drg tgk my qualification x seswai kot dgn keje tu. nak tau keje ape? saye mintak jadik shichida instructor. dan transcriber. saye mmg suke nak interact dgn bebudak..yg transcriber tu saye mintak sbb bole buat dr rumah. hehehe.

so since dua2 senyap je after saye hantar resume, haruslah saye carik lg. the thot of starting a business tu mmg ada. tp tu nanti2 lah pikir. saye nak mkn gaji dulu sbb nak kumpul modal.

ads dlm Starjobs byk je..tp saye kurang berminat la dgn keje2 tu..ader jugak suggest saye continue buat supply chain kt tmpt lain..huh..kalau saye nak buat benda sama, baik saye stay kt sini je..kuang3.

saye ader byk keinginan tetapi xder skill. ke instead of mencari kerja, saye patut sambung study? but in what field?

saye minat early childhood education. and psychology.

antara 2 ni je lah.

entahlah..kan best kalau kaya raya.

boikot facebuk

2010-09-19T11:35:00.005+08:00

dah beberape hari tak jenguk fb.

merajuk dgn fb.

sbb ..

sbb semua org upload gambar raya. semua!

thn ni saye xder gambar raya yg best.

semua gambar raya yg ader famili saye ader gambar maid saye sekali. x best.

family saye especially belah hubby treat maid saye mcm family betul. sampai masa beraya org igt maid saye wife hubby. maybe sbb dia pakai baju cantik yg diberi oleh adik saya dan sbb dia asyik melekat dgn MIL saye masa berkunjung ke rumah org. and saye asyik pegang Alya nampak mcm saye plak maid. mungkin sbb tudung saye serabai kena tarik oleh anak2-ku menampakkan keselekehanku..biarlah, yg penting anak2 saya, saye sendiri yg jaga.

beraya sebelah keluarga hubby di melaka so and so je..x meriah sgtlah nak compare dgn beraya belah famili sendiri.. drg pun x beria nak sambut raya. xder upacara salam2 di pagi raya..semua mcm biasa je..perkara wajib je yg drg buat seperti solat raya, mkn2, jumpe sedara. hehehe.

x kisahlah tu..

balik jugak beraya kt kampung di pahang n terengganu. tp sbb balik pun dah raya ke-4, org pun dah xder..tinggal to'ki n to'wan je. dan ayam2. hafiz syokla kejar ayam.hehe.

tp yg sedihnye ituler..my kazens share gambar2 kt facebuk and saye xder dlm gambar..famili saye xder dlm gambar..dahla beraya kt melaka bile tgk balik kamera penuh dgn gambar maid je..apesal eh? sbb dia suke interframe? hurm..sebenarnye sbb saya x sampai hati nak ckp 'bole tak duduk kt tepi sat kami nak amik gmabr keluarga saya shj'..and lagi satu sbb drg semua suke je nak amik gmabar maid tu..kadang2 rasa mcm maid saye di-treat terlebey plak oleh keluarga mertua saya..dulu drg jugak yg pesan, kalau mkn jgn ajak duduk sekali, jgn ajak tgk tv sekali, dan 1001 jangan lagilah..now semuanya drg buat,siap ajak mkn sama2 satu family and saya plak kena dukung jaga Alya (sbb saye dah mkn siap2 in case Alya nangis). so, now saye pun serba salah camne nak treat maid saye ni..dahla dia mcm enjoy je gi umah mertua saye..huhuhu

yer betul, saye jeles. suke hati lah nak jeles. walaupun dia org cambodia and famili dia duk jauh and saye tau hidup kat cambodia tu susah dgn periuk api tertanam sana sini, saye nak jeles jugak. ckpla ape korang suke, nak jeles jugak. kalau jeles x semestinye x kesian kan? saye jeles je, xderlah nak tengking2 ke jentik ke. nak jeles je. and bukan dia tau pun saye jeles.

sedangkan Aisyah pun cemburu terhadap Khadijah walaupun mereka tidak pernah bertemu. inikan pulak saye insan yg sememangnye kerdil (like literally) dan terpaksa mengadap situasi ni berulang2 kali.

semestinye lah cemburu. cuba utk xnak jeles tak bertempat tp x boleh. biarlah, perasaaan saye hak peribadi saye.

eh, ni topic facebuk ke topic maid ke topic jeles?

anyway, saye nak merajuk dgn facebuk until i dont know when. you wont see me updating my status until then, heck, i wont even log-in until i feel like i need to.

for now, this blog will be my sounding board..

Thank you.

Image Source: Polyvore

i can see better now

2010-09-18T23:59:00.003+08:00

Pic source: here

Yesterday, pegi kedai Optik Syam utk membuat bingkai baru. my frame sudah senget benget yg puncanya hanya diketahui oleh parents yg memakai specs dan mempunyai 2 anak yg curious. gegege.

yg bestnye nak citer ialah, power lens saye dah turun!! wahh..belah kanan turun 125, belah kiri turun 50..perghh..byk gak..maybe sbb specs lama tu salah power kot. no wonder la asyik sakit mata je kalau pakai specs tu (tp sakit mata hanya terjadi pada hari bekerja...hari2 cuti x sakit pun mata..motif? )

papepun saye dah 2 tahun pakai spec yg senget ni..kiranya sepanjang2 tu, vision mata saye telah improved..apakah rahsianya?

tentulah susu Hi-Goat!!

• Kaya dengan protein, enzim, mineral & vitamin yang penting untuk kesihatan
• Menolong mencegah kanser, merawat gastrik, ulser perut, demam kuning, asma, sukar tidur, penyakit kulit, hepatitis A, migrain, masalah buah pinggang, lemah tenaga batin, awet muda dll.
• Menguatkan sistem imunisasi paru-paru, juga bersifat anti-arthritis(inflamasi sendi)
•Menyeimbangkan kandungan gula dan darah
•Meningkatkan daya ingatan, kepekaan & penumpuan diri
( Pertama di pasaran Didatangkan dalam bentuk serbuk, tiada bau, tiada bahan awet dan enak rasanya.)

hahaha..ayat amik dr sini: Hi-Goat Susu Kambing Istimewa

saje je promote. sape nak bole je order kt saya. suami saye yg jual n minum. saye pernah cuba minum tp saye mmg x bole minum susu kaler putih so no-no for me..

berbalik kepada topic. power lense saye turun sbb ape pun saye taktau..saye mkn cam biasa je..maybe now more green leaves sbb saye mmg suke sayur..mungkin juga saya dah jarang buat ialah mengadap laptop n membaca buku. lama giler tak bace novel. .ader 4 novel saye beli x abis2 baca..isk isk..

kesimpulannya, it is possible for our rabunness utk berkurangan~

no supplementary vitamins needed, just eat vege..lots of them!

Cliche

2010-09-18T23:44:00.002+08:00

The term is frequently used in modern culture for an action or idea which is expected or predictable, based on a prior event.

hari ni hari sabtu. selain ke hospital, klinik dan kedai spek, kami x kemana-mana..nakgi beraya tp ader elemen2 malas nak kluar umah ari ni...

so disebabkan xder aktiviti luaran, kami pon layanla drama2 kt tv. ptg td ader cita Gia. best gak layan. comey je Memey tu jadik cam budak lurus bendul. saye takde masalah dgn Memey. asal dia x kaco saya sudah. kalau dia kaco saye pun jadik psiko cam Abby. gegege.

back to citer Gia. As predicted early during the show, Gia tu akan mati. hehehe..hubby x berjaya my prediction. sekali towards the end lagik seminit nak abios citer, Gia tu pun mati2. terer ramlan saye.

mlm ni plak tgh layan cite Airmata Nur Salina. Sperti di predict sejak dr awal lagi, Salina tu mesti akan 'di-jual' oleh suaminyer..and i was right!! wahhh...! 2nd time hitting the jackpot!

ceh. sbrnye citer melayu mmg predictable. bosan je. tp best gak layan sambil kutuk2. kalau scene sedey je mesti nak kena hujan..hujan lebat2 lak tu..poyo la hokey.

apepun selepas melayan 2 citer harini ape yg dapat disimpulakn ialah.. bodohlaaa citer Airmata Nur Salina tu..bencii tgk semua watak. citer Gia tu best gakla..ader elemen2 klakar..saye mmg menyampah tgk citer nangis2 24 jam ni..dahla dgn anak2 dia sekali nangis2..eh cop, nama pun citer 'Airmata Nur Salina..'

dahla bosanlah. pasni malas layan drama dah..tgk Rules of Engagement lg bagus.

strictly no belacan

2010-09-17T13:45:00.002+08:00

tetiba terasa nak mkn asam pedas.

google jap, then jumpe resipi asam pedas melaka tanpa belacan! wahh..kena try..

maka setengah jam kemudian terbentuk lah asam pedas yg besh!! rasa nye seperti asam pedas yg kat kedai depan rumah except without the belacan flavour lah.

belacan adelah dilarang di dalam masakan rumah saya kerana suami saye alergic dgn keluarga udang. (tp belacan ader je dlm peti utk saye jadikan sambal belacan + mangga..juz for me :) )

lain2 menu di tghari jumaat ni adalah kacang buncis goreng (sodap wa cakap lu), ikan goreng, dan juga tenggiri masin~ wahhh ~~ best2

simple je tp lagi best kot dr Al-Marjan, Sundanese dan segala mak datok restoran kt lvl 4 suria klcc tu..

hehe..perasan je lebey ni..papepun utk mengetahui reipi asam pedas bole lah ke link ini :- Asam Pedas Recipe Melaka Style

heaven giler takyah pegi ofis...~~~~~~~~~~~~yahuuuuuuuuuuuuu..2 days left before a new nightmare begins..hishh

shichida...worth sharing

2010-09-07T00:07:00.003+08:00

was browsing thru the web and found this..(source:here)

ayat2 sejibik sejibun copy paste tak tukar skit pun..

Otak Kanan - Teknik Jepun Shichida Methods
(Ayat tidak diubah, dari ayat asal penulis)

InsyaAllah, berkesan.

Beberapa minggu lepas boss aku ada cakap kat aku yg dia hantar anak dia 2 tahun pergi Sichida kelas…yakni kelas yg di uruskan oleh Jepun melatih anak-anak befikir menggunakan otak sebelah kanan.

Otak sebelah kanan ni lebih efektif sebenarmya dari otak sebelah kiri tetapi kena practice sikitlah penggunaannya.

Kelas ni mahal, kalau kelas tadika juanna yg aku nak masukkan tahun depan tu cost nye lebih tinggi dari cost kite satu semester kat ITM, tapi boss aku ni atas kesedaran bahawa ramai sgt cine yang pergi kelas tu utk ajar anak2 depa dan Melayu cuma setengah kerat aje…dia pun bersetuju ngan niat ikhlasnye untuk ajar aku dan staff melayu yg lain.

Aku pun nak korang practisekan bende ni kat anak korang, sebab baru seminggu aku buat kat anak aku…dah nampak keberkesanannya.

· Sewaktu anak nak tidur atau tidur-tidur ayam, cakap kat die sepenuh hati dan sejujurnya yang kita sayang kat dia, dia budak baik, dia anak soleh, dia budak kuat, tak sakit, dia budak pandai dsb. Sbb during tidur-tidur ayam ni otak kanan sedang bekerja, otak kiri dah tidur dah, tapi kena buat seikhlas hati…kalau tengah marah ....tak jadi. kalau anak korang tu dah tidur, ramas-ramas jari atau tangan dia, macam picitlah supaya dia kembali berada dalam tidur2 ayam punya situation. Aku buat kat anak aku sebab die bangun pagi lambat pas tu siap melalak-lalak lagi, aku cakap hari-hari kat dia, dia budak baik, dia suka pergi sekolah, dia budak sihat, dia nak bangun awal….sekarang 6.30 dah bukak mata termasuk sabtu n ahad.

· Start guna cards untuk ajar anak. Aku ajar ABC-Z guna card seminggu je, sekarang dah kenal semua huruf dah siap boleh eja perkataan pendek-pendek. . buat card banyak-banyak dan tunjuk kat dia orang cepat-cepat. .macam..a. .b..c..d. .e, insya Allah cepat die dapat sebab bila kita tunjuk kad laju-laju atau cepat-cepat otak kanan die bekerja keras untuk tangkap apa benda yang kite tunjuk tu…kita boleh buat card 1,2,3, gambar-gambar. ..potonglah gambar kat mana-mana dsb.

· Gerak kerja tangan adalah hasil dari otak kanan, so ajar anak korang main tanah liat, main water colour, melukis, gunting kertas, origami dsb. memang le kite yang kene mengemas tapi takpe……. satu lagi cuba korang lukis gambar, contohnye rama2, tapi sebelah sahaja dan suruh die orang sambung lukis ikut apa yg korang lukis tu kat sebelah lagi…ini pun dapat mengaktifkan penggunaan otak kanan….Korang tau kenapa cine, ngan jepun pandai-pandai. …sebab depa makan guna chopstik…chopstik tu mengaktifkan kerja tangan and as well gerakkan otak kanan.

· Jgn marah-marah atau tengking anak…….. sebab depa boleh simpan semuanya dalam otak kiri…….kalau termarah depa, pi balik kat cara no 1 tadi, and mintak maaf kat die…..

· Satu lagi develop they all punya imagination by start bercerita kat die orang dan suruh depa sambung cerite tu, walaupun cerita tu memang lah merapu takpa……. ...kita pun bukan tak biasa merapu……

· Main teka-teki ngan they all, taruk satu barang dalam kotak tissue and suruh depa teka apa benda tu. First few times boleh bagi option macam….bagi tau colour, bunyi, lama-lama depa boleh develop six sence by concentrating depa boleh teka apa benda dlm kotak tissue tu……..ni semua utk aktifkan otak sebelah kanan. Tapi ingat…..semua game yg hangpa nak buat ngan dia tu cuma boleh buat setengah jam sehari..tak payah lama-lama.

Sebelum buat exercise ni, kena tarik nafas dalam-dalam and relaks…tak boleh buat time tengah nak masak ka, basuh kain ka tengok tv ka, tak jadi….Buat kena ikhlas, and merendah diri sikitlah bila dah terror ini semua satu cara yng Tuhan lagi Maha Mengetahui kalau Dia izin anak kite nak pandai Alhamdulillah tapi kita kena berusaha, dan bersyukur kalau dah berhasil sebab bila2 Dia boleh tarik balik..betui dak……Aku pun tengah try lagi ni…

Lagi satu untuk berkongsi sesama pembaca….

Kaunselor UTM, Dr, Syed Mohd. Shafek pun ada cakap benda yang sama dan dia ada ckp ttg perkataan jangan kat anak-anak. kalau kita banyak sangat guna perkataan jangan kat anak-anak… ..itu lah yang anak akan buat…..so lepas nie kena ganti perkataan jangan tu kepada perkataan lain plak…contohnya. …Tolong senyap Abang,,,berbanding Jangan bising bang.. Dlm Islam sendiripun menggalakkan kita ibubapa bercakap2/berdoa dgn anak2 ketika mrk dlm proses nak tidur sbb pada ketika itulah di antara waktu2 doa dimakbulkan.

InsyaAllah~

Pesanan Prof Schazzy, "Mari beramal~~~ :)"

yaya & pipish

2010-09-03T14:02:00.001+08:00

I need to jot down this moment before I forgot.

Alya’s series of cough

..returns! wah..terpaksa melalui hari2 getir itu lagi, with the nebu and puff and all. Pity her tiny body. Everytime minum susu she will muntah everything out again bila dia cough. But compared to the first cycle that she had sampai hospitalized kt ampang pu3 haritu, this round is less severe. Mungkin her lungs are a bit more matured now and she knows how to breathe and let out her phlegm (tru muntah that is!). it started with a little cough, then fever, then she was ok after nebu & antibiotic..pastu hafiz started coughing and had fever..and alya started coughing balik, but this time no fever..hafiz baik demam pas mkn antibiotic, Alya pun recovered from her cough..phew!! talk about package 2-in-1. Apart from the series of muntah from both kids, they slept quite well during that unwell period. Except masa hafiz demam..ayoyo..nanes je dia sbb badan panas..

But today, Alhamdulillah..dua2 dah ok..hafiz ceme2 skit..experience of having bermcm2 penyakit oleh 2 org budak comel ni makes me less panicky bile berhadapan dgn situasi2 getir..kalau dulu bila hafiz panas je, terus angkut gi ER..hehehe…mmg x bley blah nyer panic..skang cool skit la..walaupun risau terlebey tu ader jugak..mesti ada maa..nama puun mama..manalah tahan tgk anak sakit..

Alya’s standing up & Hafiz luvs Mr Bean

It’s the skill that she had mastered for a month now..yet to take that 1st step..hehee..pasni dah bole jln, gembira la puteri sorang ni..skang pun bukan main lagi lasaknye..hehehe..pengrauh abang..dah masuk phase berebut mainan..nak abg punyer je..yg abg pulak nak yg adik punyer je..mainan lain yg byk tak heran, nak yg each other tgh pegang je..Alya dah start layan Hi-5, tp abang dia dah matang skang tgk citer Mr Bean (not the animated one, yg real tu)..hahaha..siap gelak2 lagi..pandai lak dia tgk cite lawak..Mr Bean mmg feveret show dia, and lucky it screens during bukaka puasa time..so less havoc di meja makan sbb hafiz tgh concentrate layan Bean dia..

Hafiz and his vocab development

Hehe..ok, he knows more words now..i rasa balance kot english n malay..nak ckp omputih all the time tu payoh la kot dah mak bapaknye pun bukanlah mat saleh kan. Anyway, I like the way hafiz put emotions into his words. Like the other day when he was watching me doing work on my lappy, he kept asking selang 5 minit..”Mama, da abish…??”..mama jawab belum..then dia baringkan kepala atas meja (mcm gambar in my previous post)..pastu bila dah siap..dia dgn gembiranya..”yeay, abi da, abi da~~” hehehe..bile main lari2 atau lawan2, when I pretedn to die..dia akan ckp..”Yea menang! Menang!”, if he pretends to die..”afis ati daaa..” (Hafiz mati dah..)heheheh..

Cake = eti tutu yu (happy birthday to you)
Funny = klakar (kelakar)
Vacuum = ki-yum
Shi-shi (pee) = Chi-chi
Mandi = andi
Toy Story = Woody
Backyardigans = genn
Mr Bean = Bean
Upin Ipin = Pin-pin
Bukan lah = kan lah! (dgn nada marah)
Hafiz punyer = afis nyer
Sup = tup
Sleep = lip

And many2 more..hahaha..tak larat la plak nak tulis semua…

Oh that’s all update for now. Mcm dah berjela la plak entry ni..ade ke org baca? Hehe..xperlah, for my own record..nanti manelah tau budak 2 org ni rajin nak bace blog Mama drg bila besar nanti..hihihi

Latest Pic

2010-08-20T06:17:00.002+08:00

no closer bond of friendship is to be found than the love shared between siblings

2010-08-06T10:26:00.002+08:00

finally!! i have time to update this blog.

byk benda nak cerita.. lets start with my kiddos.

Alya sekarang dah attempt to stand up! tgh2 syok2 dia crawling dia bole tetibe bgn nak berdiri..bahaya betul~~ takut tersungkur je..but her development is surprisingly fast. maybe I'm comparing to Hafiz kot. I predict Alya akan walk before she even reaches 1 YO.

Oh, Alya sgt2 chomel. Very! She has this angelic face that would melt millions of hearts. No, I'm not exaggerating..hehehe..well, who in the world wudnt think her little girl is the most beautiful princesss on earth kan? I always imagine Alya growing up to be mcm heroin sands of Time, princess from Alamut tu, apetah nama dia..with her gorgeuos robe. wah! mesti cuns gile!!

berangan lak..ok back to reality~~

Alya skang dah main sembur2 air liur..sukee..and she suke ajuk ckp org..mmg terer bab ni..she's an eater, much to my relief. so kalau buat makanan for her, confirm habisla dia mkn..she loves eating..mesti nak mengunyah je..kalau bukan mealtime, kena bg biskut so she can chew. maybe her gum tgh gatal kot.

Alya has 3 types of milk now. My BM, Isomil and Enfapro. Kat school dia minum Enfapro, kat rumah either my BM or Isomil. tataula kenape kat ruamh dia xmo minum Enfapro. My fren said cow-based milk good for growth. so that's why testing Enfapro tu..kalau Alya dah reached 1YO nanti bolelah minum Pediasure.Alya is still in her petite frame. dah lama x check weight dia. which reminds me, this week nak bawak dia cucuk pneumococcal lah. asyik bertangguh je.

Owh, Alya dah pandai marah skarang..sukelah berebut toys dgn abang dia. dia suke toys abg dia, toys dia , dia x layan pun. yg abang dia pulak, selama ni x amik pot pun pasal mainan dia, tetibe bila baby main, sibuk plak dia nak main..hehehe..but this 2 are very affectionate of each other. suke tgk drg together2! nampak siblings bonding tu..eceh.

On Hafiz pulak, dah byk ckp!! tp still kurang mengerti perkataan2 dia. dia dah bole combine words yg different sukukata..cuma belum bole ckp proper sentences. xper, slowly but surely...

dia dah pandai control amount of TV he's watching. maybe sbb sakng dah jarang bukak TV. kitorg bukak when all the kids are already sleeping. kekadang bukak jugak kalau nak buat benda lain n nak bg hafiz duk diam2..(cth: masak, solat, mandi). tp yg bestnyer, dah bole negotiate la dgn hafiz.."hafiz, pasni Mama nak tgk ek, bole ek.."..selalunye dia akan bagi kalau cerita tu cerita Hantu atau cerita Lawan-lawan. ganaz budak ni..tp feveret show dia (selain kartun) is..jeng..jeng..jeng..MR BEAN!! hahaha..siap gelak2 plak tu!! lawak2..~~
pastu Hafiz suke nyanyi. layankan jelah lagu2 dia..and his faveret dance move - still Lady Gaga's Bad Romance..hehehe

On a more religious note, hafiz kekadang rajin gak ikut solat..tp dia solat aderlah beberape saat je. pastu bila ty "hafiz dah solat belum..", dia jawab, "DAH!!"..tp yg bagus nye kalau dia belum solat, dia akan jawab .."BLUM....~~" (dgn nada x bersalah) hehehe..maksudnye adelah konsep 'honesty is the best policy' kat situ..kekeke

hafiz sgt2 attached to his Achik..nak achik!! jom, jom, Achik!!..semua achiklah..rasanay kalau sehari x jumpe Auntie dia tu, mmg rindu gilelah..hehehe..Achik dia rajin layan dia main..and beli 'let' (cokelat). hehepasal potty train plak..we're notdoing it extensively..skang ni after skul, hafiz x pakai diaper (dia akan pakai spender Batman dia) until when he's about to go to sleep at night. so far aderlah a few accidents..x sampai 5 kali lagi..hehehe..sbb selalunye kalau dia nak shi2 dia akan ckp, tp dia ckp tu mcm dah agak lambat..bila dah kluar sgt2 dah baru dia bagitau..so x sempat nak cabut seluar dah bocor..hehehe..but, he loves spender Batman dia sgt2 (note: nak beli spender hafiz lagi hari ni).

isk..sakit perut plak..nk gi toi-toi.
ok sambung lg di satu hari yg mulia nanti..ciao~!

Schazzy the Octopus

2010-07-13T17:47:00.002+08:00

Ok, where do I start?

Alhamdulillah, Spain won the World Cup.

There cudnt be any other more deserving team to claim the title of World Champions. After the fall-out of Argentina, the only matches that I watched were those with Spain in it. And the Uruguay-Germany match. Diego Forlan of Uruguay was superb. So was Inieasta of Spain. Torres should have stayed on the bench, he looked seriously weak. His movement was slow and I could see him struggling to run. Well, he did contribute to the goal in which Inieasta scored. Torres-Fabregas-Inieasta..

I think the way Holland played in the finals was ‘weird’. They played dirty in hopes to drain the Spain’s squad, but it cost them a red card, which caused them a man down which ultimately left the Spain more space to move about. The Holland coach stood by his stand of “we are not going to play beautiful football because we can beat them playing ugly”..well, guess what? It doesn’t hurt to be nice. And nice can make u world champs too! Congrats to Spain for also winning the FIFA fair play award.

Most ppl thinks that when a girl like me watches football, it is because I drool over the players (ok, bunyi mcm muda remaja pulak guna ‘girl’) …

Fact 1: I only know a few players. Those yg really outstanding. Handsome or not is not the case. For example Forlan. X hensem kan? But I like him. Maradona..hensem ke? Seriously..? I AM NOT like the girls yg actually drool over guys like Kaka for example, siap ckp Kaka muka cam Tom Cruise (who in my book is not handsome at all) and those yg x habis2 dgn Beckham-Handsome although Beckham duduk kt bench tu je. I like players who play well. Messi, Tevez, Mueller, Casillas, to name a few. Sometimes they happen to be handsome. So bonus la kan?

Fact 2: I am a Liverpool and Argentina fan, but I don’t memorize the names of all the players. So ppl wud always give me this weird look, “kata fan, tp tak kenal players”.. Again, I wud like to stress. I do not watch football because of the players. I watch football for the game. I’m a Liverpool fan by default (cause I was born in Liverpool..hahaha…taklah, because Liverpool was the team that makes me fall in love with football), and I’m an Argentine fan becos..becos..hurm I like the way they played during their first game. Not so much becos of Maradona. Well, I do think he’s an inspiring coach. J

Y am I talking abt football?
I guess I’m already missing the World Cup. ;) Tears .::

tak sabar nak gi Marks & Spencer

2010-07-06T15:55:00.000+08:00

1 minute to 5 pm. masa utk cabuttttttttttttttttttt

fabrics crazy!

2010-07-06T08:50:00.004+08:00

i just ordered some stacks of fabrics!

sukeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :)))))))))))))))))))))

chicken pox

2010-07-05T13:52:00.002+08:00

why is it called chicken pox?

Hafiz kena chicken pox. Noticed he got 2 red dots on his chest when dia balik dr school on Thursday. and that night while sleeping, he menggelisah sambil berkata, "gatai..gatai..mama..mama..gatai..mama..gatai..". hehehe..shian Hafiz..i assumed it was chicken pox sbb nampak tmpt lain mula tumbuh red dots..

hari jumaat tu i was supposed to go to my company's teambuilding session dekat tiara beach resort, PD. kena naik bus pukul 2.30 ptg..pagi tu masa hantar hafiz pegi skool rasa tak sedap hati, knowing dat mlm nanti i xder nak tgk2 dia..lepas hanatr hafiz, then hantar alya, i patah balik skool hafiz..amik hafiz bwk pegi klinik..docotr confirmed it's chicken pox. docotr bg ubat, tp ader satu ubat yg mmg mujarab utk lessen the severity of chicken pox. nama dia Vodirax...tp ubat tu dah habis stok kt klinik. docotr prescribe suh amik kt Ampang Puteri...kitorg gi farmasi lain (konon2 nak cepat) tp semua xder jual..so pegilah jugak ke Ampang puteri..dptla ubatnye yg bercost RM107.50..huhu..kena bayau la sbb klinik tadi x pakai ING. Paeditrician klinik mmg tak pakai ING la i noticed..tp xperlah, bole kot claim.

dah amik ubat, doctor dah pesan siap2, Zovirax tu kena makan secepat mungkin utk kesan optimum. meaning kalau dah 3 hari kena chicken pox baru nak mkn, xder kesan lah. well, betulla docotr tu ckp..by semalam chicken pox hafiz dah kecut n kering.alhamdulillah. selain Zovirax, hafiz mkn ubat tahan gatai. docotr ader bg juagk ubat demam juz in case. tp hafiz x demam. as active as ever. oh, untuk tahan gatai lagi..docotr bg calamine lotion. sapulah di segenap pelusuk tubuh hafiz yg chumil itu. (tmtpt yg ader dots je)..alhamdullialh dots hafiz pun x byk kluar...kalau byk mau haru gak dia garu2..selain tu kitorg pun letak daun mambu alas utk hafiz baring. ini amalan org india..katanya bole menyerap bakteria2 chicken pox tu..wallahualam.

tp byk2 amalan, i x baut yg minum air kelapa tu..dulu kecik2 org tua suke suruh minum air kelapa kan kalau ader chicken pox. tp i x buat sbb contradicts dgn Vodirax tu..so karang haywire lak system dlm badan. sape nak amalkan, sila lah amalkan..nobody is stopping u..tp saye cuma amalkan what i believe is right..and using my maternal instinct. a mother knows best whats good for her child. ceh, apesal tah tiba2 nak sayu..hihihihi

alya telah dikuarantin dr hafiz..hafiz tido kt bilik mama atau kt luar ... alya tido kt guest room
hopefully alya x kena..and ada antibodi yg kuat. for info, hafiz dah kean vaccine tp antibodi dia lemah so dia kena jugak serangan pox ayam tu..

dan saya telah tidak pegi teambuilding kerana anak saye lebih penting dr segala2nya. hafiz memerlukan mama dia lebih dr saya perlu utk pegi bersuka ria..hehe

ok, nilah budak chumil yg kena chicken pox.
(xbley plak nak upload)

Info:Acyclovir (Zovirax) is an anti-viral drug that may be used to treat chicken pox. In uncomplicated cases acyclovir taken 5 times a day has been shown to cause shorter periods of new lesion formation, fewer lesions, and more rapid healing but only if started within 24 to 48 hours of the onset of the rash. Acyclovir has not been shown to decrease the rate of complications in otherwise healthy children who get chicken pox. Oral acyclovir is more strongly recommended for children with underlying skin disease such as eczema, newborns, adults, and smokers since this group is at greater risk for complications. IV acyclovir is used for people with compromised immune systems.

Source: http://dermatology.about.com/cs/chickenpox/a/chickentreat.htm

Thank God it's Friday

2010-07-02T17:45:00.001+08:00

we're women.
we don't say what we want, but we reserve the right to be pissed off if we don't get it.

-sliding doors

Confession of a Non-Shopaholic

2010-06-30T16:24:00.002+08:00

I’m an impulsive shopper.

Definition: a spur-of-the-moment shopper

I may sound like a pleasure to the sellers. Who woudnt want someone who juz pick n buy without being cerewet right?

The most important tip to get me to buy your stuff:

Don’t let me have second thoughts.

When I like something, I will set my mind on getting it. Selagi x dpt, mmg x puas hati. And I wud want it as immediately as possible. For example, when I laid my eyes on this one Combi stroller at Modernmom (and it costs RM700++) I fell in love with it in that instance. I tried hunting for other strollers but nothing made me feel like the way the Combi made me feel. Hehee..padahal survey dlm KLCC je..tp rasa x sedap hati nak balik without that stroller. So RM700 telah melayang on that fateful day. Lepas2 tu byk je jumpe stroller yg lagik cun dan menawan kalbu and cheaper..hehehe

To relate back to point above ..i jenis tak suka org kacau time I’ve decided on what to buy. I dotn like others opinion unless if I ask for it. Contohnye td body shop buat sale. I wanted to but their cleansing gel which was RM20. they offered their bath gel as well, 2 for RM 25 but the scent doesn’t appeal to me. So I xnak la kan. I juz want the cleansing gel. Was abt to pay, pastu somehow camne tah, drg x bagi I amik botol yg dah ader kt situ, suruh tunggu botol baru..ok, fine..i waited for like 2 minutes that I got impatient..so I ask again, pastu cashier tu suruh amik je botol kt situ..i took it then dia started asking me whether I want the bath gel..i ckp xnak (like I’ve already told the salesgirl)..tp dia insist jugak..promotion la, tawaran istimewa la..i ckp I juz want the bathgel. (bape kali tah mau repeat myself) and she kept on saying, I must buy la that bathgel, 2hrs promo ni, lalalala..last2 I ckp dgn sopan santun with a disgust look on my face (tataula dia perasan ke tak)..”ok, kejap ye..saye pegi tgk ape yg ada..”..pastu I terus blah balik ofis..without the cleansing gel or that stupid bath gel.

Seriously, y paksa org beli brg yg org taknak? Bg RM1 pun kalau org taknak, taknak la kan…eeeeeeee…

That is y I’m not good in online purchase. Cos it allows me to browse through other selections..and bila dah rambang mata tu selalunye it will kill my mood to purchase anything. Samelah kaalu shopping dgn mr. hubby..dia suke survey2 dulu 2-3 kedai which I find membuang masa..hehehe..time is of the essence here, ladies n gentlemen..so usually kalau shop dgn en hubby = not shopping for anything cos I malas nk klaur masuk byk kedai.

The risk of being an impulsive shopper? I may end up not using that item or I may purchase something of a very dear price.

The benefit of an impulsive shopper: I buy something that I dah set to buy. Very specific. So u can give me just an hour or less for shopping. I wud come out of the shop either with that stuff or without it. Oh, I may also purchase other stuffs (impulsive shopper, remember?) tp I wont take long to decide on it. I wont spend hours and hours on shopping.That is y hubby loves me.

That is y we are married for 4 yrs now.

Hehehe.

Happy Anniversary Bebeh! I luv u more everyday

Saat Indah Bermula...Terasa Bahagia...Cinta Yang Lama Terhenti,
Berputik Kembali...Ada Yang Menghampiri,Ku Tidak Peduli...Cinta Ini
Cinta Gila,Untuk Kita Berdua...WooTiada Yang Dapat Menghalangnya, Kita Berdua
Terus Bercinta,Selamanya...I Cant Live..I Cant Living Without You Oh BabyJust
Only You That My Love..With Love...Hanya Kau Ku Miliki,Yang Tiada Ganti...Bukan
Mimpi Sudah Pasti,Jiwaku Berseri...Ada Yang Menghampiri,Ku Tidak Peduli...Cinta
Ini Cinta Gila,Untuk Kita Berdua....

parenthood...

2010-06-29T20:30:00.008+08:00

..will be showing tonite! yeay!

don’t ask me y I kept on changing my blog template. Jz bear with me, yea? Hehe.

Last weekend was da bomb! Actually before the weekend arrived pun dah best..only ader sedikit spoiler on that Friday ing. But everything’s fine now.

On Thursday tu I took an annual leave sbb nak pegi celebrate anniversary with beloved hubby. Advance celebration cos nanti on 30^th hubby xder..Heheh..struggle sampai amik annual leave tu~ hehe..well, we cudnt leave our kids to anyone during the weekends so, terpaksa la amik cutikalau nak kluar dating.

Pagi tu makan nasik lemak kt gerai Kg Pandan. Eh, Papa mkn nasik lemak, saye n adik makan lontong. Tak best pun org tu buat.huhu. bolelar utk isi [perut sampai tengahari.

Our aim dat day was to watch Prince of Persia. So pagi2 tu after hantar my sis to KLCC, kitorg terus gi Times Square. Bijak btul x check dulu screening time. Turned out the wayang starts at 1.30pm..lagik 3 jam woo nak tunggu. Mase tu baru kul 10.30 ..asked my sister to check out other cinemas screening time on the internet. Tau tak, kelakar je…,timing paling awal ialah di MBO Cineplex @ UO Taman Dagang. Ia adalah complex yg terletak sejengkal je dr rumah kitorg. I wasn’t in the mood to shop for anything, so kitorg pun bergegas ke MBO. Remember, tujuan utama dating hari itu ialah utk menonton Prince of Persia. No romantic2 jln2 at the park or shopping2 or lunchie2 sambil berbicara masa depan. ..juz to watch muvi at the comfort of each other..chewah~

Well, it was sooooooooooooooooo worth it!!! Sgt best ok cerita tu……!!!! Walaupun unlike Troy yg telah berjaya membuat saye menangis (during the scene when the father tuntut mayat anak dia from Archilles tu), I think Prince of Persia Berjaya merampas takhta sebagai muvi paling best pernah I tgk. Troy terpkasa duduk no. 2..LOTR comes close but itu trilogy so tak kira la di sini…

Papa of Persia

Lepas tgk wayang, kitorg gi main panah..maklumlah, terpengaruh dgn babak2 perang dlm muvi tadi tu…kehkehkeh..oh yea..Papa cam biasalah tunjuk skill. Dulu dia pernah wakil Kuala Lumpur main panah ni..cuba teka dpt no. berape?? Hehee

Legolas Ampang

Princess Schazzy

Prin

Pas dah main tu lapar la pulak, walaupun dah habis sebakul popcorn mase tgk muvi tu.. kitorg gi mkn kt Wong Solo sbb Papa mengidam..Papa ty hadiah anniversary nak ape? Saye jawab , “girdle yg dekat Marks & Spencer tu..kalau x dpt yg tu, Premium Beautiful pun ok gak..” Papa kata pakai Cosway punye je tak boleh ke..saye kate, xmoh..nak Marks & Spencer jugak.

Tp x dapat pun!..hahhhahaha..saye tak berharap..at the end of the day, saya rasa saya xmoh ape2.. Papa ader pun dah cukup. Saye tak perlu benda2 materialistik dan spastic utk mebuat saye bahagia..I’m happy just being with him.

Tp kalau dpt girdle tu pun cuns jugak sbb saye ader serius case of buncit skang ni..

Big

Brother

Little Sister

Anyway, ptg sabtu bawak budak2 pegi klcc park dgn my ayah n mak and sister and maid…hafiz aderlah budak paling gembira ptg tu..samapai xmo balik! huhu

we make our on destiny

2010-06-26T07:56:00.000+08:00

...Prince of Persia...

Cry

2010-06-25T17:57:00.005+08:00

in places no one will find..
all the feelings so deep inside...

rasa nak nangis.i think the last time i really cried was when my father was in ICU. i cried so hard that i have no energy left in my body to do anything else. i wasnt crying because my father was sick. i cried becos of how ppl reacted to something that happened outside the ICU. i cried becos of the insensitivity of others towards what happened to my family. it was emotionally draining. i was exhausted thinking abt what others felt and said. it was then that i made a decision not to cry anymore. and i didnt and never did since then. not an ounce of tears. it was March. Now is June. Almost going to July. Lots of things happened. Makes me wanna cry at times. But i managed to control my emotions. Until now. i feel like crying. but i cant. cos i'm still in my office. i dont want anyone to catch me sobbing. I have a very good reason to cry. a very good reason. but i'm afraid i'll feel exhausted again...and angry. the last thing i need right now is any sorts of negative feeling. i want to be happy. i'm not asking for money or attention or appreciation or recognition from anyone. just let me be happy. let me live my life.

can i at least have that?

i hope it is juz a phase..

2010-06-23T01:19:00.004+08:00

sekarang kt rumah kitorg sedang lancarkan kempen 'no TV (+laptop)'. reasonnye is becos hafiz sgt addicted to Hi-5 and Upin & Ipin.

so today is Day #2.

masa 1st day semalam mmg berjaya tak bukak TV from ptg sampai hafiz tido. we kept him busy dgn menyuruh dia memasak olok2. habis bijik2 barley , nestum and timun bertaburan. tapi xper, janji dia tak tgk TV. and alhamdulillah, dia x throw tantrum.

just now, we asked him to paint. trying to keep him occupied supaya dia lupe pasal TV. it worked for abt 1 1/2 hrs tp pastu dia dah start throwing things and menangis2 nak tgk Pin. sib baik Nyai & Yai dtg..so hafiz 'terlupa' balik sbb sibuk show-off toys dia kt his grandparents.

y nak boycot tv/laptop?

hafiz will be glued to the tv or laptop selagi dia x ngantuk. kalau ngantuk pun dia paksa gak mata dia bukak. we are afraid he would strain his eyes too much. dahla kitorg ni species specky. i dont want him to end up wearing thick glassess like me!
hafiz akan mengigau esp if he watches upin & ipin. dia ngigau jerit "Opek, opek..!!" - binatang yg dlm citer Geng tu.
while i think watching hi-5 is good for his vocab and everything, i dont want him to be dancing all night to the songs. overstimulation at nite time is a big no-no.
i want him to concentrate doing other skill-building things..mcm painting tu..mengaji ke..kalau dia girl mesti i dah ajar dia main masukkan beads buat rantai (cant wait for alya to grow up!!)
kalau bukak tv confirm hafiz je conquer. and there goes my world cup matches. wonder how i watch my games? laptop duduk sebelah tv. laptop=upin & ipin. tv=worldcup.

ok, dah 2 hari berjaya program ni...mainly sbb Papa berkeras xmo bg..dia asyik ckp.."kalau 'take home nanny' ni mesti dia x bg jugak, dia suh biar je nangis..".. dulu2 lagi kronik..tiba2 kul 3-4 pagi bgn tido nangis2 nak tgk Hi-5. huhu..

well, i hope it is juz a phase. after some time i hope hafiz x addicted dah.

.:little crawler:.

2010-06-21T14:00:00.002+08:00

Hi peeps! I'm crawling now~~!! ;)

6.12 pm

2010-06-17T18:12:00.002+08:00

6.12pm and still in the office. should go home by now. tp kena naik bus so sgt malas. hubby suruh jugak naik bus becos confirm jam jalan kalau nak pick-up time2 skang ni. uhuk.

alamak, x solat asar lagi.

tulis blog sbb nak send my kissess to Messi.

Muaahh! Muaah! Messi...play well tonite yea..

abt an hour more before argentina vs s. korea..better pack my stuff now~~~~~~~~~~~~

motherly me .. hihi

2010-06-15T17:57:00.006+08:00

i prepare alya's meal everyday (for school).i'll share my recipes later.(ni ala2 wardina la ni..hehehe)

i've started cloth diapering alya and potty-training hafiz. ok, i'm sooooo into saving mother earth now..

i'm wearing alya a lot. i have 4 different type of carriers. 1 ringsling type, 1 normal carrier, 1 kimono-style and 1 mei-tai. i like the meitai the most. purchased it from snuggbaby. ;) alya's stroller for sale, ada sape2 nak??

i co-sleep with my kids. (i wish our room were this big so dat we cud fit in another katil. hafiz now conquers our bed so papa has to sleep in another room)

world cup fever...i'm luvin' it :)

2010-06-11T23:30:00.003+08:00

another 20 minutes remain for the opening match.

huwarghh..boring..and bising..seriously the trumpets sound is distracting.

south africa scored. felt nothing. boring.

cepatlah mlm esok!!

i'm rooting for argentina.

tho i do hope spain and england advance further in the game. my torres and gerrard.

and i need one more team, the underdogs..who is it going to be?

happy 7 months old, Amani!

2010-06-09T18:09:00.002+08:00

Alya Amani.

You are the cutest ever baby.

I love you, oh so dearly.

Happy 7 months old, you little miss sassy!

my maid

2010-06-07T07:55:00.002+08:00

i have to let this off my chest.

notice that i havent mentioned anything abt my maid in my blog posts? obviously becos there's nothing interesting to tell the world abt. however, hari ni nk bercerita skit..hehe..ader maid x sah la kan kalau x 'bercerita'..

1. my maid came from Cambodia. dr biodata dia ialah 26 thn..tp dr segi physical and perangai mcm budak 12 tahun. bila ty dia..dia akan jawab a scripted answer 'I am 26 yrs old'. mungkin dia sendiri tak tau umur sebenar dia. wallahualam.

2. masa mula2 dtg, dia bgn awal..dah mop semua umah..dah jemur kain, dah lap2 semua by the time i bgn tido. Now dah lewat skit..kalau i bgn dia baru nk solat, atau sudah solat..so kerja lain sahlah x buat lg..maybe dia fikir becos she got the whole day to do those work at her own sweeeet time.

3. owh, since dia ni jenis x suruh, maka x buat, i prepared a timetable for her..on the things that she should do..if she follows the time table..her work should finish by 2pm..and she got the whole afternoon utk tido ke, bermalasan ke, berangan ke..but apparently dia x ikut jadual.dia x buat pun ape yg i suh..kalau buat pun, ikut suke hatilah bila dia rase nak buat..sama ade dia x paham jadual tu, atau dia mmg x paham jadual tu..hehee..

4. dia lack of HSE awareness. sebulan jugak la nak ajar, before touching my babies, basuh tgn dulu. dah buang sampah basuh tgn. toys yg jatuh, before bg alya, cuci dulu..baju asingkan seluar n top n baju babies, jgn basuh sekali..mula2 horror gile dia basuh baju kitorg campur dgn baju dia..like what the hell, ok?? dahla dgn peluh2 dia..and she mixes her seluar with my hubbby's t-shirt..like seriously?? manelah haku x mengamuk. pastu on safety plak..segala benda dia bg hafiz main..she let hafiz conteng marker on his body..biar hafiz conteng market on my carpet..my carpet ok!!! it's not so much becos of the carpet (carpet murah je pun), but the act that she allows such behavior tu mcm hampeh je.. kalau i x tegur, tah hape pulak dia biar hafiz buat..

5. i'm jealous that she got to spend time with my kids while i'm busy in the kitchen.

6. i'm jealous that she got to spend time with hubby (on his off day) during the day..and oso spent time with hubby and my kids at night watching TV while i do some chores (like cooking, packing my kids stuff for school, etc). I'm so jealousss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sometimes rase nak suh dia duduk dlm bilik je bole tak?..time i nak tgk tv pun dia ada skali..tp time hubby ader je..time hubby xder, dia tido awal pulak..haishh.

7. she does not cook. i dont care that she doesnt cook for us, but she ddint cook for herself either. so menjadi pekerjaan saye dan mak sayelah utk memasak for her. and that's why she got to spend more time with my kids and hubby cos i'm busy cooking for everybody including her! arghhh.jealous ok. and siang2, becos the kids arent around, she spends time in the kitchen with hubbby, watching hubby cook (for him and her..)..pastu she would try to cook the same thing like hubby did..only she does this when hubby is around..kalau hubby xder, dia x masak pun.motif?

8. she is childish...like really. dia suke main terjerit2 dgn hafiz..of kos la hafiz suke..tp bole tak..i xmo encourage benda2 mcm tu..not at night time..not when alya's sleeping..not when i need some peaceful moment with my family. i notice dia cam x suke sgt peagng alya..becos x bebas kot..like kena pegang sepanjang masa..as much as possible dia akan letak alya dlm walker ..tp kalau lama sgt either alya nangis, or i suh dia dukung jugak..manyak cantek..thats what she was paid for kan..

9. dia suke membazir detergent, byk tau dia gune. seminggu sebotol kena beli..air pun suke bazir..i thot coming from that part dia mestilah pandai jimat cermat skit..tp no..seminggu mesti kena beli new detergent for the floor+ toilet, new sabun for basuh baju..axion pun cepat giler habis..i know my household dah increased cos my parents are living with me, tp cam x logik ok cpt giler habis semua brg..dulu while i was staying with my mum pun xlar 'parok' sgt. and lg satu milo..hahaha..milo 3-in-1 tu cepat giler habis..rate turnover dia aderlah sepeket (20 pack) tu = 2 hari. adekah dia culpritnye? hahaha..suspect je..tp mungkinla sbb i pun byk minum milo..i suggest to mum suh my miad minum milo bancuh je..add in sugar n milk..tp mak ckp kang dia letak gula n milo n susus byk2 pulak..gula dahla sussh nak carik skang...giler tau peruncit ni semua sorok gula..my mum's cousin ckp pemborong ni seludup pegi thailand and indon cos kt sana lg mahal. ni mesti drg tgk presentation by datuk seri idris jala ni..papepun..poyo la kamu seludupers. kami mahu Gula..kami mahu gula..pulangkan gula kami!..my mum's cousin dah janji nk bg sekarung guni gula kat kitorg (he works at kilang gula)..hahaha..pasni i jual gula online pulak okey..

10. sidetrack plak point no.10 tu..oklah..sebenarnye punca saye menulis ni aderlah kerana saye jealous dgn maid saye. saye xmo dia rapat dgn anak saye. walaupun bagusla dia rapat, tp saye x mo jugak..saye yg jaga drg sampai drg chumil mcm skarang, senang2 je org lain nak amik..mane bole. xbole..jealous tau..saye pun jealous dia lepak2 dgn hubby saye..saye sendiri xder masa nak leapk tau..jealous tau..

11. saye mmg seorg yg jealous. tp org jealous aderlah org yg setia. jealous tandanya dia sayang kt sesuatu itu.

12. tp saye harap saye tak jadi psiko cam que haidar dlm Lagenda Budak Setan.

13. sbb tulah saye luahkan kt sini..bole je simpan dlm hati..no big deal pun benda ni..bukanlah maid saye tu jahat pun..dia baik je..saye je yg x puas hati x tentu pasal. i ahve high standards u know.

14. You know Kimora Lee Simmons? I'm like her..cerewet tak tentu pasal..but I'm worse la kot..cos dia cerewet tp dia kaya and ppl will bound to listen to her..me? cerewet tp x kaya..sape mau dgr ckp i?~~ huwaaa~~

15. oklah..utk menceriakan hati sendiri..~~~"i'll be dancing with myself"~~~~(i love the gLee version~ :) )

saye menaiki bas!! and i sewed my very first nursing cover!!!

2010-06-02T02:45:00.005+08:00

yeaayyy!! berjaya juge..! 2 tajuk yg x bersangkut paut tp tibai jelah..

dah lame planning nak naik bas..pergi dan balik kerja..akhirnye harini saye telah berjaya memecah rekod selama 1 tahun ++..last sekali naik bas pulang dr kerja ialah bersama2 ayah saye sbb konon2 nak adventure..sekali pastu saye telah pregnant dan ayah saye dgn tabahnye mendrive kami ke tempat keje to and fro everyday..i lap u ayah! :D

ok, tadi naik bas no. 79..dr depan Avenue K sampai ke ampang point. Rm 1.50.rasanya dulu cam RM 1 je..bas yg masuk dlm sampai depan gate security rumah pun ader..tak igt no. berapa tp saye rase dia akan ikut jln yg masuk2 ke dlm tmn lain ..konfem lmbt..bas td masyaAllah punye laju bawak, mcm nak bulldoze semua kereta kt jln tu..Avenue K to ampang point = x sampai 10 minit. amazing giler..rasanya kalau naik kereta dgn keadaan traffic camtu, confirm setengah jam jugak. td kluar ofis 5.15 ..sampai kt bas dlm 5.30 (lamanye berjalan..hehehe) and bas bertolak kul 5.40 camtu..dia tunggu org penuh br jln..before pukul 5.50 , saye dah terpacak depan ampang point...pastu shopping groceries skit..then cross the jejantas and waited for my sister...

cool jugak naik bas ni..esok nak naik lg lah..bole try utk hala pulang je dulu..hala pegi gue selalu lambat lar..hahaha..terpaksa jugak suh adik antar,..

nanti papa dah balik, bolelar kluar awal skit kot..kul 7.15 tunggu bas..

ni sebenarnye tgh mission jimatkan cost plus men-greenkan environment (sbb x drive kereta , mengurangkan pollutant). setelah dikaji selidik..kalau naik bas total cost (minus minyak kereta ke bas stand) = RM 3.00. kalau naik kereta RM 3,00 (tol akleh-mesti kena lalu akleh jugak sbb nak elak jam)..pastu parking kt convec on days yg ader early birds = RM9..kalau xder, rate same dgn klcc = min RM 25.50 per day,i did not get the season parking punye rate..tunggu hafiz dah masuk darjah 1 baru dpt agaknye. and katelah ader pun one month = RM 180 so sehari is RM 9 jugak (kalau ikut working days)..so minimum spent = RM 9 (kalau x lalu akleh), kalau masuk akleh (RM12), kalau x dpt convec parking (RM 28.50)..

so RM 3 vs RM 9 / RM 12/ RM28.50

tu belum campur petrol lagi (yg bakal dibuang subsidi tu)..

kalau papa keje kl pun, combined rate is still less (RM 3 x 2 = RM6)

and best plak tu naik bas..x stress (kecuali kalau duduk depan dkt driver..huwaa...tobat xmo duduk depan dah..takuttttt)

kesimpulannya, 1 Malaysia, 1 Bas.

tweet, i sew something just now.. i print the tutorial from thjs website.actually it was Che Ah who mentioned abt how easy it is actually to sew a nursing cover ..so i pun teruja nak try..so iniler hasilnyer!!! (che ah sila angkat tgn...terima kasih kerana memberi semangat utk saye~~ :))) )

for the bone apetah utk peek baby tu, i gune awning tudung yg dah x pakai...and D ring tu i ganti dgn key chain nyer ring sbb x jumpe plak D ring kt umah,.,haha..mmg gune brg2 recycle je except for the fabric. it was supposed to be a sarung bantal that i had planned to sew during myconfinement..tp project terbengkalai.. all in all the cost is RM 0 except for the fabric which i bought at a dear price jugak..hehehe..it's cotton ok..imported tau..kalau x silap for a meter it is Rm20 something..jumaat ni nakgi jln TAR ;ah..carik cotton yg murahan skit..i have a few ideas in my head now ..eeekk! tak sabar nak buat project baru..i think next one would be curtains sbb nampak mcm senang je~ hhehhee...

owh, jgn horror..i dont plan to sell my sewed items.. nak jahit utk kegunaan sendiri je..lgpun if u managed to look very very closely..my jahitan tu lintang pukang ok..x stret pun..senget benget,,so mmg la bukan selling material.

note: if u are unable to view the pictures, harap bertenang....i'll upload the pictures at my office tomoro..ini adalah kerana laptop saye x detect card reader ni..y meh?

11 perkara

2010-06-01T00:48:00.006+08:00

1. i want to do business but i dont know what to sell and i dont have any skills to do anything (handmade) and even if i do, i dont have time to sit down and do it.

2. i cant sleep for 2 nights already. kept searching the web for anything doable. i have this idea in my head, but would take some time before i could produce the material. see , i told you anything that requires skills + creativity also requires a lot of time.

3. y the sudden urge to start own business? i'll tell you why but you must promise not to tell my boss. or anyone at my workplace. promise?? hurm..it's becos i'm getting bored with what i do @ work. it's not becos i dont have any work to do..i do..not a lot, but i do have things to get settled before deadline..but i'm losing focus..i kept thinking what am I doing here, really..?

4. it's probably my pre-mid life crisis. (????), or my PMS is kicking in. not that i'm having my period anytime soon. oops. i'm not pregnant. my period just went MIA again. maybe thats why I'm having this feeeling.

5. no, i'm not moody. i'm just confused.

6. my hubby said i'm good in writing. i corrected him, 'i was good in writing'..the skill has gone since the day i left school abt 11 yrs ago.

7. ppl at my workplace thinks i'm creative. they especially like my passion for graphical thingie and the visuals that i use in my presentations. well, i do like graphics and picture and colors do speak larger than wordy wordy sentences. but i'm not creative, i'm just lazy to write long sentences with jargons that are dead wood and pointless. err, oops.

8. hafiz is asleep and he is currently making sounds-like he always do every night. i wonder y he cant sleep through the night yet. he is already 2 yrs old. shoudnt he be sleeping soundly till morning?

9. alya is sleeping peacefully.unless if hafiz makes that noise again. sometimes alya would wake up too when she hears her brother merengek.

10. i target to be online only for an hour. now it's already 2 hrs 23 minutes. it's 1.23 am. i shud go to sleep. hafiz is drinking his milk, finally falling back to sleep, at least for another 2 hrs. thanx hubby for my new laptop..it's compaq presario CQ42. motif? hehehe. i luv u.

11. i wanna go watch this movie. reason no.1 is Lisa Surihani. I like her since Adamaya. (oh, and i love Sein Ruffedge tu jugak..!!!!) mr hubby, sila jgn jeles.

walaupun Sein x berlakon muvi ni, xperlah..lgpun xseswai nama budak setan tu dgn dia, well suit for FK.oops.

i think i had liked Lisa when i first watch her in I'm not Single. she's just adorable and nampak mcm down to earth. unlike pelakon2 lain. kalau pelakon lain yg berlakon cerita ni, confirm i tak nak tgk pun. tunggu kluar kt ABOM sudah.anyway, saye tak pernah bace lagenda budak setan.kalau ader pun dah tak igt dah mcm mana cerita dia. which is baguslah..cos nanti spoil the excitement. i'd always prefer the other way around. tgk muvi dulu baru bace buku dia. if dah bace, amat jarang2 sekali i'll watch the movie adaptation. kalau tgk pun x abis cos it wud not be as thrilling as reading it the first time.cth: da vinci code, my sister's keeper, shopaholic...etc..

btw, nak join tgk? jom2.

gossip artis: saye rase FK ader hati kt LS and DD ada hati kt FK. saye rase better la LS takyah layan FK sbb FK ni cam seswai dgn DD je..sbb DD tu cam "bagus". LS deserves a better guy.someone like Sein..tp Sein is already taken. (tetibe Sein xder initial...hehehe)..ni saye rasa jelah..hahaa..pada pemerhatian saye..kalau salah mintak maaf yer..ok dah start ngarut. jom tidoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.

nak pai

2010-05-26T20:55:00.003+08:00

bukan pai as in 'pie',

pai = hi-5.

hafiz is one hi-5 freak. sehari tak tgk hi-5 mmg tak bole tido. dia jadik addicted to hi-5 since i bought the 1st dvd ..time tu lepas Raya tahun lepas kalau x silap..saje je beli sbb teacher ckp hafiz suke layan hi-5 pagi2 kt skool.

since then, mmgla makan hi-5, minum hi-5, tido hi-5. adela kejap dia lupa hi-5..masa papa bawak balik cite upin ipin. tiap2 hari tgk 'Pin'. tp memandangkan i nak dia belajar english (mama mmg poyo skit), i kurang menggalakkan dia tgk upin ipin..yg translated version nyer tak best.

pastu zaman pai kembali. bulan lepas first time bawak hafiz tgk wayang- how to train ur dragon..heheh..suke dia..walaupun mula2 masuk tu dia jerit satu wayang, "lap! lap!" (gelap, gelap)..pastu menjadi pekerjaan achik dia la meriba dia sepanjang wayang tu sbb dia xmo duduk atas seat..takut 'lap'. but we survived the movie..Alya pun ader skali(mama peluk, bfeed)..surprisingly Alya was sgt baik..diam je..Papa paling syok mkn popcorn.

pas cerita tu..hafiz kenallah dragon..walaupun dragon tu makhluk tahyul je, lantakla kan..

sakn g ni zaman Ben 10 plak..tp so far, kt rumah dia x request lg nk tgk Ben 10..just taksub dgn merchandize Ben 10 je..dptla habuan sticker books, kereta n latest skali skool bag Ben 10. layan kan jelah..hehehe..budak tgh membesar..syok tgk dia excited dpt barang.

tp pape pun..mlm2 tetap:

'Ma'
'Nak'
'Ngok'
'Pai'

(mama nak tengok Hi-5).

Sampai Mama n Papa dah hafal lagu2 hi-5 dgn steps2 nyer skali..and also the casts (lama dan baru)..semua kenal ok.

Tokma ckp asyik tgk pai je..cuba ngaji skit..hehehe..hafiz ader gak ngaji2 skit..ikut Kamal (seekor camel dlm cd 'Allah the creator')..hehe..ni pun feveret hafiz skang..sbb dia suke camel tu..tp hopefully dia tangkapla, zikir2 dlm cd tu skali..tgk cam dia asyik gelak tgk Kamal je..hehehehe

Note: Alya suke tgk Mickey Mouse CH. Hafiz dah x layan dah..dah matang agaknye ..;)

my everything

2010-05-19T14:03:00.002+08:00

The loneliness of nights alone

the search for strength to carry on

my every hope has seemed to die

my eyes had no more tears to cry

then like the sun shining up above

you surrounded me with your endless love

Coz all the things I couldn’t see are now so clear to me

You are my everything

Nothing your love won’t bring

My life is yours alone

The only love I’ve ever known

Your spirit pulls me through

When nothing else will do

Every night I pray

On bended knee

That you will always be

My everything

Now all my hopes and all my dreams

are suddenly reality

you’ve opened up my heart to feel

a kind of love that’s truly real

a guiding light that’ll never fade

there’s not a thing in life that I would ever trade

for the love you give it won’t let go

I hope you’ll always know

You are my everything

Nothing your love won’t bring

My life is yours alone

The only love I’ve ever known

Your spirit pulls me through

When nothing else will do

Every night I pray

On bended knee

That you will always be

My everything

You’re the breath of life in me

the only one that sets me free

and you have made my soul complete

for all time (for all time)

i wish...

2010-05-14T17:22:00.000+08:00

there's alot of things i wish to jot down in here. been quite a long while since i last wrote something worthy to be read..ahahaha..mcmla worthy sgt entry ni..kuikuikui..anyway, x sempatla nak tulis pjg2..my lappie rosak. sgtlah tidak best utk memblog di ofis hence the lack of postings..

I WISH MY HUBBY WOULD BUY ME A NEW LAPTOP SOON...

hehehe