We made it!!

yeah!..cubaan Mama utk meningkatkan berat badan (adik) berjaya!! Mula2 agak keciwa bila timbang kt klinik td, Mama hanya naik 1 kg dr last 2 weeks' check-up..tp bila scan, didapati adik dah pjg and had gained 600g from previous visit..cayalah!!..so now, based on scan ,adik is at 2.3kg..still a bit behind abang hafiz by 200g (at 36++ wks) tp xperlah..doc x ckp adik small dah..in fact, he said perut Mama nampak sgt penuh..mmg pun!!! huhu..yippie2~

owh yea..td tergezut kejap bila doc kata nak operate this Monday (3rd Nov)! giler gua tak ready lg..huhu..i've got a training to conduct on Monday & Tuesday tu..pastu kerja kt ofis pun x handover lg nih..so i mtk doc delay skit..so we agreed on 9th Nov...insyaAllah, adik will be born on that day...best2!! x sabar nak pegang adik!! :)))..in abt 1 week, hafiz will officially becomes THE big brother..hoyea~hoyea~

adik still songsang..kalau x plan nak operate, maybe i dah pegi urut2 nak kasik dia berpusing..tp since alang2 nak operate, xderlah concern sgt pasal position dia..tp yg pastinye, taktaulah ape adik buat dlm perut, rasa nak terkucil je every minute..nak jln laju2 pun x berani dah takut tercicir kt tgh jln..hehhee..

ada seminggu je lg to enjoy all kinds of food sblm kena berpantang..this time around i kena disiplin skit kot utk mengelakkan my scar got teruk mcm skang.. 2 weeks ni mmg mkn x hengat punye..mmg purposely nak gain weight..i munched all the time..atas meja ofis mesti ader biskut famous amos..pastu kekadang ader buah anggur..air soya ader sebotol (sampai basi2 soya tu..huhu)..pastu milo mesti minum,abis je top-up..lunch time, mkn nasik penuh pinggan..selalu mintak separuh je..huhu..mkn dgn sepenuh hati sampai my fren ckp, " cukup ke nasik tu?..ko nampak cam lapar lg je.." hahaha..ketahuilah sesungguhnye rasa nak termuntah adelah..tp kugagahkan jua..setiap pagi mesti minum anmum, and oso before tido...so yerp..rasa bersyukur sgt bila adik dah membesar @ normal range.. alhamdulillah~

things to do:-

1. buy that medela electric bpump @ Mothercare.tgh sale ni..murah2!!.
2. buy consumables for adik: kapas, wipes, diapers, etc.
3. buy new quilt comforter for adik..nanti berebut lak ngan abg hafiz ni..dia sayang sgt quilt comforter bear dia...
4. find extra hands to help during my maternity leave..since i berpantang @ my own house, so i think i'll need that extra help esp when hubby is @ offshore nanti...ade sape2 nak jadi my daily maid x??
5. Pack my hospital bag
6. PAMPER hafiz puas2.....shian anak Mama ni..pasni kena berkongsi kasih ngan adik..hehehe
7. finalizekan nama adik..Nur _______???????

owh..lets share some mkn2 pics:-

Ni sesi Melenggang Perut kt Al-Rawsha..

x byk gambar snap time ni..and gambar Hafiz semua x jadi except yg show his back ni..

hoho..mmg tak terkawal Hafiz time ni...berlari2 ke sana ke mari..sib baik kitorg book bilik for family yg style duduk bawah camni..bebas skit Hafiz nak bergerak..

Ni plak sessi Melenggang Perut cum gathering ex-hosmet UTP kt Chakri's Palace:-

there were only the 5 of us, Hana, Syifaak, Shazzy, Wanie and Yunk..Sha x dpt join becos she had to layan auditors, Erna plak x jd join sbb her baby x sihat..the rest semua duk jauh..so kira cam small gathering je...melenggang perut tu pasal utk adik, i x sempat nak wat sesi melenggang perut yg formal mcm time Hafiz dulu..dulu ada cuti (mc) before deliver., bole la nak plan kenduri kecil-kecilan...skang xder dah..huwaa..doc tak bg mc pun..sob sob..

and last but not least..Melenggang Perut kt mcD..hahhaa..xderlah~~..ni time hantar Yai balik Sudan @ KLIA mlm td..gambar fresh from oven ni..tgkla kebulatan saya dgn memakai tudung Bibik itu..sungguh terserlah!! hahaha

blur skit gambar..dah dkt kul 12 tgh mlm time ni..mata semua org pun dah kuyu2 je..

ok..that's all folks..tatatititutu!!

shopping mmg best!

Cuti Deepavali aritu kitorg menjelajah IKEA...and Papa telah membelikan Adik a changing table yg Mama idamkan itu...ekekke..thanx Papa!

Ni masa dah siap memasang..tgk tu Abang Hafiz pun tolong sekali mmg handy-manny betul..

Taraaa..inilah rupa bentuknye dlm bilik Adik..bilik ni juga merangkap bilik Mama berpantang nanti...kecik je, tp bagusla..senang nak bergerak sbb semua benda dekat..ehehhe..bilik Adik x abis kemas lg..tgk tu cot dia pun x naikkan lagi..Pinky Bear kepunyaan Achik tu nanti ader yg kena letak bawah katil..hihihi..xpun bg dia tido atas katil sekali ngan Hafiz n Papa kt Master Bedroom nanti..ganti Mama sementara Mama tgh berpantang..huahua..

Oh yea..aritu ckp nak shopping baju Hafiz kan? look what Mama ended up buying instead...

huhu..baju2 Adik!! very the irresistable!! cute bangat!! kebetulan Mothercare nyer stock baju lelaki this month cam x chumil je..pastu size Hafiz xder..kalau ader pun yg x comel tu lah..but Mam did buy some for HAfiz kt Isetan..tp shirt je without the seluar..xder jual separate seluar cotton...mostly jeans/khakis..nak pakai duk umah/school je takkan nak pakai jeans kot...maka..pada tghari td..Mama & Hafiz pun ke Tesco..

dan memborong baju2 Hafiz..disebabkan harga di Tesco sgt berpatutan, dan corak2 baju yg ader pun kiut-miut, maka tgklah hasilnye..kehkehkeh..yg bawah2 tu brg keperluan rumah..plastik2 atas je baju2 Hafiz..gugugaga~..td dah basuh semua baju baru dia..hilang dah bau Tesco..bau Softlan je ada..hehehe..owh, mmg mencabar membawa Hafiz ke Tesco sorang2 tnapa bantuan sesiapa..alhamdulillah , HAfiz was well-behaved..aderla 2-3 kali dia nak kuar dr seat troli tu, tp berjaya dirasuah dgn bedak..dia tgh obses dgn bedak skang....huhu

Hafiz sgt chumil skang..his vocab has expanded..Papa kata Mama yg byk ajar dia..tp Mama rasa HAfiz byk belajar sendiri..nak2 lagi skang dia tgh addicted dgn Mickey Mouse Clubhouse @PHDC...sgt2 addicted sampai kalau MMC tu xder pun kena bukak jugak PHDC..Mama nak layan Nur Kasih pun x boleh dah..Another one of his favorite is TOm-tom Bak..

Inilah wajah2i Hafiz bila tgh tgk MMC..time ni je dia akan duduk static atas tilam dia..pastu tersengih2 n gelak sengsorang..huhu.. Miska!-Muska!-Mickeyyyy-Mousee..!!

Okeh, nak gi layan muvi lak..i llove weekends!!! :))))))))

exhausted : entry penuh emosi

The last 3 weeks has been truly exhausting. When Papa ada kt rumah, there were a couple of times that i reached home @ 10pm..kalau pukul 8pm tu mmg byk..byk kali jugak Hafiz had to stay @ school until 8pm++ (when Papa has gone back to offshore)..itupun after i negotiate with my boss that i cant stayback any longer than 6pm..skali meeting habes dekat 7pm..pastu dgn sesak x hengat kt Akleh time2 camtu..rasa nak gigit je semua org..

if they cant understand my current condition - 9 months pregnant ni, i can still take it..ok, selagi kaki ni bole jln, otak bole berfikir,i dont mind all the work that i have to do becos thats what i'm paid for..and i pun faham dgn our tight project schedule and limited resources..tp kalau stayback setakat sbb nak bermeeting and ckp2 blablablabla benda yg x berapa urgent/penting, tolonglah buat waktu lain..sekurang2nye,please consider my anak kan..takkanla nak biar my son tu kt sekolah sampai mlm2 buta..cikgu dia pun nak berehat..bila jumpe Hafiz tgk dia dah tido, rasa nak nangis je..Mama jenis apelah saya ni sampai seharian x jumpa anak..

i'm glad that my teammates at least understand my situation..like this week when i cant stayback, they cover up for me..and there was one night during this week that they duduk wat keje kt ofis until 12.30am..and then another teammate brought the project documents to our project site at 4.00 am!! gilalah.. mmg pecah rekod semua org..i am truly terhutang budi kt diaorg ni...altho i had done my part,cuma rasa ralat skit sbb x bole stay bersama2 team utk completekan the whole process..eh,tp x complete lagi..byk lagi phase nih...huwaaaaaaaaaa!!!

selain tu,bengang jugak bila org2 luar x faham bila kite ckp kite busy. dahla anggap kitorg ni mcm helpdesk + problem solver + personal assistant + justifier kepada semua masalah2 berkaitan dgn system...bole tak KPI drg x meet pun suh kitorg justify kan?? apekah???? pastu bile kite dah tolong ape2 bukan nak ckp terima kasih. siap bole ckp.."ala,mcm korang je bz,kitorg pun bz jugak.."..dah tu buat la sendiri!!! gerammmnyerrr... skang status kt Communicator saye pun mmg saye letak "Do Not Disturb"..on communicator pun sbb nak contact teammates..kekadang bengang tahap naga rasa mcm malas nak pick-up phone dr org2 tertentu..tp terpaksa jugak angkat..nanti ckp ktorg bolayan plak..cuma satu je,drg ni, bole tak faham that they are not our first priority right now??? kalau nak sila log-in myJin atau call helpdesk iPer*nt*s. Thank You for your understanding.

I've been really bz that i didnt have time to buy new clothes for Hafiz. Yes, he has outgrown most of his baju!!! sian btul la anak Mama sorang ni...every night when i pack his stuff for school, mesti pening kepala nak carik baju that he can still fits in..

Esok..insyaAllah..during the Friday prayer break, Mama will for shop for you yer Hafiz..and some for Adik too!!!

Yeay, bestnyer shopping!!!

she's too small

Siang tadi went for 34th week check-up @ Dr.M*rlik's clinic. The sad news is Dr. said adik is too small for a 34th week baby. She's currently at 5th percentile of growth which is very worrisome. Dr. mentioned the possibility of some abnormalities but he cant confirmed anything yet. He did say that adik cud actually be doing fine, becos based on the detailed scan that we did last month,all her organs seem well. She cud be small because she's a girl.

I compared her growth with Hafiz's growth @ 34th week. Hafiz was 2.2+kg while adik is currently 1.7+kg..then,i weighed 53++kg..now I'm only at 50 kg. I asked Dr. was my diet the factor contributing to my baby's small size?..he said it cud be..i havent been eating well since the start of my 2nd pregnancy. i guess it's due to my morning sickness coupled with stress @ work..even now at lunch time pun i always resort for benda2 ringan like waffles, roti2 shj..i dont have appetite for rice, any kind of rice.. and i did not take any maternal milk sbb x suke susu!! becos of that my baby is not getting all the needed nutrients for growth kot..huahua.. or maybe becos i did not get much sleep and rest like i used to while carrying Hafiz...rasanya x sampai 3 kali pun dat i slept during the day this whole time carrying Adik (on weekdays)..sorry baby,Mama mmg teruk.. ;((

oh yea, another thing abt adik..she lays breech..she's been laying breech since the last 2 scans..Dr.mentioned dat if she doesnt turn in time for birth , my choice to do elective ceaserean wud be somewhat justified. Hurmm.. it doesnt make my worries go away. Is something wrong with my baby? Papa assured that everything is alright..that i dont have to worry so much..i'm worried if adik is suffering from anything..but Papa said, if the doctors cant tell yet, we cud only hope and pray that everything is OK. yg lain2 tu, kena berserah pada Allah..after all, Dia yg Menjadikan..

After the appointment, i made a vow to myself that I'll make sure adik will gain her weight to the normal percentile in time for our next check-up on 31st Oct..I aim to increase my weight to another 3 to 5 kg..i will make sure i drink at least 2 glasses of Anmum Materna everyday without fail..i promise i will never skip any meal; bfast, morning break,lunch, tea time,dinner, supper..i'll eat all i can..

I'll try to not be stressed out abt work so much..(how??)

I'll rest as much as possible, at every chance i've got..

I'll make sure adik will be born in the best of health..insyaAllah..

From Fetal Development:

Week Thirty Four: Rapid growth continues

You are 34 weeks pregnant. (fetal age 32 weeks) Your baby now is approximately 18 inches long and weighs about 5.25 pounds. Baby is now 46cm crown to heel and the weight is 2400 grams. Your child has now an excellent chance of survival outside the womb. Fat accumulations plumps up the arms and legs this week. Eyes opened when awake and closed when sleeping. The fingernails are now completely formed. Even babies born earlier than this could survive outside the womb with hospital support although the risk of complications would be high. Your baby may have already turned to a head down position in preparation for birth. The skull bones are still pretty flexible and not completely joined to help to ease exit out of the narrow birth canal. Fat accumulations plumps up the arms and legs this week. The baby's skin is also becoming less wrinkled. Braxton Hicks contractions may be getting more numerous and stronger. Thanks to antibodies crossing the placenta the baby is developing immunities to mild infections

Clarks are cheaper than Crocs

A fact that i just realized while mencuci mata di Isetan tgh hari td.

Apekah significantnye kedua2 brand ini dlm kehidupan saya?

Takde pape pun...cuma selama ni saya selalu rasa kasut2 Clarks ni mahal2 walaupun xpernah bother nak belek harga..hehehe...samelar mcm jenama2 barangan lain mcm Prada, Tod's, apetah lagi yg bersepah kt klcc tu ... tetiap hari lalu depan kedai2 tu tp bukan setakat masuk, jeling pun jauh sekali..sedar diri ini tak mampu..eceh~

Saya bukan jenis org yg kisah pasal brand..tp utk kepuasan diri sendiri, there are items yg kalau boleh mmg i demand for well-known good quality brands. Contohnye:

1. Sandal/Kasut - sbb saya beli kasut adelar setahun sekali..xpun selagi x putus atau kasut tu tercedera, selama tu lar saya akan pakai kasut tu..jadi saye mmg cari yg paling2 koman pun Scholl..tahan lasak n comfy..another favorite of mine is Hush Puppies. Utk hubby plak, kesukaan dia ialah Obermain..dia mempunyai sepasang sandal Obermain yg sudah pun berusia 3 tahun yg masih utuh..yg ni pun beli kt Labuan dulu..murah je..duty free kan..kekekeke..utk Hafiz, sejak 2menjak nistended kasut dia dah up sikit..dulu bantai segala brand ada tp lately stick to Crocs shj..reasonnye sebab tahan lasak and never look worn..i foresee that nanti adik dia bole pakai plak bila Hafiz dah x muat nak sarung nanti..

2. Watch - always been Fossil or Swatch..Fossil for its funky design and Swatch,duh, becos The others just Watch..hehehe..hubby plak suke Rolex..hahaha..tp dlm mimpi la nak beli satu kan..kalau dia nak beli pun saya akan membuat bantahan keras + mogok..apekah nikmatnye pakai jam berpuluh2 ribu when ada jam yg harga RM10 je that still shows the same time??? Err, right back at me for choosing Fossil/Swatch..tp at least still reasonable harga jam2 nih..(justified?)

3. Handbag - actually x kisah sgt brand pape..gua belasah je..ikut mood..ader mood kekadang beg Teddy Tales pun saya pakai je gi ofis..tp like i said before, for satisfaction i have at least one bag that is of some well-known brand la..saje je..konon2 jaga stended la kan..kot2la ader org ajak gi function2 korporat ke...bukanlah ader org nak jengah pun kite pakai handbag ape,tp kekadang rasa konfident je bila pakai brg mahal skit..tgklah mak2 datin sbg contoh..

4. Tudung - tudung pun ader brand skang..jgn main2..while org lain sibuk ngan tudung Arianni la..Ct Nurhaliza la, dan pelbagai2 la yg bergitu-gitu tu, my pilihan kalbu is still the one and only Bawal Exclusive..walaupun leceh nak pakai sbb kena iron dulu dan kena pakai pin, tp xperlah..janji selesa n cuns..sbbnye kalau saye pakai tudung style yg tgh hot skang..saya rasa muka saya seperti Bibik..huahuahua..

hurm..tu je kot..brg2 lain tak kisahla jenama ape jua asalkan qualitynya tip-top.

Setiap perbuatan dgn niat yg baik, akan dipermudahkan olehNya...

..dan setiap doa dgn tujuan yg baik, Allah akan tetap makbulkan kalau itu yg terbaik dlm rancanganNya..

At times bila saya rasa mcm susah sgt nak bg org paham, Allah mendengar rintihan hati saya. Alhamdulillah, segalanya OK setakat ni..walaupun kekadang rasa nakcollapse tu ada jugak..

As our project drew closer to its go-live date, kerja pun menimbun-nimbun..eversince balik dr cuti raya, asyik balik umah dekat2 kul 7pm..tu pun memikirkan En Hafiz and baby dlm perut + Mama herself ni yg perlukan rest... agaknye kalau still single bole kot sampai ke lewat mlm terperuk kt ofis tu..

x kisah sgt dgn paperwork semua ni..i realized saya jenis org belakang tabir, more of a doer than a talker..so bukanla sesuatu yg pelik if my own boss x sedar what i do all these days..i dont have time to 'boast' around telling ppl abt what i do..ader setengah org yg kerja dia ialah update, update and update boss..tp update jelar..yg tukang buatnye org lain..manyak cantek ini worang..depan boss mcm dia buat segalanya..tp xperla..bagus jugak ader org rajin cenggitu..tak payahla saya sibuk2 nak gi update boss..kekekeke..

ader jugak jenis orang (selalunye yg sama kategori spt di atas) yg suke hati mak datuk dia pass2 keje kat org lain..dgn alasan: "saya buat kerja high-level je..yg low2 level mcm paperwork semua ni bg kt ABC lah.." padahal En. ABC ni sama pangkat je dgn yg tuan berckp tu..apekah?

org kategori yg sama jugak selalu x share information atau mungkin dia lupa utk share critical information that is needed by the team..hangin satu badan ok..dlm kitorg duk berhempas pulas pikir idea n ayat utk direka cipta utk buat plan kiteorg, tau2 dia dah ader sample from somebody and dia duk senyap je the whole time we were discussing. yg lg hangin, bila last week, i mintak dia amik sample tu, dia bole suh i mintak sendiri sbb dia dah malas nak jumpe resource person tu..padahal mmg itu part of job scope dia, gi communicate ngan org itu..tau2 semalam when other team members gi jumpe, resource person itu memberitahu maklumat itu telah pun diberi kepada En. Malas masa En.Malas mula2 berjumpa dgn nya. Cis, cis dan cis lagi..nasib baik plan itu dah siap..so we juz compare je takut2 ader benda missing..we took anther copy of the sample from dat resource person and we didnt even confront En. Malas pasal kejadian sbb kitorg pun dah malas nak berckp dgn En. Malas..biarla dia dgn dunia blur nyer..

orang dlm cerita dia atas,utk ketiga-tiga kategori merujuk kepada org yg sama. walaupun ader sorang je yg camni dlm project team kitorg effectnyer tetap x best..sbb saya jenis kalau x suke org mmg akan nampak sgt obvious..wahahhaha~..nanti mesti dia perasan and dia terasa..kesian la pulak..tp sape suh berperangai sedemikian..it's good enuff that the rest of us tak gi ngadu kt boss..

berbalik kepada tajuk..next entry lah..hahaha..nak gi sambung tido..esok keje lagi...waaaaaaa~~

Let's meet the family~

helo semua...selamat hari raya~~!! best kan raya tahun ni? Mama ckp tahun ni best sbb x payah packing & unpacking..kitorg semua beraya di KL~ weehuu~~Ini gmabar family Hafiz..tgk tu, adik pun sibuk masuk gambar..boyot2 perut Mama..huhu


Meh Hafiz nak citer skit kisah di Hari Raya..



Raya tahun ni dpt celebrate dgn both family Papa n Mama serentak, on the same day..kira meriah jugakla.. and xderla sesi sedey2 sbb x dpt beraya dgn keluarga masing2..hehehe..

Gambar atas ni gambar adik-beradik Papa. Kiri sekali Busu Aisyah, diikuti dgn Papa yg hensem, then Pak Andak, Pak Uda dan di hujung kanan ialah Mak Ngah.. apetah drg tgk tu...cam saspen jer..


Wajah2 yg control cuns ni ialah adik-beradik Mama..gambar Pak Long je xder..ader dlm video camera To'Ki..Tu yg kanan yg paling cun ialah Mama Hafiz lah..hehehe..tgh2 tu Achik yg rajin jaga Hafiz dr Hafiz baby lagi..sekarang Hafiz dah big boy pun Achik rajin nak layan..tabah betul Achikku sorang ni..yg kiri sekali tu Achu..Achu dulu takut2 nak pegang Hafiz.sekarang dia rajin pulak nak dukung Hafiz..hehehe..cayalah Achu~~ best gak dah besar2 ni ader org dukung..maklumlah, Mama kalau Hafiz nak dukung dia wat tatau je..sob sob..~


Ni semua kazen2 Mama yg kategori anak dara..sape2 berkenan silalah contact boyfren2 drg ni, mintak kebenaran nak masuk meminang..ader yg dah bertunangpun..kalau berani contactla tunang drg..kehkehkeh..tgk tu, mentang2 tak kawen lagi bole dpt duit raya..iskisk..ini tidak adil~~


Ini To'Ma and To'Ki..gamabr drg ni rupe2nye dlm camera Mama xder gambar yg drg bersama...huahua..itulah To'Ma, time To'Ki dah siap posing dia x mandi lagi..pastu x bg kitorg amik gamabr dia dgn Tshirt masham dia..hehee...pastu dah sibuk org ramai, terus lupe nak bergambar...xperlah..nanti kite suruh drg pakai sedondon balik..oh yea..tu gamabr To'Ki kt hospital masa melawat Onyang..muka insaf je..hihihi


Ni plak Yai dgn Nyai..jgn terkejut tgk Yai Hafiz jadik Pirate of the Carribean..sebenarnye Yai baru operate sebelah mata..shian Yai, mata dia x nampak sebelah..ader tear n bleeding kt dlm..isk isk scary~~tgk tu, Nyai pun x pakai baju raya time ni, tp kitorg hantam saja amik gambar...



Yg pakai T-shirt all black tu lar Onyang Hafiz..ni masa To'Ki tgh potong rambut Onyang..Hafiz saje je sibuk kt situ..sebenanrnye tgh tgk monkeys kt pokok luar umah tu..


Hafiz suke sgt dpt spend time dgn Papa n Mama..

Byk lg gambar, tp x saspen la nak share semua kan..ape yg penting,cuti raya kali ni best sgt!! kan best kalau school cuti lama2 lagi..tp Mama n Papa kena cuti jugakla..kalau x sangap plak Hafiz sorang2..kalau Mama n Papa cuti sekali, hari2 kite bole gi jenjln~ best2~!


Kita enjoy~~!!

Signing off,
Hafiz, 1 1/2 yrs old oredi~